Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving my lovelies!!!!!!  

I'm feeling much better and the smell of food no longer disgust me. My stepmother thinks I had food poisoning. 

I don't know and don't care. I'm just happy to be eating today. 

So yeah. Have a good day. My HArry Potter marathon has started. I'm very upset that ABCFamily was not going to start their marathon on the first one. They were starting on the third one. And not until later so I needed to watch the first two by myself. 

That's what I'm doing now. So see y'all later! 

MusicalLover

I'm Sick

This is going to be quick because I really don't feel good. One quick thing before I get into the topic, I saw Catching Fire and it is good. I started a post but something happened and I didn't get to finish. 

Anyways my parents suck. Well not my Mom. So I went to my Grandmothers and came home throwing up with a migraine. I tell my father and he goes okay go lay down. So I did right and like 15 minutes later he comes in and is messing with the new flat screen he put in my room. So I told him I was throwing up and he said wait until my stepmother comes home. So she came home right and I was scared to get up because I thought I was gonna throw up so I text my brother and tell him to tell her to come here. He never does. So I have to get up and go tell her. So I tell her I'm throwing up and she scrunches up her face and ask why. I wish I knew. So she tries to give me Pepto Bismol but I throw that stuff back up so she yells at me because I won't take it. So I grab some ice for my headache and some crackers and go lay down. Oh but not before when she is yelling I have to go to the bathroom to go throw up and she goes don't walk away and you better make it in the toilet. 

I'm tired. I need to go the light hurts. Bye y'all. 

MusicalLover

I can't even...

I just want you guys to be aware my brother just had a retard convulsion because he found the phrase, "why blaze it when you can glaze it". I have to do Algebra Two test corrections in the morning and I keep putting it off cause I dont want to do it but i have to go to his room anyway to get the work he is going to assign for Thanksgiving break. He is pretty much the only teacher I have who has his shxt together because all of my other ones are like "IDK HERPA DERP" and want me to make up all the work the Monday after next because I wont be here on the Monday or Tuesday of next week, the only two days we have before the break and they dont have their stuff together and I just...
And I haven't posted in a while cause there is just too much to do but I just caught a break so, yeah.
I'm tired. It's not even something to describe me anymore its just what I am. Tired.
OHMYGOSH my friend Jaymond tried to jump over a desk today in Spanish 3 cause we had a sub and she didnt care about what we did so he did it and then he turned the desk so it was the long way around and he tried to jump over it that way but halfway through he changed his mind avoided it and he said it was cause he knew he was going to get his feet stuck halfway through and fall on the floor and bust his face which I thought was the most beautiful thing he could've said.

That is all

KatCentral

New

So I made a new phone case today. Well I didn't make the case more or less designed it. The old one I had was just old and ugly and the tape was coming off so I was like good bye. This one is simpler and was easier to make and took less resources. I used a notecard, clear tape, electrical tape, permanent markers, old reused duct tape, scissors, and a bobby pin. It took me about 20 minutes. 

The other day I also designed these shoes. They were white. I went hiking in them, I know smart right, and got yellow golden stains on them. I couldn't get the stains out, even with bleach, so I washed them and wrote on them with permanent marker. They have been doing well so far. 

I'm a pretty creative person. I like arts and crafts. I designed this purse I had. It's old and dirty now but I still use it. I wrote lyrics and stuff on it. It needs to be washed but I'm scared the ink will just create this big mess so I won't wash it. I might during Christmas at my Mom's house. 

Anyways pictures below. And a saying to go along with one of my shoes. 

I messed this side up. I'm really upset about it too. That T is so ugly. 

My H is beautiful. My favorite letter that I drew. It doesn't connect with the A but whatever. My P is kinda messed up but the marker started bleeding so yeah. 

Anyways the quote is "Even when the story ends the book is always here." It's on the back of the Reader show above reader. I don't remember where I got that  from but I love it, because a lot of my favorite series are ending and it's sad but they are still here. So yeah anyways that's it for me. 

Okay wait I think the quote is an adaption of this or it may be a whole different quote. I don't know, can't remember. I really like this though so yeah. 

MusicalLover

Today

So this bitch... Kidding kidding. Inside joke. 

Kat might explain but I just don't want to. Inside joke stay funny when no one knows except those involved. 

Anyways, we had this sub in my first class. He had this really strong accent. We weren't doing anything, well any work. We were all playing chess. So we're talking and he's just all up in our conversations and all up in our chess game. He was trying to tell us how to play and he didn't know which piece was which. Like really dude. And he kept talking about how I smile a lot. I hate when people mention that like no shit dude. 

So in my second class we were talking about being a writer an stuff. That class is a computer class don't ask how we got on writing. We were talking about child birth too but that's not important. So anyways my teacher asked me if I'm a happy person. I told her sometimes. She says she suspected I wasn't because most writers are disturbed. 

I think writers think differently than other people. Just like musicians and actors and artist. We all have this different mindset. Like today I was walking home and listening to Human by Christina Perri and I have this entire short story in my head that I am about to go write down. 

In my third class some stuff happened. Let me explain. So last time that class met we had a sub and some people decided to act a fool. So the student teacher called the teacher and he yelled at us over the phone and told us to be prepared for like a bunch of test. So tell me why this ratchet kids in my class were surprised we had a bunch of quizzes and they want to complain when it was their fault. They asked him dumbass question. Do you really think he was going to be nice to us after we embarrassed him? I swear sometimes I don't understand why all of these kids are in AP or PAP classes. Like seriously, if you aren't going to do the work and complain then get the fuck out and go to regular. If you are in these classes but you do your work and get good grades then complain all you want because we know you don't mean it. But these kids are some fucking annoying. Why do we continue to ask do we have to write this down or have an attitude when something is due next class. Suck it up and do it. 

