Die In A Hole

I'm having a bad day.

My mother and grandmother just pissed me off to new ends. They completely ignored me and didn't even care about what I had to say. I was already pissed that my mother is trying to control my room. I have an  image in my head and now my image is being screwed and changed. And now I can't get the bed I like after I let go of the other image that I want. I mean it wasn't my first choice but I liked it and I can't get it. My mother wants a baybed in my room and I don't. I want a regular bed like everyone else in the house. They don't make full size daybeds and I refuse to sleep in a twin. I am going to end up killing my Grandmother. She is the most impatient, condescending, annoying, and rude. She doesn't listen to anything I say even when she ask me. and now my mother can't come pick me up from her house, not like she asked me before she planned something and just decided that I had to stay. I don't feel like staying here another night. I am so tired of waking up early to hearing her on the phone gossiping with her friends about someone. They pissed  me off so bad I lost my urge to write. All the inspiration left my body and I couldn't concentrate. And I haven't had any luck writing in a long time. Ugh. I am so tired.

I had to go swimming with my little cousin today and I seriously didn't want to. I'm cramping and I am craving chocolate so bad. If you are a girl then you should know what that is but whatever I am not about to get into that.

I am so tired of being walked over. I can't stand being down south but right now the north is pissing me off. I feel like crying, but that might just be the you - know - what talking, and I don't cry. Ever.

I wanna go die in the hole.








Rip the earth in two with your mind
And seal the urge which ensues with brass wires
I never meant you any harm
But your tears feel warm as they fall on my forearms

But close my eyes for a while
And force from the world a patient smile

And how can you say that your truth is better than ours?
Shoulder to shoulder, now brother, we carry no arms
And the blind man sleeps in the doorway his home
If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy I could have won

But I gave you all
I gave you all
I gave you all

Close my eyes for a while
And force from the world a patient smile

But I gave you all
I gave you all
I gave you all

And you rip it from my hands
And you swear it's all gone
And you rip out all I had
Just to say that you've won

And you rip it from my hands
And you swear it's all gone
And you rip out all I had
Just to say that you've won, you've won
Well, now you've won

But I gave you all
I gave you all
I gave you all


"I Gave You All" - Mumford & Sons



Also I am very addicted to Mumford & Sons <3






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