Father's Day

Happy Father's Day if we have some reader who are fathers. And to those women who have to act as both the mother and father. Love y'all the most!!!!!! 

Today was not the best day for me. 

I had started to call everyone I knew like my father, uncle, and my grandfather. Well one of my Grandfathers died last year and I was about to call him but then I remembered and it hit me really hard and I got kind of sad. 

He was the main person up here who got a card and a gift and stuff and he isn't here anymore. 

It was weird. 

But yeah my family got together and we had dinner. It wasn't big. Just like 8 of us. His kids and me and my little brother. 

Also I was told that my Step-Grandmother had breast cancer and was going in to get some lumps removed this coming Friday. And this is her second surgery for this. It's sad. I wasn't all that close to her but I don't want to lose two of my Grandparents in less than five years. 

Anther thing is my Great Grandmother is deteriorating fast. She's 90 something years old and has lived her life but when she dies my Grandmother that is taking care of her will just be so depressed and I will be sad as crap because when I was feeling sad or something I would always call an just sit and talk to her. She would sit and let me tell the story and wouldn't say anything until the end. 

I had to go see her in the nursing home (they had to put her in one because she needed more care than my family could give her) and I couldn't take it. I can't stand nursing homes because my Papa was in one before he died and I remember he couldn't even remember me one time I went to see him because of all the medication he was on. It was so sad and depressing seeing him like that after spending all my life with him being the one to help me out and teach me to ride a bike, and fish, and just be active. So being in a nursing home is like the worst thing for me. And I went to go see my Great Grandmother and almost broke down. And I really wanted to go see her. 

And then my father is acting like a complete dick. He hasn't answered his phone all day and when he did he barely talked to me. And also I aske him to send me a picture of my report card and he said he would but he still hasn't. That was three days ago. And he's being really rude to my mother and she has done nothing to him. He needs to pull whatever crawled up his ass out and get over it. 

And I get home and my mother's water is backed up and her toilet is overflowing. 

And I have to pee. 

Ugh. I'm tired as crap. And I need some uplifting music. Y'all hold on to your Grandparents and parents because they won't be there forever. 

MusicalLover