Macklemore's Grammy Preformance

If you didn't watch the Grammy's you missed out. I actually didn't watch it nut I a catching up and I am loving it. Macklemore's preformance made me cry. It was so sweet and kind. It was amazing. If you watch this on YouTube do not read the comments because a bunch of people just don't understand how awesome and beautiful this was. I am actually shaking I am so upset with people. This was the best preformance and just amazing. It's so awesome to see all these people.

MLover

Building Up

I have this extremely long post building up in my head, well actually it's on paper. I do so much writing out what I want to say instead of typing it and lately many people have been pissing me off so now after like maybe a week I have this post that's still in my head and slightly on paper.


I don't know how to describe it but I just really can't stand the world right now. I just want to go home and lay in my bed. I have this huge headache and my teeth hurt.


Everywhere I go someone is grinding on my nerves when they usually wouldn't. I need the weekend to come or just a holiday. I am so ready for Valentine's Day weekend. Not because it is Valentine's day but because it is a four day weekend and I just decided in my mind that I will not go over anyone's house. I might go see a movie with my nerds but I don't want to be dealing with the others people. I have to get my extra things in order and my grades.






I feel myself slipping but I don't want to fall.






MusicalLover

Fangirl For a Sec

Sooooo I watch Degrassi, whatever whatever whatever think what you will ML watches Twilight so she can't even judge me ANYWAY
I'm having a little fangirl moment over Eli and Clare, I'm watching previous episodes and God Munro Chambers acts like the perfect boyfriend except for you know when he went all bi crazy and cheated on her but I mean before all of that it was so cute!!! So cute! All right, all right, I'm done.
Okay guys so it's weird cause I keep catching Aaron looking at me and at first I was like, okay quinkydink whatever whatevs because sometimes I stare into space in the direction of a person and then they turn around and look me in the eye and I snap out of it and it's awkward but I'm not really looking AT THEM. So yesterday I was in Spanish and we got new seating so he sits like, three rows away from me and a seat in front of me so he would have to twist to look at me, right? But there I was talking to some peoples and I felt someone looking at me and naturally I know where the staring person is coming from so I looked and he looked away. It was weird.
Cause, like, he would have to twist to see me. So idk... Because if I glance at him in the hall automatically when I look away he glances back right at me. I'm pretty sure I'm over analyzing this. Like, way out of proportion but I guess I can't help it.
It's not like I can do anything about it though. Even if he liked me it wouldn't matter, Perla and Zarnez still have a thing for him and I don't go after guys my friends like. I just don't do it. Even if they say its okay it causes too much drama that I don't feel like dealing with.
But anyway, Munro Chambers is adorable. That is all.

KatCentral

My eyes

Okay having glasses and staring at a computer screen is not a good idea. My eyes hurt so bad. I just want to lay down and close them.


I'm in my class trying to out together a powerpoint for this year's black history program at my school. Guys y'all just don't understand that names and pictures are so hard to find. There a bunch of pictures but no names or dates. There are a thousand names but no pictures. It's so hard to find all these things. And plus it is depressing. I saw this picture of this black man being kicked in the face and I just wanted to cry. Plus it doesn't help that my eyes are hurting.


And now look at black people today. Lord, help us. I gotta go. I have some Advil in my purse somewhere.






MLover

Prayer

We need to pray for Kat. I feel like her mom is about to kill her. So let us pray. I don't even know how but still. 

Um... God. 

I know I don't do this a lot and I talk a lot of shit about you but I really need you to let Kat live. She can't die. Please don't let her mother kill her. 

And can you also fix my computer. I really kinda need that thing. 

How do I end this. 

Thanks. Hope you listen. 

Amen.

On a more serious note I really hope you're not in that much trouble Kat.

Love you!!!! 

So yeah. Twin powers activated!!!! 

