ML, my face is just like...

ARE YOU SERIOUS RIGHT NOW. Like really.
So you're gonna come up to me and say,
"OMG did she tell you?"
And I was all,
"No, what?"
And she goes,
"No never mind I'm not supposed to tell."
And I say,
"No! You have to tell me now!"
So she says,
"Her dad raped her."
And I'm just thinking, yeah freaking right.
Firstly, you're giggling, secondly you're smiling like you just won the lottery. She's told me stuff about her dad and he doesn't seem like the kind to do anything like that to his daughter. Nothing like THAT. So, if you want to lie to get attention, make it believable. And nothing that sounds like one of our friends might be seriously hurt.
And you really shouldn't be lying at all. I'm sorry you feel like I don't pay attention to you, but lying? Ever hear of the boy who cried wolf? Stuff like that actually happens all the time and you want to lie about it because you thought my reaction would be funny? That's a piss off. I'm super mad you did that and I'm super mad you feel bad it didn't work and I'm super mad you would even THINK of trying it again.
You have no right to be mad or sad about how your lying game didn't turn out the way you wanted it to.
God I just had to rant about that.
We're fighting a lot more this year. That's a piss off too.

KatCentral

Weekend

The first one was for Kat/Erin since I used her real name.

Anyways I had some fun this weekend. Went over Kierra's and messed around with her family. We started making these homemade horror films that actually turned out really well. But as we sat back to watch them all we started noticing eyes and faces and the Ouija board actually moved when we asked questions. And then they set a spirit free because they took their hands off and didn't say goodbye. Some people actually called the police on us because we were screaming so loud. We freaked out the police officer with the makeup we had on.

So then after we were done we started taking the makeup off and we heard scratching on the wall and whistling. So everyone is in the back and the Ouija board was still out and we went back up there and it had moved from the table to the couch. So then we were all up front messing around on Facebook and stuff and the bathroom door closed by itself. And so we started snapping random pictures of things and watching the videos over again. In the videos we say eyes in this flower and in the bathroom and stuff we hadn't seen before. And in the picture of the bathroom we say this portal that seriously freaked us out and we ended up all staying in the living room together.

Fun right.

Lied

First of all I lied Erin. I just wanted to see what your face would look like. It wasn't that funny. So now I feel like I should think of something better. It's not like you pay attention to me anyways.

AARON IS AN IDIOT

I swear to Gosh i'm not trying to be mean but OMG its like bad idiot. I hope he does not know I have a blog cause OMG guys. i was texting him and it was funny at first like "haha" and then he started trying to be deep and I was like "no." in my head cause he was just no. I didn't agree with anything he was saying and it was all jacked up and stupid and I just couldn't. He wants to be different, he said "I think I'm different and people tell me I am so" but I said it doesn't matter. Cause he wants to be weird but he's not. He really isn't. Hes just like everyone else. So forget him. Zarnez can have him. I told her about why I didn't like him and I can't even explain I just don't.

Sue Me

KatCentral

P.S. I'M CRUSH FREE!

I like posting picutres

KatCentral

my peoples!

Im posting a lot today but I just thought since I'm done being anonymous and all, screw it, right? These are my peeps.

from left to right, oshen(cousin) my brother jordan and other cousin chelsea

me an my horse buddy!

from left to right, colton, monse, and josh 

my brother and stepmother, kim

me and my dad!

KatCentral

How To Save A Life

I was like really super excited because I had some gummy worms but then I decided to come and class and listen to some music. I don't know why I decided to torture myself and put this song on, but yeah. Now I am all calm. The chorus really gets to me, even more than it used to, but yeah. I am not sad just more calm and content. Sober.

The Fray makes badass songs but this one is just amazing. No words for how much I love this song. It took on a whole new meaning in my life and yeah. I just don't even know how to explain it.






Step one – you say, "We need to talk."
He walks, you say, "Sit down. It's just a talk."
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
'Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
Pray to God, he hears you
And I pray to God, he hears you

And where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life

How to save a life

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life
How to save a life

How to save a life 


"How To Save A Life" - The Fray

MusicalLover

Follow Ryan Higa!!!

KatCentral

P.S. He is the bomb!!!
P.P.S. Just thought you should see some of my other idiot friends. Those dweebs down there.

Grades

P.E.- A, duh, all i have to do is but on some sweatpants and hit stuff
Chemistry- B, pretty good considering I have no clue whats going on
World History- C, because there are reading quizzes every time and I suck at memorizing facts
English- C, because there are grammar quizzes every week and who knows every damn thing about appositives anyway?
Spanish 3- A, because I have to look smart for Aaron JOKING I just like Spanish.
Digital Layout- A, hello? just do the stupid computer work its not brain surgery
Biology- A, though not for long cause I forgot to do the homework
Algebra 2- C, I SHOULD go to tutoring but....

