Okay so on Friday this "friend" of mine... (I don't know what to call him. Sometimes he pisses me off and sometimes he is okay.) well he was feeling suicidal.
We are gonna call him AC.
So AC was feeling sorry for himself because no one would date him.
It was right then I wanted to punch him in the face. Are you seriously ready to kill yourself because you can't get a girlfriend.
Okay yeah I guess that's sad in his world but are you serious?
So anyways he is usually a douche but I have had suicidal thoughts and friends have helped me so I wanted to help.
So I went to talk to him and I told him like it is.
That nobody is gonna give a shxt if he kills himself. He is just gonna be another face in the crowd and people will forget. He needed to live and make something out of his life. Get out of our dumbf**k state and show everyone up. He needs to make women want him and men want to be him.
Yeah harsh or whatever but its the truth and you guys know that. It apparently cheered him up. So I guess I did good.
Y'all don't kill yourselves. Please. There are so much better things to do.
When I feel bad I get a pen and paper and I just write about nothing and anything.
It helps.
And then music is a f**k awesome motivator for me. I have a playlist labeled bad day for when I feel sad and stuff. It helps a lot.
Okay so next is crayons.
Yeah so we have this student teacher in my physical science class. My teacher usually leaves the room during the class period.
So today he left and we were doing this lab that required us to use crayons.
So yeah the childish people in my class decided to start throwing the crayons at people and all across the room.
An while the teacher was teaching they threw wet paper towels at her. She didn't even flinch.
So while we are doing the lab they are throwing crayons and stuff so I went to the side of the room that wasn't and the lady put me on the other side with all the childish people.
I swear to y'all if I had of gotten hit with a crayons I woulda went off.
So the lady is trying to calm us down and people are yelling and throwing stuff. So then this other teacher knocks on the door and ask if everything was okay.
She just nodded yes and moved on instead of sending the kids out. I mean I know she saw them.
So yeah then out teacher came back in and she told him and he made us all sit down.
To the people in my class... If you read this Y'ALL ARE A BUNCH OF CHILDISH DUMBA**ES AND CAN'T LEARN NOTHING BECAUSE Y'ALL WON'T SHUT YOU EVER-LOVING MOUTHS LONG ENOUGH FOR HER TO TALK.
So there...
Right and last is this Church Retreat Kat wants me to go on.
Yeah I'm not really religious.
I mean me family goes to church... Kind of. I mean me stepmother is a gospel group and my father only listens to gospel music but they don't necessarily go to church.
They praise God and stuff.
Now my grandparents are giant church people.
My grandmother is C.O.G.I.C. which means Church Of God In Christ and she only wears skirts because its like against God or something to wear pants.
Yeah I hate skirts. And dresses.
I mean yeah I believe in God and stuff but I really could care less. Yes he created everything and he blesses us but yeah. No one really knows.
For all we know God could be the bad one.
I'm not trying to insult anyone's religion or anything I am just saying.
I mean I don't know either.
An not knowing bothers me when it comes to stuff like this.
Yeah I pray when something is really wrong and I like certain gospel songs but I don't like talking about all the good God has done and stuff like that. And those people who just accept it without really looking at it and thinking about what they like and stuff.
I mean WTF is up with it being a sin for gays to get married.
And the part where children shouldn't disrespect their parents.
What if I have a good reason to? What if I don't believe in what my parents believe in? What if I actually want to me own person?
I want to be me not someone my parents expect me to be and my father and grandparents are still trying to accept that.
I mean really...
People have done a lot to lift him up but when it comes to him contradicting himself or something along those lines they just want to blow people off.
So yeah I don't want to go on the retreat with Kat, but she has done a lot for me so I am going to try.
Kill me now.
Preppy white b*tches who probably wear purity rings and shxt.
Yeah imma kill myself in the bathroom.
MusicalLover9816
Nerd
Monday, March 4, 2013
Sunday, March 3, 2013
Church Retreat
So my church is doing this thing on March 8-10 its a youth group retreat. I don't really want to go but id rather do that than stay home with my mother so I said I'd go especially because its free food and stuff. But don't really get along with the youth group because they have been together since they were like 8 or something. Plus they would rather accept everything their parents and the church tells them rather than actually think about whats being said. I don't just go along with whatever Jesus tells me to do I will think about if i want to or not and what I believe in rather that what I am supposed to believe in as a Christian because, hello? I'm only a Christian cause my parents are. But at least MusicLover might be able to come with me. The it might be bearable.
KatCentral
KatCentral
Saturday, March 2, 2013
few things before i go....
just came up with a threat: murdering people in cold blood is never easy. but i like challenges.
and i literally came up with that. kinda proud of myself. i might trademark it.
oh, and follow me on twitter. purty please @KatCentral just made a twitter bit*hes!!!!