So earlier today I showed my friend Diana this song. I showed her Human. And she told me that a lot of my songs are real emotional but I'm like the exact opposite. I don't know if it hit her but I've had thoughts about this. I know many people have said this but I actually do show my emotions through songs. I don't show emotions through real life but go check out what I'm listening to and you should be able to tell. I don't think Kat pays much attention to the lyrics I post at the bottom, but yeah. Reading them would help anyone trying to get inside my head. 

Okay that's been pretty much the exciting things in my day. I need to go get this story out of my head before it leaves and Ravenswood has its last episode of the year today so their is a marathon on and I have to watch. I'll probably post about it later. See ya! 

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days
If that’s what you want
Be your number one
I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that’s what you ask
Give you all I am

I can do it
I can do it
I can do it

But I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
I’m only human, yeah

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that’s what you need
Be your everything

I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

But I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
I’m only human, yeah

I’m only human
I’m only human
Just a little human

I can take so much
Until I’ve had enough

‘Cause I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
‘Cause I’m only human, yeah

"Human" - Christina Perri (I told you I was gonna be hooked on this song for a while. I LOVE IT!)

MusicalLover

Human

i forgot all about this song. Human by Christina Perri came out today and i forgot about it but then remembered. THIS IS SO GOOD!!!!!! I love this song. Best song I have heard in a while. I love how simple and yet how powerful it is. I love it I love it I love it. Oh my gosh I will sing praises to this song until the day I am buried in my grave and even after my ghost will float around telling people about this song. you have no idea how fast I am typing right now. I love this song.

I can hold my breath
I can bite my tongue
I can stay awake for days
If that’s what you want
Be your number one
I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that’s what you ask
Give you all I am

I can do it
I can do it
I can do it

But I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
I’m only human, yeah

I can turn it on
Be a good machine
I can hold the weight of worlds
If that’s what you need
Be your everything

I can do it
I can do it
I'll get through it

But I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
I’m only human, yeah

I’m only human
I’m only human
Just a little human

I can take so much
Until I’ve had enough

‘Cause I’m only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I’m only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
‘Cause I’m only human, yeah

My Playlist

Okay I just wanted to give you guys a look inside my person. I don't know. I don't want to say mind because I don't always think like this. Huh, I got it. I want to give you guys a look inside my iPod. I have a playlist going and so I will list the songs. Yeah.

1. Magnetic - Jessie J

2. Wicked Games - The Weeknd (That's how you spell it in case you were wondering.)

3. The One That Got Away - The Civil Wars (This is like the only version of this song talking about the bad things that come from meeting someone instead of missing them.) 

4. Rude Boy - Rihanna 

5. I Wish - Cher ft. T.I. 

6. Lover to Lover - Florence + The Machine

7. National Anthem - Lana Del Rey (This song was inspired by the love affair of JFK and Marilyn Monroe. Watch the video it's good. And the song is so blunt in such a nice way.)

8. Thrift Shop - Macklemore

9. Old School Love - Lupe Fiasco ft. Ed Sheeran (Ed's voice in this song is just...)

10. The Real Slim Shady - Eminem (I can do this entire chorus.)

11. Still Into You - Paramore (It's different from their other music but it's good.)

12. Work - Iggy Azalea (Put this on whenever I need to get something done. Gets me in the zone.)

13. Replay - Zendaya (Had a dance party to this yesterday.) 

14. 23 - MikeWillMadeIt ft. Wiz Khalifa & Miley Cyrus (I still listen to what is considered black music.)

15. Money Make Her Smile - Bruno Mars (This song though...)

16. Holy Grail - Jay-Z ft. Justin Timberlake

17. Objects In the Mirror - Mac Miller 

18. Lover of the Light - Mumford & Sons (Love this music video.) 

19. Better Left Unsaid - Ariana Grande 

20. Dark Horse - Katy Perry ft. Juicy J

21. Acapella - Karmin (Inspired by Pitch Perfect and DIY)

22. Back From The Dead - Skylar Grey ft. Travis Barker & Big Sean (Love the line where she's like should I throw my arms around you or kill you for real.)

23. Love Don't Die - The Fray 

24. Babel - Mumford & Sons 

25. Dirty Paws - Of Monsters and Men

26. Heart Beats - JohnnySwim (This husband and wife are magical together. This song is badass.)

27. Stay The Night - Zedd ft. Hayley Williams (There's something about this song I can't get enough of.) 

28. How to Save a Life - The Fray (Too real. 😔) 

29. Houdini - Foster The People (Sometimes I wanna disappear too.)

30.The Way - Ariana Grande ft. Mac Miller (I can all of Mac Miller's parts. I love him and her. Beautiful voice.)

31. Tennis Court - Lorde 

32. Wake Me Up - Avicii

33. Young, Wild & Free - Wiz Khalifa & Snoop Dogg ft. Bruno Mars

34. If I Knew - Bruno Mars (I really like the meaning behind this song. It also tried to bring back some of those old school rhythms and it's just awesome. One of my favorites from him.)

35. Toxic - Britney Spears

36. Freakum Dress - Beyonce

37. Paradise - Coldplay

38. Honeymoon Avenue - Ariana Grande

39. From Finner - Of Monsters & Men 

40. Change Your Life - Iggy Azalea ft. T.I.

41. Power Trip - J. Cole ft. Miguel

42. No Light No Light - Florence + The Machine

43. Disarm - The Civil Wars (This song sounds so sweet. When their voices blend together I die a little bit every time.)

44. Elastic Heart - Sia ft. The Weeknd & Diplo (I love this song. I love Sia's voice. I love The Weeknd's voice. I love the runs and different voice effects they do. This song is on the Catching Fire Soundtrack.)