MLover

Sometimes i think about this

okay so at first i was all, okay i like him and i know it, cool. then i realized she liked him too and that was fine and then i found out he liked her back which was still fine but yeah it hurt. her being my best friend and all. but of course i wanted them to go out i like being happy so who would i be to restrict someone elses happiness right? of course i was a little miffed she ended it after a day. but whatever, you know? and then we started texting. he was all heartbroken and i liked him so i wanted to be there for him. so we texted and talked and it was really great. i really thought that he liked me too. he said he did. and i believed him. all summer i believed him. right up until the beginning of freshman year which is supposed to be so exciting and amazing and it totally was right up until he gave HER his class ring. she gave it back of course but it was kind of my breaking point. cause that really hurt. and i cried and no one knew this until now but i cried A LOT. So i just decided to give it up because i couldnt take it if that happened again.
So listen up guys. Sometimes nice girls finish last too.

KatCentral

Really quick

I was just going to post some lyrics really quickly because this song is making me kinda sad or whatever but then I read Kat's post.

I'm not going to tell her to grow a spine. I don't even like how that sounds. I can't really say anything she said one mean thing and I called this lady I saw today an orangoutang. I'm serious this lady looked like one. And not a monkey either an orangoutang. It's mean as hell but gosh. 

And the biology teacher is just... Lord knows... She was trippin'. I know I'm not the most well behaved but still. 

Anyways let me post these lyrics so I can go to sleep. I started talking and now the feeling is gone so I have to listen to it again. Jesus Kiss Me Through the Phone by Soulja Boy came on. Yeah let me go back. Gosh why do I even have that song. Really Soulja Boy. I had to be drunk or something. 

This is I Believe by Christina Perri from her new album Head or Heart that will be released in March. I'm super excited for it because I love her and she's awesome. I love Human (another from the same album) and this song. She always has a strong message behind her songs that doesn't always deal with love and even when she does the message is still good. I just love her and her voice. 

I believe if I’d knew where I was going

I’d lose my way

I believe that the words that he told you are not your grave

I know that we are not the weight of all our memories

I believe in the things that I am afraid to see

Hold on, hold.....

I believe in the lost possibilities you can’t see.

And I believe that the darkness reminds us where light can be.

I know that your heart is still beating, beating darling.

I believe that you fell so you can land next to me.

Hold on, hold.....

‘cause I’ve been where you are before,

And I have felt the pain of losing who you are,

And I have died so many times but I am still alive.

I believe that tomorrow is stronger than yesterday.

And I believe that your head is the only thing in your way.

I wish that you could see your scars are linked of beauty.

I believe that today it’s okay to be not okay.

Hold on, hold.....

‘cause I’ve been where you are before,

And I have felt the pain of losing who you are,

And I have died so many times but I am still alive.

This is not the end of me,

This is the beginning.

(Hold on)

(I am still alive)

"I Believe" - Christina Perri

Okay so I'm in Digital Imagery

I used to have Digital Layout but the next semester of this class is called Digital Imagery right?
So they guy I told you about who asked me out but kinda didn't at the same time?
Yeah well he has ADHD and I have nothing against people with ADHD I have a lot of friends with that disorder but ohmygosh they can't tell when someone doesn't want to talk to them. They, like, can't read the signals that show that someone is disinterested so he's here on the other side of the computer talking about crap that I really couldn't care about and it's just so annoying I can't tell him to stop talking to me cause I'm not mean like that.
I know ML is probably going to be like, grow a spine, but I just can't do it but I'm going to die in this class. The guy he used to talked to left to go to another school so now its just me who can listen to this stupid stuff.
I'm not being mean I swear the last thirty minutes have been JUST about him and his bad luck, running into walls and the critters living in his house and then it was on this girl named Hilary or something who apparently only let HIM get close to her, and no other guy and I was like "I find THAT hard to believe" but you know, I didn't say it out loud.
And even know when I am not looking up from the screen he keeps talking.
Oh God...

KatCentral

First post in forever

Okay guys, I have to say some stuff.
Firstly, sorry I haven't posted in a while. I've just been busy.
Secondly, boys with puppy dog eyes drive me up the wall. I just can't. I know two boys who always make this pout-y face whenever they come across members of the opposite sex. I mean, chin down, eyes wide, batting eyelashes the whole shtick I'm just like GIVE ME A BREAK.
See now I'm mad I need a break gosh I'll be back

KatCentral

Home... Well Maybe???

