God

So I was walking home today and it was really cloudy, because it was about to rain. So I was looking out the window of the bus and there was this big break in the clouds that just shone sunlight.

So I have always been told about the old wives tale about how when there is sunlight through the clouds it God is looking down on you from heaven. Well God and dead relatives. I believe that too.

I had a bad day at school today but that is a whole different story that I don't want to get into right now.

So this little break in the clouds was following me and I was listening to this gospel song too. It had come on right when I saw the little break so it was kind of interesting. So I put the song on repeat because I love that song and it was just comforting.

So I get off the bus and started raining very softly the second I started walking. It felt like the first drop of rain hit me on my head. And then on my shoulder.

It was just super weird.

And I was walking and it just felt like someone was walking next to me and I just felt happy and stuff. I seriously don't know.

Let me explain something real quick. I don't believe in showing people I love God by jumping and screaming and running all over the place. That isn't me. I don't care if you do it or not because that is you. If you can get me to start singing softly or nod my head during a sermon then you have done something amazing. At the church thing with Kat, when I cried, yeah they did something right because (1.) I don't cry (2.) I have never done that. I don’t like the running and the screaming and the breaking down in front of people. I can still show God I love him by doing simple things.

So anyway I am walking home and it is raining softly, I am listening to this gospel song on repeat, I feel like someone is walking along side me, and I just feel happy.

So I look up at the sky and the little ray of sun is still there and I am just seriously overjoyed looking at it. It was like a sensory overload.

These past months have been sucky. Yeah there are awesome moments in between but it was just like why would God do this to me? It was like he hasn’t been there. I know he is taking care of people all over but a teenage girl in Arkansas needs some help.

And it was like then I understood a lot of things. I don't know what it was but I just felt relaxed.

So I look up and I say in my head, Thank you God. I know you are there.

I don't know everything. I can't explain it to you any more than this. It just happened.

So yeah. This was the song I was listening to:

Imagine me,

Loving what I see when the mirror looks at me cause I

I imagine me, in a place, of no insecurities and I'm finally happy cause,

I imagine me, letting go, of all of the ones who hurt me, cause they never did deserve me,

Can you imagine me, saying no to thoughts that try to control me remembering all you told me

Lord can you imagine me, over what my mamma said and, healed from what my daddy did

And I want to live and not read that page again.

Imagine me, being free trusting you totally finally I can imagine me.

I admit it was hard to see you being in love with someone like me finally I can imagine me.

Being strong and not letting people break me down you won't get that joy this time around

Can you imagine me, in a world where nobody has to live afraid because of your love fears gone away

Can you imagine me

Bridge-letting go of my past and glad I have another chance and my heart will dance

Cause I don't have to read that page again.

Imagine me, being free trusting you totally finally I can imagine me

I admit it was hard to see you being in love with someone like me finally I can imagine me.

This song is dedicated to people like me, those that struggle with insecurities, acceptance and even self-esteem.

You never felt good enough,

You never felt pretty enough, but imagine God whispering in your ear letting you know that everything that has happened is now.

Gone, gone, it's gone all gone

Gone, gone, it's gone all gone

Gone, gone, it's gone all gone

Gone, gone, it's gone all gone

Gone, gone, it's gone all gone

Gone, gone, it's gone all gone

Gone, gone, it's gone all gone

Gone, gone, it's gone all gone

Oh nah na na na, oh na na na na na na

Oh na na na na, oh na na na na na na

Oh na na na na, oh na na na na na na

Oh na na na na, oh na na na na na na, oh na na na na na na







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