Tired of the Heavy

I am so freaking tired of the heavy stuff. And by heavy stuff I mean all this drama, and blame,  and hate, and just crap.

Jesus can we be happy for one second before someone comes over and tried to drown us in problems. Like seriously.

It was my friends birthday today (she's Kat's friend too) and man the first thing that happened to me is that I got a shot in the arm.

For those of you who are unaware I am not good with shots. I am like a little child. When I was younger I used to run. I remember one time I ran out the room, down the hall, and out of the hospital before someone caught up to me and then they had to have like 5 different people (not including my mother) hold me down while one person gave me the shot. When I walk in the hospital I always look for a quick exit, even now when I know I shouldn't be running.

It's just stupid.

But anyways her birthday was today and I usually go out of my way to embarrass my friends on their birthday but that shot had me in a bad mood so I was kind of calm today. I did our first block class that today was her birthday, but there are only six people in our class.

Wait a second. I really have to stop reading YouTube comments. Seriously. So I was listening to Birthday by Selena Gomez, I don't really like her but the beat of that song is really awesome. So anyways I am on YouTube listening to that and decided to scroll down and read some of the comment. I should have left it alone. Like really. So anyways short story shorter, I learned that a part of what she is saying should not be put out there to children or anyone. I get that she is 21 and all but oh my god. I didn't even pick up on that and my mind is so dirty so she hid it well enough but someones sister who is younger than me I might add picked up on it.

These kids these days. Damn.

Her album that she just pout out is not that good. I like maybe 4 songs off of there, but it is okay because I didn't really like Demi's either. And I haven't really been paying attention to any others. I do however have to go and look up Ariana Grande's album and Jessie J's. So yeah. But back to Selena. I don't really like her. I have never been a fan but she is a much better actress than she is a singer. She's a performer and her latest album really showed that. it is filled with a bunch of dance songs that don't really show off her vocal abilities and it is just like wow. It isn't that good. I didn't comment anything though. I usually end up getting into arguments online with people so I tend to not read comments or stuff.

I just need to go back to my Lana Del Ray playlist. Her and Adele are like my lovers. Love them. Just yay.

Anyways what was I even talk about. I need to go back up and read what it says. Oh I was done with that topic. Let's get back to my original topic.

Anyways, I am so tired of hearing about all the problems in the world. I just want something happy and simple and kind and sweet. But apparently I can't get that and never will.

JB is stressing out over her grades. And it is all because of debate. She spends all her time trying to keep that grade up and she doesn't pay attention to the others. And when she pays attention to the others her debate grade goes down. It is like a seesaw. She really wants to go out of state for college but she is trying to handle to much. Her mother doesn't seem much help. I am actually a little worried about. Apparently her mother told her she didn't love her and is not letting her participate in anything that does not have anything dealing with her education in it. She won't let her join book club, or this volunteer group.

Okay so I was listening to Never Let Me Go by Florence + The Machine (if you haven't heard go listen. It is really beautiful) and now I have a reason for scrolling through the comments. Sometimes they give you really good information. I didn't know that she wrote the song based off of someone's suicide. Which is really sad. So now with that little piece of information I opened myself up to a whole different side of the song.

I did the same thing with Broken Crown by Mumford & Sons. I read some of the comments and actually found out what the song was about, well two theories because Marcus Mumford stated that he would never tell what it is actually about. I am so not about to get into that because it will lead to two topics I don't want to touch at the moment and plus earlier in the summer I put a post about that on her. I am pretty sure it's called Broken Crown but yeah.

So anyways good reason to read comments it that you could learn more about  that song that you didn't know before. It's really cool sometimes because I might go look up the history behind the songs if I really want to but usually I just want to add my own background behind there. So yeah. It opens up another side of the song to you.

The bad thing is you run into dumbasses. (<- Is that even a word?) Like the idiot who says all people who commit suicide are going to hell. Let me just say thins because I really don't want to get on this topic either. Just because you commit suicide does not mean you are going to hell. Hitler is in hell though, he took the cowards way out. However if you are some somebody being bullied until the point where you can't deal with life anymore than I am so sorry our fucked up society messed you up and Lord knows that someone well let you into heaven.

Or like when people say "still listening in 2013 or some random year that makes no fucking sense" or when they say "some show brought me here"

TALENT BROUGHT ME HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my gosh it is like really though.

So I went from saying I am tired of the heavy to just talking about a bunch of heavy. Anyways here is a song that when you listen to it you don't really pay attention but you calm down some. Well I do anyways.

Blue jeans, white shirt
Walked into the room you know you made my eyes burn
It was like, James Dean, for sure
You're so fresh to death & sick as cancer
You were sorta punk rock, I grew up on hip hop
But you fit me better than my favourite sweater and I know
That love is mean, and love hurts
But I still remember that day we met in December, oh baby!

I will love you till the end of time
I would wait a million years
Promise you'll remember that you're mine
Baby can you see through the tears?
Love you more than those bitches before
Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember
I will love you till the end of time

Big dreams, gangsta

Said you had to leave to start your life over
I was like - no please, stay here, we don't need no money, we could make it all work
But he headed out on Sunday, said he'd come home Monday
I stayed up waitin', anticipatin', and pacin' but, he was chasing paper
Caught up in the game - that was the last I heard

I will love you till the end of time I would wait a million years
Promise you'll remember that you're mine
Baby can you see through the tears?
Love you more than those bitches before
Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember
Oh baby who I will love you till the end of time

You went out every night
And baby that's alright
I told you that no matter what you did I'd be by your side

'Cause imma ride or die
Whether you fail or fly
Well shit at least you tried
But when you walked out that door a piece of me died
Told you I wanted more, but that's not what I had in mind
Just want it like before
We were dancin' all night
Then they took you away, stole you out of my life
You just need to remember...

I will love you till the end of time
I would wait a million years
Promise you'll remember that you're mine
Baby can you see through the tears
Love you more than those bitches before
Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember
I will love you till the end of time

"Blue Jeans" by Lana Del Rey <3
(I don't like the website I got these lyrics from but the website I do like made the words really dark and I am not in the mood to find out why.)



OMG HEY LOOK WHAT I FOUND

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