I HAVE A NEW BEST FRIEND

Her name is Penny.
Shes adorable, energetic, and likes playing catch. We're having a sleepover tonight, and tomorrow night. She doesn't like watching TV, but she loves taking walks and playing tag.
Penny is my aunt's dog... duh.
I love her soooo muuuch! *squee!*
I'm tired so Ill be going to bed soon, but I just had to post. I haven't in for-freaking-ever. nothing much has been going on. My parents dropped me and my brother off here until Tuesday. I don't mind. I'm glad I get to see my aunt(AND PENNY) and tomorrow we're gonna go to the boardwalk (YAY!) and maybe get Chinese food? I love Chinese food. So good. But seriously guys its been a while. I just don't have the access to computers at my dad's house that i have at my mom's. I don't mind, it just means I post less when I'm on vacation. Id use my dads kindle fire, but it doesn't work well with the blog, and my stepmom takes her IPad to work with her. I don't mind, but I miss posting. I cant wait until school starts again! I cant wait to see all my friends again. Its going to be the bomb!
Eyes...closing....talk....later....

KatCentral

Broken Crown

Touch my mouth and hold my tongue
I'll never be your chosen one
I'll be home safely tucked away
Well You can't tempt me if I don't see the day

The pull on my flesh was just too strong
Stifled the choice and the air in my lungs
Better not to breathe than to breathe a lie
'Cause when I opened my body I breathe in a lie

I will not speak of your sins
There was a way out for him
The mirror shows not
Your values are all shot

But oh my heart, was flawed I knew my weakness
So hold my hand consign me not to darkness

So crawl on my belly 'til the sun goes down
I'll never wear your broken crown
I took the road and I fucked it all away
Now in this twilight, how dare you speak of grace

So crawl on my belly 'til the sun goes down
I'll never wear your broken crown
I took the road and I fucked it all away
Now in this twilight, how dare you speak of grace

So crawl on my belly 'til the sun goes down
I'll never wear your broken crown
I can take the road and I can fuck it all away
But in this twilight, our choices seal our fate

Broken Crown - Mumford & Sons

I went and looked up the lyrics of this song online and in two places I read that it was about refusing religion. The singer of this band grew up a Christian and now he won't call himself on even though he believes in the existence of God. That is was about how the church is hypocritical and he was tired of wearing the "broken crown". The which represents goodness, righteousness, and authority. He talks about how he will crawl on his belly, like a snake. And in the Bible the Devil disguises himself as a snake. Anyways it is saying he would rather be a sinner that someone who is held on a pedestal but is a hypocrite.

And my favorite part "I took the road and fucked it all away. But in this twilight, how dare you speak of grace. But in this twilight, our choices seal our fate."

So if you don't just pick up on the meaning instantly it's saying he is off the past to being this "perfect" Christian. He left the path because he didn't want to deal with the hypocrisies dealing with the church. And when he did it he was probably scrutinized and talked about but how can they judge him when sooner or later they will be judged to. His choices has sealed his fate. Just like my choices sealed mine.

This song inspired me and I have had it on repeat for an entire day. This song hits home with me because i have had a lot of problems dealing with my religion and trying to figure out where I stand. Growing up and even now I see family members acting one way in church and another way put of church. I have seen people talking crap about other people even though God is "supposed" to love everyone no matter what they have done. I am tired of religion being forced on me but then others telling me that I need to go out and find Christ for myself. I am so tired of having my Grandmother push for me to get prayed over when I don't want it. I want to be able to make my own religious choices even if that means I am not religious at all. 

MLover

Die In A Hole

I'm having a bad day.

My mother and grandmother just pissed me off to new ends. They completely ignored me and didn't even care about what I had to say. I was already pissed that my mother is trying to control my room. I have an  image in my head and now my image is being screwed and changed. And now I can't get the bed I like after I let go of the other image that I want. I mean it wasn't my first choice but I liked it and I can't get it. My mother wants a baybed in my room and I don't. I want a regular bed like everyone else in the house. They don't make full size daybeds and I refuse to sleep in a twin. I am going to end up killing my Grandmother. She is the most impatient, condescending, annoying, and rude. She doesn't listen to anything I say even when she ask me. and now my mother can't come pick me up from her house, not like she asked me before she planned something and just decided that I had to stay. I don't feel like staying here another night. I am so tired of waking up early to hearing her on the phone gossiping with her friends about someone. They pissed  me off so bad I lost my urge to write. All the inspiration left my body and I couldn't concentrate. And I haven't had any luck writing in a long time. Ugh. I am so tired.