KatCentral

P.S.

Hi

HI KAT!

What What!!!!

What's up world. Get ready for a rant. Well not really I am just annoyed at some things.

I was reading this really good story online, I think on Wattpad, but I am not sure about this women who's husband got drafted into World War 2. I was set back in that time. So anyways suddenly the letters stop coming and she decides she was going to go find him.

So anyways she finds him and he's a vampire.

No offense to her but that was such crap. There we a thousand other ways that she could have ended that story than making him a vampire and him making her a vampire so they could live forever, and they would have been better than that.

I am so tired of all these people who just decide to turn people into vampires and humans just to save their endings, I mean really can we please do something else.

Sometimes it is used in the right way and it actually enhances the story and makes it awesome, BUT IN FREAKING THE FALLEN SERIES DID WE REALLY NEED TO TURN LUCE AND DANIEL INTO HUMANS!!!!!! GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!!! WE JUST LEARN THAT SHE USED TO BE LUCIFER'S GIRLFRIEND AND AN ANGEL AND THEN WE TURN HER HUMAN.

One of the worst endings ever.

I can't say the worst because that so goes to the Kissed By An Angel series. It isn't done yet but I was so fed up with one of those books that I am so done with that series. Like seriously though. Can Tristan just be dead and we stop bringing him back in different forms. Like really though. Just don't even get me started on that series. I mean her stepbrother tried to kill her and get with her and just no. Just no. Just utter bullshit. I am so done. I need to go before I go off on this series and anyways I need to relax. And do some school work. I will be back - Terminator voice. Duh!



MusicalLover

Where You Belong

If you're feeling down or weak

You can always count on me

I will always pick you up

Nothing's ever gonna change

Nothing's gettin' in my way 

I will always hold you up 

Anything 

Come what may

Don't look back forget yesterday

Forget yesterday 

It's not where you come from

It's where you belong

Nothin' I would trade

I wouldn't have it any other way 

You're surrounded

By love and you're wanted

So never feel alone

You are home with me

Right where you belong

I know sometimes you're feeling lost

It's hard to find your place in it all

But you don't have to fear

Even when you mess up

You always got my love

I'm always right here 

Oh, cause 

Anything

Come what may

Don't look back forget yesterday 

Forget yesterday

Oooo Oooo (Oooo) 

Don't matter where you've been

Oooo Oooo (Oooo) 

You're here for a reason

Oooo Oooo (Oooo) 

Nooo

"Where You Belong" - Kari Kimmel

Fell in love with this song when I heard it as the theme song for The Fosters. 

MusicalLover

Tired of the Heavy

I am so freaking tired of the heavy stuff. And by heavy stuff I mean all this drama, and blame,  and hate, and just crap.

Jesus can we be happy for one second before someone comes over and tried to drown us in problems. Like seriously.

It was my friends birthday today (she's Kat's friend too) and man the first thing that happened to me is that I got a shot in the arm.

For those of you who are unaware I am not good with shots. I am like a little child. When I was younger I used to run. I remember one time I ran out the room, down the hall, and out of the hospital before someone caught up to me and then they had to have like 5 different people (not including my mother) hold me down while one person gave me the shot. When I walk in the hospital I always look for a quick exit, even now when I know I shouldn't be running.

It's just stupid.

But anyways her birthday was today and I usually go out of my way to embarrass my friends on their birthday but that shot had me in a bad mood so I was kind of calm today. I did our first block class that today was her birthday, but there are only six people in our class.

Wait a second. I really have to stop reading YouTube comments. Seriously. So I was listening to Birthday by Selena Gomez, I don't really like her but the beat of that song is really awesome. So anyways I am on YouTube listening to that and decided to scroll down and read some of the comment. I should have left it alone. Like really. So anyways short story shorter, I learned that a part of what she is saying should not be put out there to children or anyone. I get that she is 21 and all but oh my god. I didn't even pick up on that and my mind is so dirty so she hid it well enough but someones sister who is younger than me I might add picked up on it.

These kids these days. Damn.

Her album that she just pout out is not that good. I like maybe 4 songs off of there, but it is okay because I didn't really like Demi's either. And I haven't really been paying attention to any others. I do however have to go and look up Ariana Grande's album and Jessie J's. So yeah. But back to Selena. I don't really like her. I have never been a fan but she is a much better actress than she is a singer. She's a performer and her latest album really showed that. it is filled with a bunch of dance songs that don't really show off her vocal abilities and it is just like wow. It isn't that good. I didn't comment anything though. I usually end up getting into arguments online with people so I tend to not read comments or stuff.

I just need to go back to my Lana Del Ray playlist. Her and Adele are like my lovers. Love them. Just yay.