45. I Can't Stop - Flux Pavilion

46. Pusher Love Girl - Justin Timberlake (I love this song. It's catchy and Justin tries to rap at the end.)

47. Applause - Lady Gaga

48. Turning Tables - Adele

49. Rolling In the Deep - Adele

50. Set Fire to the Rain - Adele (This is my favorite Adele song and don't ask how they got grouped together. I pushed shuffle and it just happened. I'm happy so whatever.)

51. Bust Your Windows - Jazmine Sullivan (This song is old. It used to be the black girl anthem. I remember singing it when it came out. I love the Glee version of this song.)

52. Butterflies - Zendaya

53. Don't Wanna Go Home - Jason Derulo

54. Fallin' - Alicia Keys (When I was little me and my older cousin had a dance battle to this song (I used to dance a lot. I still dance just not as much as I used to. Every summer we would have a dance battle with 3 rounds. It kind of went back and forth with who won.) I won this one. We stopped doing the dance battles the year the dance The Jerk (skipping backwards) came out. He didn't know how to do it and I did.

55. Fireflies - Zendaya (Oh my gosh this song. After you get past the beats she slows it all down and it is beautiful. I mean beautiful. This has to be one of my favorite songs from her. It's better than Replay. I love this song. I even put the lyrics at the bottom because I love the lyrics.)

56. Ghost That We Knew - Mumford & Sons (All of their songs are pretty awesome. His voice is so... I don't know how to describe it. I just like listening to him. This song just makes me want to go hug someone and make sure they never leave me.)

57. Golden - Jill Scott (My mom likes her so I have heard a lot of her songs but this on is like my second favorite.)

58. Gorilla (Remix) - Bruno Mars ft. Pharrel & R. Kelly (Oh My God! I love the remix of this song. Pharrel part at the beginning is iffy to me but yeah. R. Kelly killed. I was like oh my gosh I need to be hosed down. The original version is better but the remix is badass. I love it.)

59. Hate On Me - Jill Scott (My favorite song by her.)

60. Heart Attack - Enrique Iglesias
61. King and Lionheart - Of Monsters and Men
62. Mamma Knows Best - Jessie J (Tell me why I can never find a decent version of this song.It's awesome. I always listening to live version. They are still awesome but the crowd annoys me.)
63. Mountain Sounds - Of Monsters of Men
64. My Baby - Zendaya
65. Obsessed - Mariah Carey (The people who know the story behind the song knows that it is epic. I used to be able to do this entire song bu heart I listened to it that much. I can still most of it.)
66. Roll Up - Wiz Khalifa
67. The Cave - Mumford & Sons
68. The Monster - Eminem ft. Rihanna (The chorus describes me. I really like this song.)
69. Us Against the World - Coldplay
70. With Every Heartbeat - Robyn
71. Monster - Imagine Dragons (I literally just heard this song and it's good. Apparently it was featured on some movie. It's good and new song! Happy face.)

Sparks turn to flames
When hearts start to chase
You’ll fall if you run right into the smoke
The lights start to dim when it’s almost enough
But flames light this place.

Fireflies tonight
‘Cause love lights the sky
Hey yeah

So put it up in, put it up in the air
Put it up in, put love in the air.
So put it up in, put it up in the air
Put it up in, put love in the air.

Baby, it's only right that you share
Pass the love and put it in the atmosphere
If you want keep it warm
Living in the air
Just keep your rotation so the clouds go nowhere
Just please light this place, oh oh oh oh

Fireflies tonight
‘Cause love lights the sky
(Hey yeah)

So put it up in, put it up in the air
Put it up in, put love in the air.
So put it up in, put it up in the air
Put it up in, put love in the air.

Let it burn, burn
Let it burn, burn
Let it burn, burn
Let it burn, burn

Fireflies tonight
‘Cause love lights the sky

So put it up in, put it up in the air
Put it up in, put love in the air.
So put it up in, put it up in the air
Put it up in, put love in the air.

"Fireflies" - Zendaya 

 

 

 I'm friends with the monster that's under my bed
Get along with the voices inside of my head
You're trying to save me, stop holding your breath
And you think I'm crazy, yeah, you think I'm crazy

Well, that's nothing

Well, that's nothing

 

"Monster" - Eminem ft. Rihanna

Okay so I am going now. Hope y'all like this little tour into my iPod. See ya! 

MusicalLover

OH MY GOD

OH MY GOD I JUST THE NOTE IN GORILLA BY BRUNO MARS I HAVE BEEN TRYING TO HIT THAT DAMN NOTE SINCE I HEARD THE DAMN SONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M AWESOME. :-) I'M SO HAPPY





MUSICALLOVER

This Mash-Up Though

Okay so today and tomorrow are days that I usually get music. By that I mean download music, I have this long ass list with songs on it and I try to get like 20 - 30 songs at a time. I usually end up getting more than that because of the recommendations on the side. Anyways I was getting Replay by Zendaya, yeah the song Kat was talking about. It's been on my list since it came out and I just now got to it. (That's how long my list is.) So anyways on the side it's this recommendation for a Replay and #thatPower mash-up and I click on it and oh my gosh it is sooooooooooooo good. I really like it. Okay wait a minute I am still listening to mash-ups of this song. they did it a version with Figure 8 by Ellie Goulding and it's good too. I am in like music heaven right now. So there it is below listen to it peoples.Oh and I also love the acoustic version, but I love the acoustic version of pretty much anything. Acoustic versions show the actual singing quality so yeah, and the slow the song down and make it just awesome.I need to go. I promised my little siblings they could watch My Little Pony and so I kind of have to hurry this up.

MusicalLover

So...

