OH MY GAWD

I was in the Top Ten at the Poetry Slam. Dude I wasn't expecting that and did not have another poem so I'm scrabbling to get another poem and then I didn't know the poem so I like stuttered and just messed it up. And I know I shouldn't be sad but oh my gosh I am. It's like you don't want something but then you have the opportunity to get it and so then you want it. 

I'm okay with it but people are trying to talk to me and I just don't feel like talking. I just want to be sad for a minute. The girl who won was amazing. Some of the people that did win weren't as good to me as some of the others. 

This one girl from my school who was in the top ten with me, I so expected her to win or at least place. She didn't, and she's a senior so this will be he last time. She's don't it before and still hasn't won. She was pissed off and I understand why. I seriously thought she would win.

I was so nervous. I was shaking so bad. Oh my gosh. I am so tired right now and my feet are killing me. 

Seriously. I'm excited just to be considered part of the top ten. I understand why I didn't place and I am okay with that. There's always next year. 

I have got to study. I'm tired and just want to sleep. 

MusicalLover