Anyways what was I even talk about. I need to go back up and read what it says. Oh I was done with that topic. Let's get back to my original topic.

Anyways, I am so tired of hearing about all the problems in the world. I just want something happy and simple and kind and sweet. But apparently I can't get that and never will.

JB is stressing out over her grades. And it is all because of debate. She spends all her time trying to keep that grade up and she doesn't pay attention to the others. And when she pays attention to the others her debate grade goes down. It is like a seesaw. She really wants to go out of state for college but she is trying to handle to much. Her mother doesn't seem much help. I am actually a little worried about. Apparently her mother told her she didn't love her and is not letting her participate in anything that does not have anything dealing with her education in it. She won't let her join book club, or this volunteer group.

Okay so I was listening to Never Let Me Go by Florence + The Machine (if you haven't heard go listen. It is really beautiful) and now I have a reason for scrolling through the comments. Sometimes they give you really good information. I didn't know that she wrote the song based off of someone's suicide. Which is really sad. So now with that little piece of information I opened myself up to a whole different side of the song.

I did the same thing with Broken Crown by Mumford & Sons. I read some of the comments and actually found out what the song was about, well two theories because Marcus Mumford stated that he would never tell what it is actually about. I am so not about to get into that because it will lead to two topics I don't want to touch at the moment and plus earlier in the summer I put a post about that on her. I am pretty sure it's called Broken Crown but yeah.

So anyways good reason to read comments it that you could learn more about  that song that you didn't know before. It's really cool sometimes because I might go look up the history behind the songs if I really want to but usually I just want to add my own background behind there. So yeah. It opens up another side of the song to you.

The bad thing is you run into dumbasses. (<- Is that even a word?) Like the idiot who says all people who commit suicide are going to hell. Let me just say thins because I really don't want to get on this topic either. Just because you commit suicide does not mean you are going to hell. Hitler is in hell though, he took the cowards way out. However if you are some somebody being bullied until the point where you can't deal with life anymore than I am so sorry our fucked up society messed you up and Lord knows that someone well let you into heaven.

Or like when people say "still listening in 2013 or some random year that makes no fucking sense" or when they say "some show brought me here"

TALENT BROUGHT ME HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oh my gosh it is like really though.

So I went from saying I am tired of the heavy to just talking about a bunch of heavy. Anyways here is a song that when you listen to it you don't really pay attention but you calm down some. Well I do anyways.

Blue jeans, white shirt
Walked into the room you know you made my eyes burn
It was like, James Dean, for sure
You're so fresh to death & sick as cancer
You were sorta punk rock, I grew up on hip hop
But you fit me better than my favourite sweater and I know
That love is mean, and love hurts
But I still remember that day we met in December, oh baby!

I will love you till the end of time
I would wait a million years
Promise you'll remember that you're mine
Baby can you see through the tears?
Love you more than those bitches before
Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember
I will love you till the end of time

Big dreams, gangsta

Said you had to leave to start your life over
I was like - no please, stay here, we don't need no money, we could make it all work
But he headed out on Sunday, said he'd come home Monday
I stayed up waitin', anticipatin', and pacin' but, he was chasing paper
Caught up in the game - that was the last I heard

I will love you till the end of time I would wait a million years
Promise you'll remember that you're mine
Baby can you see through the tears?
Love you more than those bitches before
Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember
Oh baby who I will love you till the end of time

You went out every night
And baby that's alright
I told you that no matter what you did I'd be by your side

'Cause imma ride or die
Whether you fail or fly
Well shit at least you tried
But when you walked out that door a piece of me died
Told you I wanted more, but that's not what I had in mind
Just want it like before
We were dancin' all night
Then they took you away, stole you out of my life
You just need to remember...

I will love you till the end of time
I would wait a million years
Promise you'll remember that you're mine
Baby can you see through the tears
Love you more than those bitches before
Say you'll remember, oh baby, say you'll remember
I will love you till the end of time

"Blue Jeans" by Lana Del Rey <3
(I don't like the website I got these lyrics from but the website I do like made the words really dark and I am not in the mood to find out why.)



OMG HEY LOOK WHAT I FOUND

MusicalLover

Im gonna punch a hole in the wall

KatCentral

Hopes this helps you guys sleep tonight

KatCentral

Hola!

'Sup world. 

I had such a fun weekend. I volunteered at the Arts Center and watched this really cute kids play. And then had pink cupcakes and really crunchy grapes which is always a good thing. Then I went to the sorority meeting and like it. It was cool. And then I went hiking with my grandparents and cousin. We went out to a lake and I put my feet in. It was cool. And today I was supposed to help with the orchestra but they had enough volunteers so I just grabbed a brownie and a coke and left but it was still cool. I got to talk to this really old lady. It was fun. She told me my name was pretty and that I looked much older than I am. 