Okay so I was so ready to come home and go off on my classmates but now I just don't even feel like it. Long story short, there was a fight today (we don't fight at my school), the kids got crazy, the school wasn't prepared. everything was confusing, the class was loud and out student teacher called the teacher and now we have a test over something we haven't even learned. I am so annoyed but I am just going to study and get this shit over with. When they come in there acting a fool on Tuesday I am just going to be like, okay then.


That's really I have to say and oh yeah. Okay so everyone is hating on Miley Cyrus right now and I really don't think they should be taking it as far as it is going. I don't like what she did at the MTV Awards or twerking or whatever and the Wrecking Ball video was slightly inappropriate. She didn't need to be naked. My thing is she can actually sing and the lyrics for Wrecking Ball are good. I don't agree with was she does but that isn't my business. If I was famous and people were talking about me I would simple say all these haters out there with less money than me. Butches I'm rich I don't give a fuck and keep going. People would hate my ass but I am telling the truth. Miley is just growing up in her own special way, everyone makes mistakes and they learn from them and maybe Miley is so tired of being known as sweet Hannah Montana that she is lashing out, I don't know nor do I care. I like the song Wrecking Ball. Doesn't mean I like Miley necessarily.



My Playlist Right Now:
Back From The Dead - Skylar Grey
Don't Hold The Wall - Justin Timberlake
Pusher Love Girl - Justin Timberlake
If I Were A Boy - Beyonce
Invisible - Skylar Grey
People Like Us - Kelly Clarkson
Religion - Skylar Grey
Rescue - Yuna
Wrecking Ball - Miley Cyrus





Yeah, she’s got light in her face, she don’t need no rescuing, she’s okay
Yeah, she's got a life in her veins, she don't need no rescuing, she's okay 

No S.O.S. needed, no rescuing, she’s fine out there

"Rescue" - Yuna

I never thought that you and I would ever meet again,

I mourn the loss of you sometimes and pray for peace within,

The word "distraught" cannot describe how my heart has been,

But where do we begin now that you’re back from the dead?

Where do we begin now that you’re back from the dead?

Where do we begin now that you’re back from the dead?

I held the funeral the day you left,

A black umbrella and a sad song in my head,

Buried your pictures that I loved the most,

‘Cause if you survived me I just didn’t wanna know,

So you can’t just come back now like a demon uninvited,

No you can’t just expect me to open my door to you because,

I never thought that you and I would ever meet again,

I mourn the loss of you sometimes and pray for peace within,

The word "distraught" cannot describe how my heart has been,

But where do we begin now that you’re back from the dead?

Where do we begin now that you’re back from the dead?

Where do we begin now that you’re back from the dead?

I’m so confused I don’t know what to feel,

Should I throw my arms around you or kill you for real?

‘Cause I worked so hard to put the past to rest,

Now it’s tumbling down on me just like an avalanche,

So you can’t just come back now like a demon uninvited,

No you can’t just expect me to open my door to you because,

I know I know I can sit and talk but I can’t make you listen,

You wish that I paid attention, I thought if I paid admissions,

To wherever, go however, it would paint the perfect picture,

You said "no matter how much you fucking make it doesn’t make a difference",

And I’m so so so sorry that we fell in love, Geronimo, it’s Like One thing leads to another,

Swear we’re fucking we’re dominos but, here we are,

Now I’m trying to find an answer in this Bottle girl,

And I’m I'm driving slow, driving slow, don’t let the piranha’s know

But you gon’ miss me when I’m gone,

Why we gotta wait that long?

Baby do-do-do-do-don’t,

Or should I walk out instead,

Is this live and let die or night of the living dead?

I never thought that you and I would ever meet again,

I mourn the loss of you sometimes and pray for peace within,

The word "distraught" cannot describe how my heart has been,

But where do we begin now that you’re back from the dead?

Where do we begin now that you’re back from the dead?

Where do we begin now that you’re back from the dead?

"Back From The Dead" - Skylar Grey

Replay

I love Zendaya's song, Replay. It's superbly catchy. I have nothing to say about ML's post.

KatCentral

Make it stop
Sound so good I just can't take no moreTurn it down, turn it upI don't know, I don't know (know)But don't stop, don't moveJust keep it there (right there)Keep it right there, keep it right there
I wanna put you on repeat, play you everywhere I go, e-everywhere I go, play you everywhere I goPut you on repeat, play you everywhere I go, e-everywhere I go, play you everywhere I go
Yeah
Wanna put this song on replay,
I can listen to it all day,
I can listen to you all day,
Hear you all day
Yeah
Wanna put this song on replay,
We can start all over again and again, yeah
Wanna put this song on replay
Don't stop,
Turn it on, turn it up, make it louder
I don't wanna miss a single thing,
I wanna hear every melody, yeah.
B-b-b-b-beating, beating,
Beating so loud, you'd can feel it
B-b-b-b-beating, beating, beating
Beating for you
I wanna put you on repeat, play you everywhere I go, e-everywhere I go, play you everywhere I go
Put you on repeat, play you everywhere I go, e-everywhere I go, play you everywhere I go
Feel it all, Feel it all crashing down (down, down)
I'm so lost, I'm so lost in your sound
Yeah, wanna put this song on replay (put this song on replay) on replay
Lis-listen to you all day, to you all day!

Quick Question

Do y'all mind if I rant for second here? 

No, okay good. 

I told myself I was going to stop trashing people and try to be nicer. I was going to stop complaining because some people have it worse than me. But right now I need to rant and I need y'all to accept it. This is like a safe haven for me. I can say whatever I want and not have to worry about the consequences because no one knows about it. 

My father and stepmother are being extreme douche bags right now and I can't... I just can't deal with it. 