Okay so I'm back down south. In at the place where I spend most months out of the year. I really want to text Kat but she's at school so I can't. 

So leaving my mom it was all bright and sunny. Cold but still. It was nice. We were joking and laughing the whole way to the airport. But then we come down here and the skies are grey and its all wet and just gloomy. My father barely talks to me the whole way from the airport. 

So when he met me at the luggage claim thing whatever he said "Hey girly." He doesn't look excited or enthusiastic or anything. He looks bored and ready to go. 

Later in the car he's mumbling to himself and he says and semi yelling at the cars in front of him, "Y'all need to go I gotta go pick up my babies."

He's talking about my little sisters. 

I know that I'm older and my father is more helpful with younger children but oh my gosh I was a little hurt. 

Sometimes I feel like the ugly stepchild. Which I am the stepchild, I'm not ugly but whatever. I feel like my father thinks that I'm just extra baggage and when in gone he's with the family. I feel like I visit him and then go home to my mother. 

I've been thinking about moving up there more and more but I could never leave my nerds or my school. I don't know. I wish it was the opposite. My mother loved down here and I would go visit my father. 

I'm just tired of feeling left out f my own home. They do all these things when I'm gone.  And when I'm here in never invited along. There's no fun in that. I feel like a freaking stranger in my own home. I don't want to feel like this. 

I'm hungry. I want some Subway... 

Huh... 

MusicalLover

Pretty Little Liars & Ravenswood

To be honest I don't really feel like trying this post but I need to get these thoughts out of my head and somewhere where I can look back. 

**Spoiler Alerts** 

I totally am pissed right now. One I think ABCFamily is promoting Ravenswood more than Pretty Little Liars. That's stupid because there would be no Ravenswood without PLL and also because PLL is one of the reasons people started watching that damn show in the first place. Another reason is because I thought PLL was going to blow my effing mind. It was okay. But Ravenswood was like woah. A lot of stuff is going to unveiled.

Ravenswood can't take the place of PLL. I mean seriously its annoying me. 

But let me talk about the shows. 

So Pretty Little Liars. Ali's alive and apparently Ezra is A. I don't believe Ezra is A. 

I watched the marathon today and I swear in every episode it appeared more and more that Ezra was A even though I had already seen those and never thought that. So it clouded my judgment maybe. I don't know. What I do know is that I read this thing online listing evidence and speculation as to why Aria is A and that Ezra might just be working for her. 

Ezra and Aria are my favorite characters so to me it's like huh. I always say you have to love the bad guy so I'm looking back and just going huh. 

And so Mona knows or at least suspects Ezra to be A and was talking to him. My face was like what. You could tell she got a little nervous when Ezra started talking about fear being a motivator and stuff. I still don't think Ezra is A but whatever. 

And so Spencer's dad wants to shut down Radley. I really think he should leave it alone. Toby got what he wanted and that was for his moms death to not be considered a suicide. 

And now we know that some random body is buried in Ali's tomb. The girl Sara that they thought was in there sounds exactly like Ali. The way her friends described her and the way Ali acts is like the same. And I don't understand why her friend came back to talk to Emily. Was that important? 

And then Hanna and Caleb break up. I can not believe that Ravenswood broke them up. Are we serious? I mean really are we serious? Ravenswood is just... 

And then we get Ali's diary and how Ali talks about the liars. We never got see what she said. So what did she say? I don't know if I can wait until next week. 

On to Ravenswood. So Miranda's dead, two people sacrificed themselves in hopes to bring original Miranda and Caleb back, Olivia's boyfriend is not on her side, and other stuff. 

Today we find that the two people who sacrificed themselves are original Miranda's mother and original Caleb's father. Miranda and Caleb were in love and when they died their parents tried to bring them back. Two life's for two life's. 

