EVERYTHING SHOULD JUST STOP!!!!!!!

Not in the sense of....like....unspeakable things. Just that I want to go to sleep. Or watch TV until I fall asleep. I cant wait to go back to school. Because I'm so bored at home. Just everything. And someone who used to be my best friend might hate me and I know for a fact her mom does. For the stupidest reason ever. I don't even care. I got sick of her a while before this happened...

But if she comes to my high school...I'm just moving back to my hometown. Because the drama that follows her or that she creates? I'm not dealing with it. I don't need to feel guilty (even though I do) and I shouldn't feel sad & annoyed (even though I do) all the time every day and there's just stupidity everywhere I don't know how or why I think i can escape it.

JB keeps saying, "Oh Kat, you're so stingy!" When I don't give her money. Whatever. I've given her money before. Like, a lot of money when you add it up. I NEVER ask her for money. She has free lunch. I do not. Why am I supposed to pay for her lunch? No. And the other day I was helping her with HER painting in art. And she was yelling at me. GOD I'm so sick of her. I just need a break. Not spring break. A break from her in school.

Don't get me wrong...She is one of my closest friends. But sometimes I just want to sit at my locker during lunch and read and eat some chips by myself. I don't think I'm as intimidating by myself as when my friends are around. I don't think anyone is. Of course that means I'm less confident too, but I need to learn to be alone some of the time. I wont have a backup forever.

I just crossed the road from being sleepy to some weird insight stuff. o.O

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