So I had nice weekend. I washed my hair even!!! And watched The Big Bang Binge which is continuing in about 5 minutes so yeah. 

Just a little update. Gotta get some homework in too!!!! Cya around!

I've seen the world

Done it all

Had my cake now

Diamonds, brilliant

And Bel Air now

Hot summer nights, mid July

When you and I were forever wild

The crazy days, city lights

The way you'd play with me like a child

Will you still love me

When I'm no longer young and beautiful?

Will you still love me

When I got nothing but my aching soul?

I know you will, I know you will

I know that you will

Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?

I've seen the world, lit it up

As my stage now

Channeling angels in the new age now

Hot summer days, rock 'n' roll

The way you play for me at your show

And all the ways I got to know

Your pretty face and electric soul

Will you still love me

When I'm no longer young and beautiful?

Will you still love me

When I got nothing but my aching soul?

I know you will, I know you will

I know that you will

Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?

Dear lord, when I get to heaven

Please let me bring my man

When he comes tell me that you'll let him in

Father tell me if you can

Oh that grace, oh that body

Oh that face makes me wanna party

He's my sun, he makes me shine like diamonds

Will you still love me

When I'm no longer young and beautiful?

Will you still love me

When I got nothing but my aching soul?

I know you will, I know you will

I know that you will

Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?

Will you still love me when I'm no longer beautiful?

Will you still love me when I'm not young and beautiful?

  "Young & Beautiful" - Lana Del Ray

AWESOME SONG THAT I ADORE AND AWESOME ARTIST!!!! One of my favorites. 

MusicalLover

One of my Favies

Hey there Delilah
Whats it like in New York City
I'm a thousand miles away, but girl,
Tonight you look so pretty
Yeah, you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear its true
Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right here if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to this song its my disguise
I'm by your side


C: Oh, its what you do to me (x4)
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good
Hey there Delilah
I've got so much more to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
Id write it out
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

C

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
Id walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
And we'll just laugh along because
We know that none of them have ever felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time that we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You know its all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This ones for you

C

KatCentral

Having That Day

I am having one of those days.

I woke up late and missed the stupid bus, which came early so it wasn't really my fault.

It's raining.

Someone ate my chocolate chip muffin. It was a really good chocolate chip muffin too. To whoever ate it: fuck you. That would have been the best thing ever.

Anyways I come to school with this giant headache and go in the library so I could type up this poem. I ended up typing an entirely different new poem because I had an awesome idea. Kat semi interrupted me and I lost my train of thought and I really wanted to hit her but she didn't know.

But then I went to creative writing and everything was good. I got some really good advice and my poem was badass.

But I have to go home after school today and get ready to go to the Arkansas Arts Center because Pink-A-Licious The Musical. I volunteered for it at the MAyor's Youth Council. I'm not like acting in it, more like just helping out. So anyways. I got to take a shower and get over there before 6:00. My weekend is full. But we shall see. We shall see.

Got to go!



and OH! I do have a moral compass. It's just a little screwed up. Like if you rape someone there should be a much bigger consequence then going to jail. You should be made to never rape someone again. If you know what I am saying.

And I think you do.

Also if there is a good reason for you to steal something you minus well. I mean if it is for your family then go ahead. And if you mess with me then I am going to rain like hell down on you. So don't fuck with me.

Anyways...


MusicalLover

Just saying...

Damn straight!

I always use the master ball on Dialga though. Don't feel like dealing with the extraness.

Every. Effin. Day.

And he's gonna be damn fine when he grows up too. Got them eyes.

KatCentral

P.S. My friend Z likes Aaron too. I said "NO HE WILL BE MINE" and then i felt bad because i was asked out last year and she said she wasn't and I was like "okay....fine...but if he asks me out i am NOT saying no. But I'll help you meet him. and if he likes someone else, ill help you with that other guy you like." we shook on it.

P.P.S. HE WILL BE MINE

ML

ML and her last post man. i was crying and stuff. so sweet. i kinda feel like i should return the favor.
ML is one of the most DIFFICULT people i have EVER met. She sometimes has no moral compass and no home training.
those are her faults.
On the other hand, she is imaginative, ridiculously fun to be around, understanding, sarcastic, and brutally honest. If i ever needed someone to back me up in a fight it would be her. But i also know that it would never come to that because she would have taken care of it before it got that drastic. she is that awesome. Her opinions are too strong to knock down, though that doesnt keep me from trying, and i admire her confidence.
So there you go, you pain in the ass.
debt paid

KatCentral

'Sup with you

I was having a really good day. I found a chocolate bar. I wrote an interesting poem. I found out that one of my series has a new book coming out in January. I update my GoodReads profile and gosh is my want to read list long. 