I have been stressing the fuck out this past weeks and its like they didn't even notice. Last night I actually fell asleep on the computer and didn't wake up until like after 11:00. My stepmother walked through there a couple of times. Want to know how I know because all the lights were turned out and the dryer had stopped. Why wouldn't you wake me up? I forgot to email my paper to myself and went and got in the bed. I didn't finish any of the rest of my homework, I got in the bed and fell asleep. Before 12:00 for a change. I had a good night. 

I feel like the stress made me sick. Cause yesterday I was freaking out and today I was more relaxed and I felt fine. Yeah my sinuses are messing up but that's because of the weather. I took a nap, which still kind of freaked me out because I usually don't do that but I was tired. And I didn't do any homework. I'm okay with that considering I only have one thing due and I was halfway done. I didn't write any of the 50,000 words. I don't think this novel thing was the right thing to do for me. I'm not very good at times writing or having a deadline on something like this. I could easily write everyday but I feel this deadline weighing down on me and I have lost all my creativity. But I will get this done. I have it all in my head I just need it to be typed out. I wish my brain would do that and I could just put in on a flash drive or something from my mind. That would be cool. 

Anyways I got off subject I was talking about my peoples. I had to stay after school until 7 the other day. So it's time to go and my father wasn't there so I used someone's phone to call the house and no one answered. And then I called his cell phone and no one answered and then I called my Granny. She came and got me, at 7 at night leaving my grandfather who had just gotten surgery. Traffic was backed up really bad cause of the Bass Pro Shop thing but whatever. Turns out my father was sleep. Yeah my ass would have been screwed.

And my father bought this giant fucking TV that no one needs. He didn't even buy it, he rented it which is probably gonna cost more than it is to buy it. No one even fucking watches it why do we need a TV that damn big for no fucking reason. It's a waste of money and space. We had a decent TV in there. It's not like having some 60 inch fucking TV was gonna make it better. 

It's not even him renting it that really pisses me off, it's that we have no food but instead of buying us food he rented a TV. If you have so much money why can't I get a bag of chips? Why are you using food stamps to buy stuff? How come I haven't gotten what I wanted for my birthday yet? 

My birthday wish was simple. I asked for gummy worms, gummy bears, and an Imagine Dragons t-shirt. I told him the shirt was optional because its like $30. But the gummy worms and the gummy bears are a $1 and I haven't seen anything for me. But my father can buy himself candy any and all the time and never share with me, just with my younger siblings. I'm not mad at them, they don't know. 

I'm so tired of being here. It's like my father doesn't even try. I asked him for help on my Pre-Cal homework and he told me to look in my book or online. Those are my first two options he is my last. He expects me to get good grades an succeed but he doesn't even want to help me. At least try to help me. The least he could do is try. 

Like right now I'm just put my little brother back in bed because he wants his mama but she can't come right now because she's too just behind a closed locked door. If you know what I mean. I don't care that they are having sex. I am upset because 1. My room is right next to there's and after I finished washing dishes I walked in my room and heard it. 2. Can you please wait until the small kids are asleep. You know the kids wander around at night an get out of bed. It's not going to kill you to wait. 

Kat is lucky she gets to leave for Thanksgiving. I have to wait until Christmas and I might not be going then. My mom has to find the money. She should make my father pay since he has so much money. He doesn't pay for shit. My mom pays for shoes, clothes, birthday and Christmas gifts, my electronic (she bought me two iPods. I cracked one and my father said he would pay to get it fixed and it never happened), transporting me from her home back down into hell. 

I really miss my Mama.

She annoys the hell out of me sometimes but she tries. 

My father doesn't try and I'm getting so tired of it. I let all this shit slide and he expects me to be some fucking little princess. 

I'm not. He doesn't even know me. He doesn't try to know me. 

Why am I such am invisible child? 

I'm just... I'm tired you know. 

Your selfish hands always expecting more

You have a hollowed out heart

But it's heavy in your chest

I try so hard to fight it but it's hopeless

Hopeless, you're hopeless

Oh, father, please, father

I'd love to leave you alone

But I can't let you go

Oh, father, please, father

For the love of a daughter

Oh, I can be manipulated

Only so many times,

Before even "I love you"

Starts to sound like a lie

Don't you remember I'm your baby girl?

How could you push me out of your world,

Lied to your flesh and your blood,

Don't you remember I'm your baby girl?

How could you throw me right out of your world?

So young when the pain had begun

Now forever afraid of being loved

For the love of a daughter

For the love of a daughter

"For the Love of a Daughter" - Demi Lovato

(Large chunks of this song are cut out because they don't apply to me. I just took some of the stuff I like the most. Demi really went off on her father in this one. It's good y'all should listen to it.) 

But I gave you all

I gave you all

I gave you all

And you rip it from my hands

And you swear it's all gone

And you rip out all I had

Just to say that you've won

"I Gave You All" - Mumford & Sons

MusicalLover

Sick

I can't feel my fucking face.
I hate wintertime. It makes me sick.
God I think I'm dying.
I am worst than men.
I hate being sick. I suck at being sick. All I want to do is stuff my body full of medicine and stay in bed all day. I don't like being cold so I blast heat until I am sweating a puddle into my bed.

I just got home like an hour ago because I had to stay after school until like 7 and then when my Grandmother came to get me traffic was backed up so bad she decided to just take me to her house to chill for a second. Y'all wanna know why traffic was backed up so bad?