I had to go swimming with my little cousin today and I seriously didn't want to. I'm cramping and I am craving chocolate so bad. If you are a girl then you should know what that is but whatever I am not about to get into that.

I am so tired of being walked over. I can't stand being down south but right now the north is pissing me off. I feel like crying, but that might just be the you - know - what talking, and I don't cry. Ever.

I wanna go die in the hole.








Rip the earth in two with your mind
And seal the urge which ensues with brass wires
I never meant you any harm
But your tears feel warm as they fall on my forearms

But close my eyes for a while
And force from the world a patient smile

And how can you say that your truth is better than ours?
Shoulder to shoulder, now brother, we carry no arms
And the blind man sleeps in the doorway his home
If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy I could have won

But I gave you all
I gave you all
I gave you all

Close my eyes for a while
And force from the world a patient smile

But I gave you all
I gave you all
I gave you all

And you rip it from my hands
And you swear it's all gone
And you rip out all I had
Just to say that you've won

And you rip it from my hands
And you swear it's all gone
And you rip out all I had
Just to say that you've won, you've won
Well, now you've won

But I gave you all
I gave you all
I gave you all


"I Gave You All" - Mumford & Sons



Also I am very addicted to Mumford & Sons <3






MLover

Trayvon Martin

I'm sorry. I told myself I wasn't going to talk about this because honestly I think it is all very stupid and I would make a lot of black people mad if they heard my thoughts on this. Anyways, my cousin is finally asleep and I am going to quickly type this so I can go watch a movie on her iPad. (Yeah, a four year old with an iPad and I don't even have a phone. What has this world come to? I am soooo not about to get into that.)

Okay so Zimmerman got off. I don't think he should have gotten off but I don't think he should have received the full sentence for second - degree murder. Maybe something less but not that.

And my mother, my older brother, and I had like a 30 minute talk about this. I am quickly going to type this out in points. It would be easier and I can make sure I cover everything I want.

1. So I want to know why people are speaking out after the verdict when don't you think if you spoke put during the trial that maybe it could have changed the verdict. I mean why are all these people starting to tell how unfair it is when they could have and should have been protesting this earlier. I mean really.

2. Oh. These protest are anything but peaceful. I mean these people are acting a fool and then trying to say it was peaceful.

3. My mother pointed this out. She wants to know why these people are messing up their own neighborhoods instead of messing up somebody else's. She said, "If you are mad at someone then wouldn't you go mess up their stuff instead of your own?" And that right there was like yeah.

4. Next, the people in Florida aren't even acting up like the rest of the country. I mean they are calm and collected but the rest of the country is burning flags and trashing neighborhoods. For real y'all.

5. Another thing is, why are African - Americans getting upset when they promote the lifestyle of being a "thug" or a "gangster". They make movies and movies about it showing how much money and fun they have and these rappers rap about talking about how they living it up. So when a young black male walks outside the house looking like that you can't expect the world not to upset because the stereotype is that they are dangerous and black people go and exploit it. This doesn't mean that I think Zimmerman should have shot based on that stereotype, it means that black people can't get upset and start saying things like how come we can't dress like this? Dressing like this doesn't mean we are dangerous. It's annoying that they exploit this stereotype but when people try to stereotype them they get upset.

6. I brought this issue up. While everybody was worrying about this case, The Supreme Court was going over the law of allowing African - Americans to vote and are talking about how it is outdated and something like that. I only know this because I watch a lot of MTV, Fuse, and VH1 and they have those little headlines going across the screen at the bottom. People are paying more attention to this case than to something that could change a lot of people lives. I am not saying that people shouldn't have been paying attention to it but they can't not pay attention or talk about the other issues.