But then I got in World History and my mood died. I don't like the people in the class. It's a lot of loud, ghetto, annoying people. All they go is talk and gossip. And them they wonder why they don't understand. My head started to hurt and I really wanted to throw up. 

I don't even know what happened. I just didn't feel good, but I had to stay after school for book club (which only four people showed up by the way).

I think it was because of Kat. Not trying to blame her for anything but I don't know. I brought up something that has been bothering me at lunch and could sense it gong downhill. Or my attitude or whatever. So in an earlier post she said something along the lines of us not being friends in senior year. I don't remember exactly what she said and really don't feel like looking it up so yeah. 

It kind of hurt to hear that you know. But I do see what she was talking about. Our entire complex has shifted a little bit. We still have a lot of stuff in common, but people grow. We haven't really talked just the two of us like we used to. We usually have people around us and when we are alone there is a teeny tiny bit of awkwardness. Not a lot, but its still there. 

I just think we need to get back on track. I mean everyone is stressed and trying to get stuff done. We barely see each other at school and after school there are clubs, homework, family, and other things. 

I don't know.

What I do know is that my friends are really important to me. They are like my family. Losing any of them would hurt. Losing Kat would hurt a little more because she has been in my life for the second longest time. I tend not to have friends fr a very long time. A school year and maybe the next we talk but not like we used to, I usually make new friends. 

I've made new friends both this year and last year but my main friends have been the same since 7th and 8th grade. 

Kat's really fun. She's creative, sarcastic, and funny. And she is really smart and dedicated when she wants to be. Her ideas on certain things are quirky and different. She's nice to everyone all the time even when she shouldn't be. She doesn't have a mean side. She's a really good friend. 

And sometimes I'm a really bad friend. 

MLover

Problems and Peoples

Okay I really don't want to touch ML's subject. Not really. But I kind of feel like I have to because c'mon guys! The only thing I don't agree with is the animals thing. I mean, it sucks if we were spending more on them than children of the world but even though they aren't human i think that they are just as important. The animals, I mean. I'm no vegetarian, but I think that we should try equally to help everyone, not deem one cause more important that another. Its kind of a piss off.
I cant even go on cause if I do I'll go into some religious stuff.
I have a new crush!!!(insert musical notes here) I'm so proud of myself!!! XD
His name is Aaron. Considering I'm done with the anonymous thing. No ones reading anyway, so what does it matter? We have Spanish 3 together! I'm so mad at him all the time cause he does this stuff that's just like AAARARRRGGHHHH!!!!
Like he doesn't say hi to people in the hallway. So I was like, "oh so we aren't friends anymore" and he was all "what?" and i said "you can say hi" and we got into a fake cupcake argument (definition: an argument that isn't really in argument cause it has laughing and stupidness in it) and that was fun. And now he says hi to me in the hallway! And in Spanish I was talking to Senor Lyle because I didn't like him calling me a gringo and he said it wasn't an offensive term in Latin America that meant non-Spanish speaker but I said I took it offensively. The Aaron was all, "It's okay I'm half gringo." and I said, "I know but you don't care if you are called a gringo." and he said, "no, i don't, because i don't take it offensively!" and then he started laughing and i was like "it doesn't matter! if some random kid doesn't like being called a biscuit, you don't say 'biscuit isn't an offensive term', you say 'okay, i wont call you biscuit!'" and he laughed again and was like "okay so are you a biscuit?"
and i stomped my foot at him.
But we were laughing. Its so hard with people like him to tell if they like you or not. Because they are nice to EVERYONE. He's a junior and I'm only a sophomore too.
High school is hard.

KatCentral

P.S. I also mentioned Aaron in an earlier post when I was freaking out.

Problems

You know what really pissed the shit out of me? 

When a person breaks up with someone and later gets back with them. 

Oh my gosh. Don't do that. You either want to be with them or you don't. I will accept the you lost your memory of them like in The Vow (which was a good movie but oh gosh it was sappy). But if you just break up with someone and a month later it's like huh I miss him let's get back together. And them shame on the person who got broken up with for taking them back if the did. Are you serious?!? They broke up with you!!! It's just stupidity at its finest. 

Another thing is cant stand how Americans love to go over into other countries and try to help and fix their problems but they still have problems at home. 

Let's talk about hunger. I'm about to really rude but its the truth. How the hell are we going to go into Africa and try to feed their children when we have kids walking down our streets that only have one meal or less a day. I'm not saying hat we do in Africa is wasted or it shouldn't be done but can we feed the American children first. And another thing on that. Why are we giving abused dogs and animals more money than we give the hungry kids in third world countries. Really??? I can't believe that. 

But like I was saying how are we going to go into some other country trying to fix their problems when we still have our own. Yes, Africa needs it more than we do, but who is out there trying to help us. We have all these commercials about sending money to donate food but yet we never see any progress over there and we still have kids over here looking through dumpsters for food. 