KatCentral
and i literally came up with that. kinda proud of myself. i might trademark it.
oh, and follow me on twitter. purty please @KatCentral just made a twitter bit*hes!!!!
KatCentral
TV
Okay so my father just bought this giant 60 inch tv. This is our fourth flat screen.
Everyone is all happy and shxt.
I'm not.
He also bought two tablets. One for him and one for my grandparents.
My grandfather doesn't know how to turn it on.
I'm pissed.
For a couple if reasons.
1. I haven't gotten anything for my birthday since I was like 7. I mean other people have given me stuff but he hasn't. And that's my father. Are you for real?
2. I have a cracked iPod he told me he would pay I get fixed and he hasn't done it. I mean if he isn't gonna do it why the hell tell me you were.
3. My brother and I have kindles that don't work. He said he would get us tablets and he hasn't yet... And then when I told him I still had a warranty on mines and I wanted to trade it in for a Kindle Fire HD he said no.
4. We live in this tiny a** apartment. And our lease is almost up. But instead of trying to rent or buy a house there is a new tv. Really are you even looking? I don't want to live in this dumba** apartment.
5. He doesn't pay me or my brother to do chores or babysit our siblings. We don't get money for washing dishes or loading the dishwasher and since there are a lot if us we do it everyday but nope we don't get paid.
6. He doesn't give me money for anything. Doesn't give my brother money either. If I ask for something he always says do you have money?
7. He expects my mom to pay for everything. I mean seriously. She pays for my clothes, shoes, everything. He hasn't bought me shxt. She does everything and that takes a lot out of her money. Because she has three kids.
8. Me and my brother are at that driving age. So yeah I am going to want a car. I don't mind sharing with my brother but yeah we need a car.
9. There is no food in the house. I mean none at all. My stepmother goes out every night and buys us something to eat for the night. But no instead of something we NEED he buys something he WANTS.
10. When my brother and me get money if I don't tell him before hand that I am getting something he will take my money.
Seriously. I have been expecting money in cards and letters and I know that person is sending me money but I don't get it. So now I just tell him before hand that someone is sending me stuff.
So yeah he could of used this damn money in a whole lot of other ways that actually benefit people instead of this tv we don't NEED. So yeah I'm upset.
Ugh... I hope he doesn't expect me to buy him shxt for his birthday or anniversary.
MusicalLover9816
Everyone is all happy and shxt.
I'm not.
He also bought two tablets. One for him and one for my grandparents.
My grandfather doesn't know how to turn it on.
I'm pissed.
For a couple if reasons.
1. I haven't gotten anything for my birthday since I was like 7. I mean other people have given me stuff but he hasn't. And that's my father. Are you for real?
2. I have a cracked iPod he told me he would pay I get fixed and he hasn't done it. I mean if he isn't gonna do it why the hell tell me you were.
3. My brother and I have kindles that don't work. He said he would get us tablets and he hasn't yet... And then when I told him I still had a warranty on mines and I wanted to trade it in for a Kindle Fire HD he said no.
4. We live in this tiny a** apartment. And our lease is almost up. But instead of trying to rent or buy a house there is a new tv. Really are you even looking? I don't want to live in this dumba** apartment.
5. He doesn't pay me or my brother to do chores or babysit our siblings. We don't get money for washing dishes or loading the dishwasher and since there are a lot if us we do it everyday but nope we don't get paid.
6. He doesn't give me money for anything. Doesn't give my brother money either. If I ask for something he always says do you have money?
7. He expects my mom to pay for everything. I mean seriously. She pays for my clothes, shoes, everything. He hasn't bought me shxt. She does everything and that takes a lot out of her money. Because she has three kids.
8. Me and my brother are at that driving age. So yeah I am going to want a car. I don't mind sharing with my brother but yeah we need a car.
9. There is no food in the house. I mean none at all. My stepmother goes out every night and buys us something to eat for the night. But no instead of something we NEED he buys something he WANTS.
10. When my brother and me get money if I don't tell him before hand that I am getting something he will take my money.
Seriously. I have been expecting money in cards and letters and I know that person is sending me money but I don't get it. So now I just tell him before hand that someone is sending me stuff.
So yeah he could of used this damn money in a whole lot of other ways that actually benefit people instead of this tv we don't NEED. So yeah I'm upset.
Ugh... I hope he doesn't expect me to buy him shxt for his birthday or anniversary.
MusicalLover9816
Friday, March 1, 2013
4th Block
So today my Spanish teacher wasn't here and I'm kinda glad he wasn't because we went to the gym and some crazy stuff went down.
So firstly, I learned how much of a douche KJ is because he is torturing this girl he knows likes him by following her like a lovesick puppy then trying to actually get with a junior when he knows he doesn't have a chance with. Hello? He's just a idiot freshman. Not all freshman are idiots. But KJ is.