7. My brother brought up the fact that this case shouldn't have revolved around race, but it did. The world revolves around race and we can't change that. It's apart of every one's life and no matter what we do or say we can't change the fact that race was the whole reason people got into this and cared so much.

So that's about seven things I think people need to think over before they get all upset and go trash more of their own neighborhoods. Yes, Zimmerman should have been charged with something and what he did was wrong. He should have waited for the police. But I can't change the past, but I can move towards the future. (I got my entire life planned out today. Yay!)  But that is a whole different thing.

Hell

Okay sorry. After today I probably won't post. But today we went to church. By we I mean me, my little cousin, my grandmother, and my 90 something year old great-grandmother. 

Anyways. I'm going straight to hell. When I die I won't even get a chance to look back on my mistakes, I'm going to hell. I'm not even going to get one step close to heaven. I'm going STRAIGHT to hell. 

So I've always hated this but today I acted a fool. So the pastor called these two little girls up to sing a song. 

A couple things about this. One the man kept saying trio but it was only two.  Two he called them twins- wait. Never mind I can't even talk about this one. Okay and the last thing is what I have always hated. These girls could not sing. They were screeching into the mics. I cringed and could not keep the scowl off my face. And they clapping and shouting and I'm just like no thank you. 

And then this other girl went up and asked to sing. I was like oh wow that interesting. And then she started to sing. And this girl had a mental or speech problem. I don't know what it was but it was difficult for her to get her words out and stuff. So I was like oh my gosh I can listen to this. My cousin had put her fingers in her ears. And all I could think was I'm going to hell. 

And they have a gay choir director. Which got me to thinking. The Bible says that a man should not lay with another man. So what if the person excepts that they are gay but don't act upon it? Does God still consider that a sin? So I got all deep and I was like oh wow. 

Anyways I gotta go. My little cousin is outside riding her bike. 

MLover

2013 Book of World Records

Okay so I am at my Grandmother's house and my Uncle has hooked up some internet and a computer so YAY!

Anyways that has nothing to do with why I am here. My little brother has the 2013 book of world records as you can see because of the title. Duh. Anyways i went to the movie and music section because that is all I really care about.

Adele is in this book 5 times. She is: \

• Top - Selling Recording Artist
• Most Downloaded Song: Rolling In The Deep
• Best Selling Album: 21
• Bestselling Digital Album of All Time: 5
• Most Played Song: Rolling In The Deep 

Anyways I was like YES! It was awesome. That just goes to show how awesome she is. Love Adele and cant wait for her to release some more music. I miss her voice so much. Sad face. Super ready for more music from her. 

Harry Potter is in here four times. And Emma Watson is here too. 

• Movie That Earned the Most in a Single Day: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2
• Top - Selling DVD: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 1 (Part two is the third top - selling DVD)
• Most Successful Movie Franchise: Harry Potter
• Movie With The Most Successful Opening Weekend: Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2
• Actress with the Highest Average Box-Office Gross: Emma Watson

Stephanie Meyer is the 5th highest paid author. Just thought I might mention that since her and the Twilight series didn't make number one but they were in the top 5 of a lot of different categories. 

And oh the Largest Global Food Franchise is Subway. Which is weird because you think it would be McDonald's and it's not. 

Coca-Cola has the most Facebook friends. I love Coca-Cola. Yum.

Anyways that's all that I found interesting and that I cared about. 

MusicalLover

The Fosters

Did anybody else see this weeks episode of The Fosters????? 

Oh my gosh! I'm so addicted to this show. I had to record it because my mother doesn't want me to watch it because she doesn't approve of them. I don't care. I love this show. She went to bed so I am watching. 

Anyways if you haven't seen it you shouldn't continue reading. Watch it and then read. 

Anyways... Oh my gosh

I love Wyatt. So I'm pissed Callie let him walk away. He was just trying to protect her. He kicked Liam's ass. 

And Brandon or whatever his name is, needs to grow up. Callie explained why she couldn't be with him and now he is acting like a brat and plus, he doesn't even know if Callie even likes him. Screw you dude. 

And Lexi ran away and wow. Her and her family are undocumented. And then when she came back and told her parents that she wouldn't move and if they tried she was going to call immigration herself. I was like :-O

And I'm pissed that Ana actually tried to get more money off of Mariana. They way she tried to convince her was stupid. Bitch you haven't acted like family to her. You're using her to get money so you can get drugs. 