I'm also about to talk about race. Fuck it. If you were born in America you are a fucking American. Why do we try to push people into their own little groups? So what her skin is lighter or darker than mine? The entire equality thing just pisses me off. Why are people so afraid of the unknown and the different? I mean you didn't know your wife, husband, best friend before. You had to meet them. Stop being afraid of something that isn't scary. It's like being afraid of your own shadow. Everyone deserves the same rights. Equality all around. But that will never happen. We need racist in our world for it to turn. 

We bring children into this world and tell them all these sappy love stories and fairy tales and we expect them to get this idea that the world is good. We sugar coat everything and place a blanket over their eyes to cover all the bad. But it slides off as they grow and they see the evil. The bad side. And everything they learned as a child is wasted. 

What's the point? 

MLover

Quickly!!!

ML hasn't posted much. I dunno. But I have to say, I was really excited. I thought i figured out how to post videos to the blog. So instead of typing every gosh darn thing I could say it. Or read it from a script. It would be fun, you know? And I could use computer programming to make it look less like me even though at this point I don't really care if you know who I am. But anyway, It didn't work out. I did it like 3 times, I tried to post a video. But blogger was goofing up and it would cut me off and shut down or something. It was a piss off. So I gave up after an hour. Ill try again on a different laptop when I get home. Hopefully it will work cause I'd like our unexisting followers to know that we are real people. Not freaks of nature.
Oh and apparently JB has a new crush and doesn't want me to know who it is. I'm just like... well. okay than. Dont tell me if you have a crush then refuse to tell me who it is. Dont do that.

KatCentral

Just felt like this should be shared is all

 

KatCentral

This should be my go-to

KatCentral

I ship you two together

Apparently, that is a phrase used in anime, meaning "I can see you two going out" or "I predict you will date" or something. If I hear it one more time, I will drop a ship on someone's head.
Its not that I don't like anime, I do. I'm in the Made in Japan club at my school. But I'm sick of that phrase in particular. You know the guy I was freaking about cause he asked me out? Yeah, well I have three classes in a row with him on B days. And the last class, Algebra II, I have with him and these guys Cole and Sean(Shawn). So Cole has a girlfriend, Lord smiled upon him one day that's the only explanation I have, and he likes throwing it in people's faces. And acting like he knows every damn thing about relationships because of that one girlfriend. So ever since that guy asked me out, Cole has been all "I TOTALLY SHIPPED YOU TWO TOGETHER." and I'm like, "GREAT FOR YOU BUT WE AREN'T GOING OUT I DON'T LIKE HIM" and the guy is like, "I didn't even ask her out I didn't mean it like that." And in my head I go oh yeah sure you didn't okay but I don't say anything else. But its totally annoying! And today, guys, he put his hand on my hand. I was like "don't touch me" but I was like I feel so bad for you cause I don't like you like that. He's so nice but so annoying guys.
I like people who I know can deal with my friends. If I get a boyfriend, before I say yes to them asking me out or vice versa they need to pass the friend test. I need them to survive one lunch with my friends. They don't even need to talk. They just need to survive. If they can't, that sucks. Because in this guys case, I've sat at his lunch table. I get along with everyone. Its the dork table. (I use dork as a descriptive, not offensive, term. I hate everyone alike. No discrimination) I can carry on a convo with everyone there. I have nicknames for some of them too. But I doubt that he could last TEN SECONDS at my lunch table. Ten. Because he would either get scared or we would kill him. It's unfortunate. But true.
Poor unfortunate souls! In pain! In need! This one longing to be thinner, this one wants to get the girl and I help them! I do indeed. Poor unfortunate souls! So sad, so true!
Now its happened once or twice, someone couldn't pay the price, and I'm afraid I've had to rake 'em across the coals...Yes I've had the odd complaint but on the whole I've been a saint to those poor unfortunate souls!
Come on you poor unfortunate soul! Go ahead! Make your choice! I'm a very busy woman and I haven't got all day it wont cost much! Just your voice! You poor unfortunate soul! It's sad, but true. If you want to cross the bridge, my sweet, you've got to pay the toll. Take a gulp and take a breath and then go ahead and sign the scroll! Flotsam, Jetsam, now I've got her boys THE BOSS IS ON A ROLL! This poor unfortunate soul!!!


KatCentral

P.S. The men up there don't like a lot of blabber! They think a girl who gossips is a bore! Yes on land its much preferred for ladies not to say a word and after all dear, what is idle babble for? Come on they're not all that impressed with conversation! True gentlemen avoid it when they can. But they dote and swoon and fawn on a lady who's withdrawn! It's she who holds her tongue who gets a man
^ this is false btw

Not my idea

Don't you just hate it when you read a story and it isn't anything like you want it to be? 