Then, this guy named A was all depressed and shxt cause the past 2 girls he asked out said no I don't know why he's tripping. He's had 3 girlfriends so far this year. I don't know why C said A was about to do suicide when all A was doing is lying down and pouting. Nonetheless, MusicLover gave him a therapy session. She said "Ain't nobody gonna care about you when you kill yourself you will just be another face in the obituaries you need to get out of your funk and be someone so the people who screwed you over will be like, 'damn.'" I totally agree. I was kinda just there and being myself lightening the mood when MusicLover gave it to him straight.
But A is my buddy even though he makes a shxtload of sex jokes but whatever. He's still funny some of the time though he accused me of raping him yesterday...but that's a different story.
I also asked some of my nerd friends(the dorky, pokemon cards playing ones) if they would promise me that they would get a life by the end of high school. And if you know me you know I'm not being mean I actually want you to have fun and get a life and stuff. Then the most annoying one was like "I have a girlfriend so," then flipped me off. He wasn't being mean or anything that's just who he is and that's why he's annoying. But he's smart and he helps me in math plus he's funny sometimes too. Okay back to the point I was like, what the fruit ever I know you are dating but you saying it every 5 seconds is kind of annoying because he really does. And I was also thinking just because you have a girlfriend doesn't mean you have a life it just means you've tricked some girl into thinking you are cool for the time being. I didn't even say all of that though I just rolled my eyes and went back to talk to A.
But it was still fun. It was a fun time.
KatCentral
So firstly, I learned how much of a douche KJ is because he is torturing this girl he knows likes him by following her like a lovesick puppy then trying to actually get with a junior when he knows he doesn't have a chance with. Hello? He's just a idiot freshman. Not all freshman are idiots. But KJ is.
Then, this guy named A was all depressed and shxt cause the past 2 girls he asked out said no I don't know why he's tripping. He's had 3 girlfriends so far this year. I don't know why C said A was about to do suicide when all A was doing is lying down and pouting. Nonetheless, MusicLover gave him a therapy session. She said "Ain't nobody gonna care about you when you kill yourself you will just be another face in the obituaries you need to get out of your funk and be someone so the people who screwed you over will be like, 'damn.'" I totally agree. I was kinda just there and being myself lightening the mood when MusicLover gave it to him straight.
But A is my buddy even though he makes a shxtload of sex jokes but whatever. He's still funny some of the time though he accused me of raping him yesterday...but that's a different story.
I also asked some of my nerd friends(the dorky, pokemon cards playing ones) if they would promise me that they would get a life by the end of high school. And if you know me you know I'm not being mean I actually want you to have fun and get a life and stuff. Then the most annoying one was like "I have a girlfriend so," then flipped me off. He wasn't being mean or anything that's just who he is and that's why he's annoying. But he's smart and he helps me in math plus he's funny sometimes too. Okay back to the point I was like, what the fruit ever I know you are dating but you saying it every 5 seconds is kind of annoying because he really does. And I was also thinking just because you have a girlfriend doesn't mean you have a life it just means you've tricked some girl into thinking you are cool for the time being. I didn't even say all of that though I just rolled my eyes and went back to talk to A.
But it was still fun. It was a fun time.
KatCentral
Tired
So I had this post about inspiring people and stuff planned out.
I even had song lyrics to go with it right.
But then I was walking home and I just became so tired.
I get here and it's all quiet.
So yeah. I'm home and I have a lot if stuff to do and someone is trying to talk to me... Like really have a conversation and I don't want to.
My room is freezing cold and we have no food or anything to drink.
My head hurts from having bobby pins in it all day. (Hair clips for those who don't know.)
So yeah...
Finna blast music and clean my room up because it looks a mess and my stepmom is dropping stuff off at GoodWill this weekend and I have a shxt load of clothes I need to give away.
Got my sweatshirt and sweatpants in with furry socks.
Gone is the nice looking MusicalLover now I look like I just rolled out of bed.
Yes I will do the book recommendation.
I seriously have to find the authors to some of these.
So yeah might post later. Might not.
Whatever.
MusicalLover9816
I even had song lyrics to go with it right.
But then I was walking home and I just became so tired.
I get here and it's all quiet.
So yeah. I'm home and I have a lot if stuff to do and someone is trying to talk to me... Like really have a conversation and I don't want to.
My room is freezing cold and we have no food or anything to drink.
My head hurts from having bobby pins in it all day. (Hair clips for those who don't know.)
So yeah...
Finna blast music and clean my room up because it looks a mess and my stepmom is dropping stuff off at GoodWill this weekend and I have a shxt load of clothes I need to give away.
Got my sweatshirt and sweatpants in with furry socks.
Gone is the nice looking MusicalLover now I look like I just rolled out of bed.
Yes I will do the book recommendation.
I seriously have to find the authors to some of these.
So yeah might post later. Might not.
Whatever.
MusicalLover9816
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