They finally opened the new Bass Pro Shop down the street from my apartment building. No offense, but these damn rednecks had the freeway at a stand-still trying to get there. OH MY GOD it is not a two story fucking Wal-Mart or as my grandmother says Wally World. Chill the fuck out. It is not that serious.

i am about to stop capitalizing me stuff because it takes to much time to press the shift key. sorry for the unproperness but i am really tired. i should probably go to bed but i can't cause i need to take a shower because i have paint all over me and homework i need to finish. i just finished editing my english paper and i swear to go if i don't get at least a b on this i will be depressed. 

i have to go i am about to fall asleep and i just can't even. i have had this whole post in my head since earlier this morning and was pretty excited to post but i can't. i need to get this stuff done. wish my luck. see in on thanksgiving because that's the time i have.








mlover

Spanish F***ing Conjugations

So I have 50,000 words to write and I've only written 7,000 and these people are like "HOW DO YOU HAVE FREE TIME" and I have free time by cutting out my blogging time. So now I'm making blogging time by making it combine with my study time.

Mirar- mire miraste miro miramos mirasteis miraron
Comer- comi comiste comio comimos momisteis comieron
Subir- sube subiste subio subimos subisteis subieron

Irregular root changes-
Hacer      hic-        Poner      pus-      Tener      tuv-
Querer    quis-       Poder     pud-      Andar     anduv-
Venir       vin-        Saber      sup-      Estar       estuc-

Hacer- hice hiciste hizo hicimos hicisteis hicieron
Poner- puse pusiste puso pusimos pusisteis pusieron
Tener- tuve tuviste tuvo tuvimos tuvisteis tuvieron

Decir- dije dijiste dijo dijimos dijisteis dijieron
Ir, Ser- fui fuiste fue fuimos fuisteis fueron

I HAVE TO MEMORIZE THIS CRAP

KatCentral

Ahhhhh... No title

So I kind of think Ariana Grande's song have some type of drug or something that they make you want to listen to them on repeat. I swear to God the first time I heard Honeymoon Avenue I put it on repeat for like a day and now I have Better Left Unsaid on repeat. It's addicting.

Anyways this write a novel in one month thing is kicking my ass. I am so behind. I thought it would be fun, but then I realized that maybe you should have some free time so you have time to write. This month was not a good month for me. I am still going to try to make the deadline but I have volunteer stuff (which I am so not going to do next month), papers and essays to write, homework to do, and a poetry slam. I have no idea what my word count is at the moment because I do not type my stories. It bothers me. I have to type this one but I am doing it in sections. I write and then type the section up and then write some more. When I type my stories from being written on paper I change things and add some so I have to be careful with what I put but I got it.

About the poetry slam, well I had an opportunity to go to the next level and I took it. My poem may or may not suck. I actually don't know. I did a happy funny poem for the qualifier but that was because I have no control over my smile and if I can get up there and smile I don't have to worry about smiling through an inappropriate time. Don't ask me why but I can't stop smiling when talking about something sad, unless it is like personally sad. Yeah it's creepy.

Next, so Catching Fire is coming out soon. I am so ready for this movie. Well, actually, the previews are turning me off. I kinda don't like what they show but I know from experience that sometimes what is in the previews does not end up in the movie or could turn out to be something awesome (Breaking Dawn Pt. 2). So I am waiting patiently to see the movie. I would rather have a bad preview than a bad movie. Anyways on the note of The Hunger Games there is a parody of that out called The Starving Games. It's from the same people who made the parody of Twilight called Vampires Suck. Vampires Suck was actually a funny movie and it was cute and pointed out some serious flaws that Twilight had, but The Starving Games looks so bad it actually looks funny. There are points where you want to laugh but then sometimes they take it too far. They made fun of Rue's deaths and I just couldn't even. I was upset actually. The thing is no one made a parody movie of Harry Potter. (I look so smug right now).

Speaking of Harry Potter, during ABC Family's 25 days of Christmas they will premire Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Pt. 2. This is a really sad time. It's like a wakeup call, like hello yeah Harry Potter is over. All of the movies are on ABC Family. No more are coming out in the theatres that include Harry and the gang. Yeah, the one about the creatures but is that really Harry Potter. No it's the wizarding world. I want Harry. I hate when my series ends. It is sad. I think when Pretty Little Liars end I will go into some depression. I have been watching that show so long. Just, yeah it's going to be sad just like Twilight and Harry Potter. Oh lord.

Well, I am going to go. My teacher isn't here and I am going to spend the rest of this time writing. I just wanted to post because it has been a couple of days.

The Starving Games trailer, looks stupid already.







I told you once, "Get out my life.
I don't need ya, I'll be alright."
But some things are better left unsaid.

So tell the truth and hit me hard
A broken heart is all I have now
But some things are better left unsaid

And I swore that I would never say
I miss you more every day
But some things are better left unsaid,
Are better left unsaid, said, said...

Oh-ooh-whoa-ooh-oh-oh
I'm gonna say things like, "Shut up and kiss me!"
Oh-ooh-whoa-ooh-oh-oh
Tonight I'm gonna lose some things
Don't play me – just kiss me.

If you wanna party, put your hands up
Put your hands up put your hands up
Don't play me – just kiss me.
Oh-ooh-whoa-ooh-oh-oh
Tonight I'll say please, don't play me – just kiss me, babe

You tell a lie, blame tonight
Too many drinks, so many reasons that some things are better left unsaid

And I swore that I would never say
I miss you more every day
But some things are better left unsaid
Are better left unsaid, said, said...

Oh-ooh-whoa-ooh-oh-oh
I'm gonna say things like, "Shut up and kiss me!"
Oh-ooh-whoa-ooh-oh-oh
Tonight I'm gonna lose some things
Don't play me – just kiss me.