I mean really. All they (the author) did was think of the idea. You have the story worked out in your head. I promise you. 

But it comes back to this saying:

If there's a book you want to read, but it hasn't been written yet, then you must write it. 

-Maya Angelou

I really like this because its true. Everything I read a summary I start thinking of how the story should go along in my head. I have the entire story written out in my head. Sometimes the story is better than idea. Sometimes it goes along with it with a couple of twist. And sometimes it just bombs. But it's their story and I can't do anything about it. 

MLover

IM OVER J!!!!

Congratulate me! XXOO

KatCentral

P.S. Wow, the fight between us was stupid. I thought it was. Whateva Whatevs you know?

Fight

So you're gonna fight me over the Internet though. 

I didn't tell Jasmine anything. I more or less just made noise. 

And I wasn't being serious sending you one word text. I just didn't want to talk to anybody but I didn't feel like saying that out right to everyone's face. 

I'm Pissed at you because you said no one listens to what comes out of my mouth. 

And like I said before I'm tired of all this shit. 

I'm done.

This... I need to write. I can't think. All I know is fighting with friends hurts. I'm getting tired of the world. 

God someone kill me. 

And if you think I'm being dramatic well then Fuck You. Since I'm never fucking serious. You can take this all as a joke too. 

MusicalLover

Sincerely

You can be serious all you want. But I'm not used to it so I wish you wouldn't say I hurt your feelings when all I did was worry about you because you weren't being yourself. You sent me one word texts, but when i do that to you, you get annoyed, so of course I thought something was wrong.
I don't know why I got so angry at that.
You can be serious, but my definition of serious is obviously different from yours. Serious is saying what you feel with a straight face, you just stopped talking completely. And also, serious is not saying, "I'm not talking to Kat today." And then whispering the reason why to JB. My mind literally just went, "Wow. Immature." I was only in the library to print my Spanish essay anyway so that's what I was gonna do. Not be whispered about. Cause that was insulting. And rude. And really pissed me off. So let me just quote,

"Screw you guys. I hate high school."
                                                                     -She's the Man

And unfortunately, I find myself thinking that the only reason I'm going to be friends with you guys Senior year is because I promised myself I wouldn't let that stupid high school rule, "you wont be friends with the same people." become true for us. Don't get me wrong, you guys get me more than other people do. But you also piss me off a lot more than they do too.
'Cause honestly, I'm getting a little tired of insulting each other in every sentence. I get that that's what "best friends" are supposed to do, but I don't like being called a bitch.

KatCentral

P.S. And don't bother texting me tonight. I wont be able to respond.

Hi

I'm really tired right now. I had a real emotional day (not that most people saw that). 

Anyways we had a speaker today at school. And he just creeped me out to no ends and just ugh. It was weird. And I ended up coughing when it was really quiet and like everyone turned to look at me. Not that I cared, but damn are you serious?

So then I went back to Creative Writing. I love creative writing. It's one of the best classes ever and you get to be you and just express yourself and you can free and stuff. So we had this really dark emotional day today in class. It was just me and two of my friends because the other three students went to their thing. (They split the speaker into two times.) So my just my best friends and me and they read their poems and they were so emotional and sad. I'm not going to say what they were about. So I read mines and mine was about KS's POV if she would have died and she was looking down on me. So anyways then out teacher said the best thing ever that totally made sense and made me really happy and sad at the same time. 

She asked us if we ever felt like we for in with people. We all said no and she said that was the true mark of a writer. 

She then she started explaining how writers put on facades when it comes to the outside world. And how that's why when we come into class we kind of let loose and show ourselves or whatever. About how we writers block is caused by the fear of what others would think of what we write and that we needed to get rid of that. 

And it all just clicked. 

Really. 

I've gone through life with these friends who were just friends. I never wanted or liked what the other kids were into. I didn't want to be like them or anyone. I was always that weird one. I'm not going to go into me being bullied as a child because that kind of didn't happen. I mean yeah some people were mean to me because I could read 25 books in a month and I wouldn't play tag at recess but its not like this big thing that created me to be who I am or change or make me feel really depressed. I mean yeah it hurt but kids are mean. 

And then I don't usually write personal things. I take my emotions and things out of my stories and things. So what I wrote today was like a total surprise. It was weird. 

And the writers block thing was like gold. I have this I don't care what people think attitude but with my writing its not like that. I always have this voice in the back of my head criticizing me and yapping in my ear. Telling me what others might think and all the things I am doing wrong. 

Kat hurt my feelings today. I know she was joking but still. People don't take me very seriously because I'm always laughing and goofing off and just having fun and smiling. But when I want to get serious no one really takes me seriously and they say and do stuff that hurts my feelings or just bomb rush them. I don't think they know they are doing this but they are.