And oh my gosh Callie. When Callie was telling her story so that the other little girl would answer I was like wow. And then she ran out and threaded Callie. Like what? She was trying to help you. 

But I can't believe that Liam actually raped Callie. She was telling Brandon this and I was like oh my gosh. My heart dropped. And then she went home and told them. 

And then Jude lying to get that dude to like him. Whatever. If he doesn't like you for who you are Jude then he doesn't deserve you. Love me some Jude. He is sooo cute. I love him!!! 

This show covers a crap load of topics that I care about and that are important right now. I love this show and am super addicted. Love love love love love. If you aren't watching, you should be. 

MLover

Screw The World

Ugh my freaking charger isn't working. It's so freaking annoying and I so ready to just kill Apple. 

Gosh this is the third charger I have had and I just want to scream. I swear I am so freaking annoyed. 

I don't even know what happened. I haven't bent it or anything. And it worked earlier today. I don't know what the crap is wrong with it. It's not the iPod because it works with my mother's charger. 

I am about to break something. 

Fuck my life 

MLover

Excuse Me

Okay so it's like a little after 2 in the morning and I just stopped watching Katt Williams. Anyways that doesn't matter. 

I'm watching this movie on Lifetime called The Surrogate. The plot of the movie doesn't matter either because it doesn't have anything to do with what I'm talking about except for the surrogacy thing. 

I'm not against surrogacy or anything. I think it's cool. It's totally awesome for people to want a child of their own if they can't have one. 

I have an aunt who wasn't able to reproduce so its not like I think it's weird or anything. 

But I think people should adopt. You want a child and can't have one. Go adopt. There are so many kids in the system that it's ridiculous. 

I was almost put in the system when I was younger so that's why I try to push adoption. 

That's why I'm so pissed that gay couple can't adopt. Are you serious America??? You guys are so against gay people that you won't allow people who want to love a child have one. But you can put kids in drug users houses and give them checks ever month or whatever so that they can go and buy more drugs and treat the kids like shit.

Damn excuse me I kinda got a little off subject. 

Anyways stop spending so much money trying to stick an egg and some sperm up someone else and go get some sweet child out of the system. 

They deserve a chance to be loved and cared for and to do great things. 

I already plan to adopt at least one child when I get older. I don't care if I'm married and can have as many kids as I want. (I don't plan on getting married so that doesn't even matter.) I will adopt a child and give it a better life. 

Anyways I gotta go. This movie is pissing me off. This bitch is bat shit crazy and done already killed one person. It's like damn. And she stole the man credit card and is buying herself shit using it. Like flowers and is sending herself emails using his email address. She's insane. And I can tell the wife knows this but she just wants the baby. Anyways whatever this bitch is crazy. So yeah. 

MusicalLover

AHHHH

Anyways while Kat's last post was about her being mad this is about me being HAPPY. 

So yesterday I went to see Bruno Mars live in concert. 

Oh my gosh it was AWESOME. And BADASS. 

It was amazing. 

Man I swear I have no room on my iPod because of the videos and stuff. 

Okay so Ellie Goulding opened for him and she actually sounds like she sings. I mean her voice is really that high pitched. It wasn't like I didn't believe it but hearing it in person was like woah. 

Anyways Bruno did awesome. Oh my gosh. He made jokes and it was just awesome. And he was dancing and just yes. I can't even describe it. You just had to be there. I know I screamed louder than some tween at a One Direction concert. But whatever. 

Oh my gosh. My mother bought me a T-Shirt and a program. So I always have a piece. I'm like super happy and excited. And it's like over. 

Love me some Bruno!!!!!!

MusicalLover

Super Mad!

So I'm in Martha's Vineyard. Its where we have vacation every year. Me, little man, and my cousins Chels and Syd. I like them a lot. But I'm at the library (the only place I can post) and it turns our Chels and little man just left to go to town by themselves. I'm sick of them taking off like this. God sometimes I hate them. I'm telling Syd to be calm but I want to bite their heads off. I gotta go find them. They are going down.