If you wanna party, put your hands up
Put your hands up put your hands up
Don't play me – just kiss me.
Oh-ooh-whoa-ooh-oh-oh
Tonight I'll say things, don't play me – just kiss me, babe

If you wanna party, put your hands up
Put your hands up put your hands up
Don't play me – just kiss me.
Oh-ooh-whoa-ooh-oh-oh
Tonight I'll say things, don't play – me just kiss me

If you wanna party, put your hands up
Put your hands up put your hands up
If you wanna party, put your hands up
Put your hands up put your hands up

You tell a lie, blame tonight
Too many drinks, so many reasons that some things are better left unsaid 
"Better Left Unsaid" - Ariana Grande




MLover

The love of my life

Poetry Slam was today. I was .1 points from being in 5th place. I'm kind of happy I didn't win because then I would have been pressured into doing another one and this one was already freaking me out. 

I had this one poem in my head about abusive relationships and child abuse, because I watched this Law & Order SVU  about this women who kept going back to her boyfriend even though he was beating her. The detectives couldn't really help her because her boyfriend was really famous and stuff. Anyways my mom was in an abusive relationship so I had this poem in my head. It's been developing itself and the other day I had it. I HAD IT!!!! But no, I had so much stuff to do I couldn't sit down and write it like I wanted to. Sad right? 

I hate when that happens. It's happened to me with story ideas, parts of a story that I want to write, poems, and some other stuff. You just keep going. 

I love writing and I will do anything for a life that keeps me writing and keeps me reading. I love seeing something I created come out on paper. It's just awesome. 

Anyways it's dinner time!!!

Longer one later (tomorrow maybe)?

Dance with my father again

Back when I was a child
Before life removed all the innocence
My father would lift me high
And dance with my mother and me then
Spin me around 'til I fell asleep
Then up the stairs he would carry me
And I knew for sure I was loved
If i could get another chance
Another walk
Another dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
How I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
When I and my mother would disagree
To get my way,
I would run from her to him
He'd make me laugh just to comfort me
Then finally make me do just what my mama said
Later that night when I was asleep
He left a dollar under my sheet
Never dreamed that he would be gone from me
If I could steal one final glance
One final step
One final dance with him
I'd play a song that would never, ever end
'Cause I'd love, love, love
To dance with my father again
Sometimes I'd listen outside her door
And I'd hear how my mother cried for him
I pray for her even more than me
I pray for her even more than me
I know I'm praying for much too much
But could you send back the only man she loved
I know you don't do it usually
But dear Lord she's dying
To dance with my father again
Every night I fall asleep and this is all I ever dream

KatCentral

Do you ever

• Do that thing in class where you've noticed you stopped paying attention so you try to focus but then you focus so hard on trying to focus that you're still not paying attention?
• Create a nickname for your crush that only you and your friends know?
• wake up and just go, "NOPE" and turn over and go back to sleep?
• wonder how many people notice you but you don't notice them because you are too busy noticing someone else that will never notice you?
• wonder what your life looks like through someone else's eyes?

KatCentral

Drop Out

I got this fucking 4.0 on my report card and I don't know what happened but the world kind of turned against me and I'm like really pissed right now. I'm stressing out over everything and I have so much stuff to do. I just really need a break but i know that wont come. I apologize for my earlier outburst. People were really starting to piss me off. 

I got home and had a shit load of homework to do. I needed to type my English essay (which is really stressing me out), finish my Pre-Cal homework (that I didn't understand so I was gonna have to use Google), write a damn short ghost story or fairy tale for theatre history, write the lyrics of a song for theatre history (copy and pasted I will print it tomorrow, not wasting time on that shit), write a poem about life or something for threaten history (took one I already wrote from Creative Writing), study for my World History test, and write another world history essay. Oh and I need to read Of Mice and Men again before Friday to prepare for my English test over that. 

Yeah I'm about to go crazy. This thing was I got home and I already two fucking text. On from my friend saying she wanted me to make a photo collage for her and from another because I told him I would share my sources for my English paper with him since we did the same topic. And I had to text this other dude the world history essay prompt. The thing was I did this and told them I had stuff to do but they kept texting me back and asking questions and asking for more and bothering the hell out of my so I turned my wi-fi off because I couldn't concentrate. 

I needed to get this stuff done. I don't have time to do it tomorrow and Thursday is kind of busy and I have two volunteer things this weekend. And plus its all due. 

I told myself that I was going to be able to handle all of this but right now I just want to curl up in my bed and bawl my eyes out. 

My brother actually had the nerve to rush me off the computer because he needed it to watch some dumbass YouTube videos. And my stepmother knew I had all of this stuff to do but she still made me clean the kitchen. My brother could have done it by himself. He isn't fucking helpless. Why do I get put in this role like I'm the fucking oldest? I'm not and I'm tired of it. He should know how to do all this stuff by himself. All he had to do was unload and load the dishwasher and wash about 6 small dishes. But no came and pulled me from my homework to help him. At first I didn't get up because I wanted to finish the problem first. When I walked into the kitchen he hasn't touched anything. He was watching another YouTube video on his phone. I could have killed him right then.

I'm really tired right now. This novel thing may not work because I don't have anytime. I would love to be able to sit down and write. And I mean actually write for me. Yeah I've written for creative writing but they have all been poems and I hate poems. The one short story I wrote, I didn't even like it. I didn't have enough time to really write it and edit it like I wanted and if it was up to me it would have been about 20 pages longer and no one wants to hear that. I don't want to read that out load. 

I just want some time. I missed Ravenswood today because I had to do my homework. I'm going to watch it online sooner or later. I don't know when that will happen but we shall see. 

The worst thing about it is my mom has been sending me this damn bible prayer shit and its really starting to annoy the shit out of me. I don't real them. I delete them right when I get them. I DON'T CARE! My mom wants me to be a Christian and I don't want to be one. I'm okay right now just trying to figure myself out. All of this Christian stuff is annoying me. Everyday when I get home there's one in my messages and either when I wake up or before I go to sleep. It's just like leave me the hell alone. I can't say that to her but I really want to. 

