Suicide, Crayons, Retreat

Okay so on Friday this "friend" of mine... (I don't know what to call him. Sometimes he pisses me off and sometimes he is okay.) well he was feeling suicidal.
We are gonna call him AC.
So AC was feeling sorry for himself because no one would date him.
It was right then I wanted to punch him in the face. Are you seriously ready to kill yourself because you can't get a girlfriend.
Okay yeah I guess that's sad in his world but are you serious?
So anyways he is usually a douche but I have had suicidal thoughts and friends have helped me so I wanted to help.
So I went to talk to him and I told him like it is.
That nobody is gonna give a shxt if he kills himself. He is just gonna be another face in the crowd and people will forget. He needed to live and make something out of his life. Get out of our dumbf**k state and show everyone up. He needs to make women want him and men want to be him.
Yeah harsh or whatever but its the truth and you guys know that. It apparently cheered him up. So I guess I did good.
Y'all don't kill yourselves. Please. There are so much better things to do.
When I feel bad I get a pen and paper and I just write about nothing and anything.
It helps.
And then music is a f**k awesome motivator for me. I have a playlist labeled bad day for when I feel sad and stuff. It helps a lot.

Okay so next is crayons.
Yeah so we have this student teacher in my physical science class. My teacher usually leaves the room during the class period.
So today he left and we were doing this lab that required us to use crayons.
So yeah the childish people in my class decided to start throwing the crayons at people and all across the room.
An while the teacher was teaching they threw wet paper towels at her. She didn't even flinch.
So while we are doing the lab they are throwing crayons and stuff so I went to the side of the room that wasn't and the lady put me on the other side with all the childish people.
I swear to y'all if I had of gotten hit with a crayons I woulda went off.
So the lady is trying to calm us down and people are yelling and throwing stuff. So then this other teacher knocks on the door and ask if everything was okay.
She just nodded yes and moved on instead of sending the kids out. I mean I know she saw them.
So yeah then out teacher came back in and she told him and he made us all sit down.
To the people in my class... If you read this Y'ALL ARE A BUNCH OF CHILDISH DUMBA**ES AND CAN'T LEARN NOTHING BECAUSE Y'ALL WON'T SHUT YOU EVER-LOVING MOUTHS LONG ENOUGH FOR HER TO TALK.
So there...

Right and last is this Church Retreat Kat wants me to go on.
Yeah I'm not really religious.
I mean me family goes to church... Kind of. I mean me stepmother is a gospel group and my father only listens to gospel music but they don't necessarily go to church.
They praise God and stuff.
Now my grandparents are giant church people.
My grandmother is C.O.G.I.C. which means Church Of God In Christ and she only wears skirts because its like against God or something to wear pants.
Yeah I hate skirts. And dresses.
I mean yeah I believe in God and stuff but I really could care less. Yes he created everything and he blesses us but yeah. No one really knows.
For all we know God could be the bad one.
I'm not trying to insult anyone's religion or anything I am just saying.
I mean I don't know either.
An not knowing bothers me when it comes to stuff like this.
Yeah I pray when something is really wrong and I like certain gospel songs but I don't like talking about all the good God has done and stuff like that. And those people who just accept it without really looking at it and thinking about what they like and stuff.
I mean WTF is up with it being a sin for gays to get married.
And the part where children shouldn't disrespect their parents.
What if I have a good reason to? What if I don't believe in what my parents believe in? What if I actually want to me own person?
I want to be me not someone my parents expect me to be and my father and grandparents are still trying to accept that.
I mean really...
People have done a lot to lift him up but when it comes to him contradicting himself or something along those lines they just want to blow people off.
So yeah I don't want to go on the retreat with Kat, but she has done a lot for me so I am going to try.
Kill me now.
Preppy white b*tches who probably wear purity rings and shxt.
Yeah imma kill myself in the bathroom.


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