KatCentral

Break Down

I'm having a mental breakdown. 

So I'm watching The Fosters which I am addicted too. I haven't been watching but I was bored and so I went On Demand and saw it and started watching and so yeah. 

Anyways I had this burst of inspiration so I went to get my writing notebooks and stuff. And it's been a while so I opened it and its a mess. Like a giant mess. So now I'm freaking out because I don't even know where to began trying to clean my binder out. 

Ugh... I'm just about to get down and dirty. About to have a bunch of paper cuts. 

Musical 

Hola!

Okay so what's up people. I'm back for a little while. 

Okay so how was everyone's Fourth? Yeah mines was good. Felt like just another day. 

My mom is moved into this house and its like she expect my brothers to do nothing so she only ever ask me to do stuff and its like Oh my God I don't feel like spending all day cleaning and doing shit for you. I have other things I can be doing or that I need or want to be doing. And my brother acts like he doesn't have my mothers number so he can't call her and ask me everything and its just like bitch I don't fucking know. I'm getting annoyed and its just like leave me the fuck alone. 

Yeah so the best part of my summer is coming up. Bruno Mars! Yah, I guess. My mothers keeps threatening to not take me because apparently I'm selfish and have a smart mouth. I'm so tired of hearing that I seriously don't even give a shit about the concert anymore. 

I'm so cutting my family out of my life after high school. Maybe college because I'm going to need money. I'm tired of being that little girl who was feel as though we can treat as a child and an adult. 

You can't be my friend then try to parent me. That's not good. It's annoying. 

I'm fucking tired of people. 

MusicalLover 

ill be out of touch

Soliloquy my dads kindle fire is the stupidest thing ever it wont let me post. So I hope everyone had a great fourth of july. And I also went to Jamaica for my brothers 16 birthday. It was fun. I'm going to Martha's vineyard tomorrow. With my cousins Chelsea, Sydney, and oshen. Oshens a boy. Hes twenty. And a jerk. He dropped a candle on my toe. I'm in pain. KatCentral P.s. I totally agree with leysas gay marriage post

Excuse Me

Excuse me while I rant for a second. 

So has anyone heard about the Supreme Court Rulings that have allowed gay marriages. If you haven't you don't watch TV. 

Anyways so I was watching Family Guy and they were talking about it and joking about it but they brought up real topics. 

So one just because you are Christian or whatever doesn't mean you don't have to believe in gay marriage or you are forced not to accept it. Yeah okay the Bible said it was an abomination or whatever but you aren't doing it. 

It's annoying that people just go out and don't like gays because of the Christian religion. 

AND MARRIAGE ISN'T ABOUT GOD! 

It's about love and the law. STOP TRYING TO SAY THAT IT'S ABOUT GOD! You don't have to get married in a church. You can get a license to marry someone online or go to the Justice of the Peace WHICH IS LAW! 

Gay people have a right to be together. They are people just along with straight people. 

I'm so annoyed with people because of some of the reasons why they say gay people shouldn't get married. Y'all just need to get over it. Sooner or later every state will allow gay marriage. And maybe even a gay president. An open gay president. 

The world is changing. Keep up with the times y'all. 

I'm super annoyed right now. And ready to cuss someone out. 

I'm Back

I'm back. For the day at least. Nothing is on TV and I don't have anything to do for maybe 10 minutes right now so I'm going to post. 

My mother is pissing me off. I'm like two seconds for killing her in her sleep. She is freaking out over little things and always yelling at me, even when I barely do anything. It's like damn go yell at the person who didn't help you pack or do anything. Stop fucking yelling at me. You can't act like a friend then the next minute want to be a parent. That's not good. 

So we moved to this new house which is nice. Even though to me the rooms are super small. And I can't even decorate it how I want so it's like ugh for me. And there are like bugs everywhere. 

The only good part is that... It's a house I guess. I don't know because her neighbors piss me off. 

So that's all I got. I've just been busy. It's summer ya know. So see ya maybe on the 4th of July or it might be sometime after the 11th. I don't even know. It all depends. But hope y'all have a happy 4th of July if you are in America. Be safe with those fireworks. 

MusicalLover