Anyways as usual Work by Iggy got me through today. But I had some others that kinda helped me out later on. 

Got shackles on, my words are tied

Fear can make you compromise

With the lights turned up, it's hard to hide

Sometimes I wanna disappear

When I feel kinda bad and don't want to stress

I just pass it off on ability

Well, you got what you want, and what you never knew

Perfect gift from me to you

"Houdini" - Foster The People 

Sometimes I really do just want to disappear. 

You stand in the line just to hit a new low

You're faking a smile with the coffee to go

You tell me your life's been way off line

You're falling to pieces every time

And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day

You're taking one down

You sing a sad song just to turn it around

You say you don't know

You tell me don't lie

You work at a smile and you go for a ride

You had a bad day

The camera don't lie

You're coming back down and you really don't mind

You had a bad day

You had a bad day

"Bad Day" - Daniel Powters

Does anyone else remember this song. Every time I have a bad day this song plays in my head. I just downloaded it onto my iPod about a week ago. It's just one of those songs that tells the truth. It's like Lazy Song. It's a #oneofthemdays song. 

So it's almost 12. I have to finish a little piece of homework tomorrow and waste $1.50 printing off three copies of my rough draft for my English teacher. He needs to hope I don't make him pay my ass back. My bed looks a mess so I gotta clean it off. And then I'm going to sleep. 

Hope I don't kill myself late in the night. 

I'm serious. 

MusicalLover.

So my mom

Has a boyfriend 20 years older than her. I have to meet him on Saturday. I can't even. Yeah, I'm just gonna go.

KatCentral

P.S. Monsters are real, ghosts are real too. They live inside us, and sometimes, they win.

STOP

STOP FUCKING TEXTING ME! 

Tuesday, November 5, 2013

Today is one of those days where you wanna just be done. You know?
I'm super tired and I havent even done anything. 20 days left.

KatCentral

4.0

So report cards came out today. I have a GPA of 4.0. My cumulative is 3.6 but yeah. 

Anyways I was really excited. I mean this is like the first time this has happened and it mattered. I don't have the best study habits and do a lot of stuff last minute. This quarter I'm hoping to do better but I'm still happy. 

I love the fast pace of my school but sometimes it's just to much. I wish they would slow down but it never does. We keep going and going. And now I'm trying to balance it with all these other activities. It's really helping me with my time management. I had my evening planned out in my head and I was following the schedule. 

Right now I'm supposed to be working on my rough draft for my English paper but I'm taking a break. I can do it tomorrow. I wouldn't say I was procrastinating but eh. 

I wrote two essays already and I did half of my Theatre History homework. It's easy. 

I need to study for my World History test but I will do that another time. I'm about to start writing so I can do my novel thing. I have an hour planned for it but if it goes over it goes over. The writers know how it gets. 

Anyways I'm gonna go and get this is. Goodbye lovelies. 

And just as a little side note the song that really gets me motivate is Work by Iggy Azalea. That song makes me wanna get down to it. Don't know why but yeah. 

Walk a mile in these Louboutins

But they don't wear these shits where I'm from

I'm not hating, I'm just telling you

I'm tryna let you know what the fuck I've been through

Two feet in the red dirt, school skirt

Sugar cane, back lanes

3 jobs, took years to save

But I got a ticket on that plane

People got a lot to say

But don't know shit bout where I was made

Or how many floors that I had to scrub

Just to make it past where I am from

No money, no family. 16 in the middle of Miami.

No money, no family. 16 in the middle of Miami.

No money, no family. 16 in the middle of Miami.

No money, no family. 16 in the middle of Miami.

I've been up all night, tryna get that rich

I've been work work work work working on my shit

Milked the whole game twice gotta get it how I live

I've been work work work work working on my shit

Now get this work

Now get this work

Now get this work

Now get this work

Working on my shit

You can hate it or love it

Hustle and the struggle is the only thing I'm trusting

Thoroughbred in a mud brick before the budget

White chick on that Pac shit

My passion was ironic

And my dreams were uncommon

Guess I gone crazy, first deal changed me

Robbed blind basically raped me

Rose through the bullshit like a matador

Just made me madder and adamant to go at em

And even the score

So, I went harder

Studied the Carters till a deal was offered

Slept cold on the floor recording

At 4 in the morning and now I'm passing the bar

Like a lawyer

Immigrant, art ignorant

Ya ill intent was insurance for my benefit

Hate to be inconsiderate, but the industry took my innocence

Too late, now I'm in this bitch!

You don't know the half

This shit get real

Valley girls giving

Blow jobs for Louboutins

What do you call that?

Head over heels

No money, no family. 16 in the middle of Miami.

No money, no family. 16 in the middle of Miami.

No money, no family. 16 in the middle of Miami.

No money, no family. 16 in the middle of Miami.

I've been up all night, tryna get that rich

I've been work work work work working on my shit

Milked the whole game twice gotta get it how I live

I've been work work work work working on my shit

Now get this work

Now get this work

Now get this work

Now get this work

Working on my shit

Pledge allegiance to the struggle

Ain't been easy

But cheers to Peezy for the weeks we lived out of duffel

Bags is all we had

Do anything for my Mum, I love you

One day I'll pay you back

For the sacrifice

That ya managed to muscle

16 you sent me through customs

So….

All aboard my spaceship to Mercury

Turn first at the light that's in front of me

Cause every night Ima do it like it's my last

This dream is all that I need

Cause it's all that I ever had

Now get this work

Now get this work

Now get this work

Now get this work

Working on my shit

  Now get this work

  Now get this work

  Now get this work

  Now get this work

  Working on my shit

MusicalLover