We also are told that the Collins family has something to do with the curse. I mean the preacher was working with them. He convinced the men of the town to sign the treaty. What is this all 

about??? 

And then Grindawald knows way more than she wants to let go of. And then what is that protecting her??? I mean Miranda got thrown down cause of that. 

And also I can not believe Collins is trying to get all friendly with Olivia and Luke's mother. I mean its weird. And then he's just in their house like its nothing. And why is he now trying to get close. 

And I love Remy. I love her hair and I love that it was her mother in Afghanistan instead of her father. I think there is more going on with her. She's the only one who sleep walks and has the weird dreams. I mean she saw the treaty being signed and lead Caleb and Luke to where it was signed. 

I can not believe that a pitchfork got thrown at them and then a scarecrow came. Woah. Why is this happening?

I thinks that everything. I don't know. I just have to go. My tooth hurts and I don't know why. Anyways it's almost 12:00. 

Two more things. 

Oh my gosh Kellun Lutz is Hercules in the new movie. I saw that and was like wow. 

And Vampire Academy looks like shit and they completely missed the mark. One the vampire craze is over so no one really cares. Two, the previews don't even look like it would match the book. Yes it's a book and the book was good. Well it was decent. The movie just looks like a bad porno or something and I can tell it doesn't follow the book. I'm really pissed at these movie being based of books and its like the directors or whatever didn't even open the damn book. READ THE BOOK DUMBASSES. God I'm just like... I'm so mad. All these people wanting to make movies and seriously don't even pay attention. To the people who read the books it's cool to see them come alive on screen and yeah we probably are more judgmental than those who haven't read the books but what-the-fuck-ever. I mean I feel like they don't even try sometimes. 

Movie recommendations: 

I love White House Down and 2 Guns. I really love White House Down. Not just because of Channing Tatum. I mean he's a good incentive but yeah. 

Anyways that's more than two things and its almost 12. Goodnight y'all. 

MusicalLover

Snow

Okay so I went up North for winter vacation. I was supposed to go back down south today but it just got bad. 

Okay so it snowed a lot yesterday. We had to take my younger brother back home and it was bad. Every couple of miles you would see a car stuck in a ditch. And so today there was like 8 or more inches of snow. Actually it might have been a foot of snow. It was up to my knees. And it was still snowing. It was -15 degrees where I was supposed to catch my flight and no one was flying so my flight got cancelled. 

I wouldn't have gotten there anyways. We never left the city my mom lived in. She was driving and couldn't see the road in from of her. The snow was blowing and it was just bad. The next flight we could do is Thursday so yeah. 

I have a couple more day. Most people might be happy because their missing school and I am kind of happy but missing school for me is freaking hard. You miss one day and you struggle to catch up for like the rest of the year and into the next year. Until you graduate. 

Okay so that over exaggerated but still you struggle for a while. 

Yeah. So I have to go. I'm going to take a nap. I have a bag of gummy worms next to me and a Brisk. I'm just ready. 

See you later guys!!!

MusicalLover

I hate people. 

I don't even know...

I hate when adults say, "Get ready to go" and when you're ready they aren't anywhere near being ready. If you're going to tell me to get ready to go you have to at least be somewhat ready to go. Don't start doing stupid shit cause you think I'm going to take a long time or just because. Especially if you're on a schedule and have shit to do today. 

Oh my gosh. That shit really erks me. Don't expect to be sitting in my clothes waiting for you. And then telling me to do random shit that doesn't help us leave faster. And then want to say I have an attitude. Bitch please. 

I'm ready to go and my Mom has no clothes on and hasn't done anything. She has to be somewhere at 4 and wants to get all this stuff don't before them and already 1:10 you can't slow down time. Lets go. Tired of this shit. Everybody else got that jackets on and shoes and wrapped up and she still has pajamas on. And I'm tired of her always asking me to do something. 

Go wash the dishes, go load the dishwasher, go shovel snow, get the clothes together, make a grocery list. I really want to say be a mom and do it yourself. 

Urgh. I have to go make a grocery list. 

Bye y'all. 

MusicalLover