I really want to change some of my personality but I just don't know how. 

Anyways so then I had this debate with this preachers daughter about religion. We were talking about these myths on how the world was created. We had to talk about how the myths differ from our own. And she was talking about how God created the Earth and everyone else in the group was like yeah and I just say there. And she finally turned to me and said what do you think. I told her I didn't really care about God. So she started asking questions and shit and throwing down what I believe and it was annoying because I don't give a shit what she believes. It's what she believes and I am not against or with it. I'm not trying to pull her onto my side. But she didn't have to put me down like she did.

And then in 4th block one of my friends told me they haven't eaten in 2 days. And I'm really worried about them. 

So I had auditions today. They went alright. Nothing much there. 

So I go to my Grandmothers so I can print out these pictures of me and KS for her bday and my Grandmother runs out of ink and paper. My cousin calls me mean and my hair ugly and said it looks like crap. She's like 6 or 7. I didn't say anything back and ignored her. But I really don't like being called mean. Because I'm not fucking mean. If this is what people call mean then they need a fucking reality check. It's pissing me off. And my aunt commented on my boobs which I'm getting really tired of people doing. They act like they have never seem any before and that somehow mines are special than others. 

So I get home and it was like everyone wanted something from me. I had like 4 messages waiting. So I text all these people thinking they wouldn't want anything much. But I was wrong. All these people start talking to me and it was just like oh my god give me a second I just got home. I know not to do that anymore. 

So now I have a bunch of homework I need to get done and I'm just tired. I'm not sneering anyone's text or anything. I'm putting my earphones in and ignoring the world. I can't go to sleep at 12:00 anymore. I need more time or I promise I will go off on someone tomorrow. 

Both of my mothers are pissing me off. I showed my stepmother the dress I bought for KS's party and the first thing she said was do your boobs fit in that dress. The next thing is how long is it. (It's knee length just so y'all know.) And then she said huh it's cute. 

And my other birth mother is just pissing me off. She got mad I didn't respond to her text because I was doing homework and she's just all in my business. I know that's a mothers job but my mother hates KS and her mom so she is being a pain in my ass about this party this weekend. And she bringing up shit like Bruno Mars and my new iPod and saying that she paid for them so I should listen to her and shit. God when I get older I'm going to just pay her off and tell her to fuck off because I don't want to deal withmy family   anymore. 

I just want to sleep. Everything is better in your dreams.

I don't really have any lyrics. My mind hurts. Not my head. My mind. There is a difference. Anyways none are coming to mind at the moment. 

MLover

OMIGOD ML PLEASE TELL ME YOURE ONLINE

Gaaaaaaddddd....So this guy asked me out today. NO NO NO NO NO like literally, "Would you like to go to the movies with me on Friday?" It just happened. Just now.
UM NO. No I would not. It caught me by surprise. So of course I went and said "Um.... I have to ask." No I don't because firstly, I don't like him like that and SECONDLY, why is he bugging because he knows I have a crush on J. And a building crush on this guy named A who's name is the same as mine except boy form and he's a junior and he's been to Africa and he's really funny and chiz and this is a mess. I need a lie. Like fast. I need to help ML comfort KS because her party didn't go over like she wanted it to? I'm going to the said party? I need to help ML get ready for the said party? IDK! Why am I freaking. If you knew who I was talking about you'd know. Hes my friend but GAWD. He's a little of a...um....not a nerd. I'm a nerd. He's like a straight up...um...geek...Chess club and stuff. I have nothing against Chess Club but its like an obsession... I don't want to break his little nerd heart! ML is probably reading this like, God, get a spine, show some backbone but holy chiz i would feel so bad!

Crap.

KatCentral

Procrastination

Hi my name is Musical Lover and I am a huge procrastinator. 

My name's not really Musical Lover. But it would be pretty awesome if it was. I mean really. Haha, I think one my children's middle names will be Musical. Just because - see I'm procrastinating. 

So hey. I have a bunch of homework I should of done over the Labor Day Weekend but I didn't do it so I'm trying to catch up and I am just not doing it. I'm procrastinating with this post. I mean really I should be doing homework. 

I have like three things due tomorrow and I have to stay after school so I can audition for this thing. So I really need to try and get a lot done tonight but its late, well kind of. It's a little after 10:00 and I need to be in the bed (laying down in the dark (I'm going to be reading off my iPod or something)) or I won't wake up in the morning. By that I mean snooze will be my best friend. I will start running late. My father will say if you miss the bus you're walking to school (I live on the other side of town from my school), and I could forget something or just yeah. 

I've got a playlist on consisting of Lana Del Ray and Kanye West. Weird combination I know but it's nice in my ears. I don't care about y'all's ears. 

Anyways. I need to go. People have to practice responsibility for them to get things done. I really don't wanna do this homework.