Religion

Okay so I am going to talk about my religion because I am going on this church retreat with Kat and because Kat sent me a text saying I wasn't Christian or whatever.
I'm not mad at Kat because that is what I come off as but I guess I am Christian.
There are some things I agree with and some I don't and I have had bad experiences with Christians.
I believe and agree more with Christians on their beliefs thought so I do lean towards that more.
So I believe in God and Jesus.
I'm not an atheist.
I believe that Jesus died for the sins of people.
I believe that only God knows when the world is going to end.
I believe God created everything.
What I am confused about with that is why did he create certain things?
So yeah.
Um... I don't believe that gay marriage is a sin. Gods created all things so how come being gay is a bad thing?
I don't know if I necessarily believe some of the things in the Bible. It may because I'm one of those people that if I don't hear it them I might not believe it. And all that info in the Bible is not something I have heard. Yeah for all I know some of that could be made up. I'm not saying it is.
I do believe that people can have a special connection with God but its their choice.
So the people in the Bible who write all these books some of them could be huge liars. I'm not saying they are.
And plus some of the things in the Bible don't go along with what I believe.
Like people say that rap music is the devil music. Not necessarily. I mean really.
And then my Granny hates that I read Twilight and Harry Potter. She calls them "mess" and that witchcraft is something of the devil.
That really makes me mad, but it makes me love those books even more because they are controversial. Seriously it's a made up story about a wizard and a vampire. They aren't real. No said they were real.
Most of the books I read have supernatural or paranormal stuff in them. That is just what I'm in to.
I'm not gonna change who I am to fit into a religion. Why should I?
The banned book list is a list of books out together by a bunch of church people who believe that we shouldn't hear anything but what they approve of. They want us to all be the same. I don't want to be.
I'm not that girl who goes and sits I'm church and songs I'm the choir.
I'm that girl who sits I'm the back and knows the lyrics to everything hit hymns.
It's not my fault that is just who I am.
I pay attention when I do go to church and agree with what they are saying sometimes.
It's just those people who act like they are better than others just because of their religion and shxt piss me off. They are the most hypocritical ones and they are doing the most things wrong.
They try to shove their religion down your throat and that isn't okay. Especially when they don't even follow their own religion.
And the parents who want their child to be religious but they don't go to church or anything. What is your problem? Set an example for your kids.
My parents... Well not my mom but my dad and stepmom are like that. They want me and my brother to go to church but they don't go. I mean even when we use to live right across the street from our church they didn't go but they sent me and my brother over.
I resent them for that.
Monkey see monkey do.
I mean its all about what you believe.
I don't like when people try to push their religion on people and tell them what to believe.
People have tried to tell me what to believe and to push certain beliefs on me and that pisses me off.
And I have met a lot of hypocritical Christians.
They say one thing but do another. They say they follow God and he is leading their life but then they do stupid things. A pastor who cheats on his wife. People in the church that beat their wives. People in the church who ignore people who need help and won't forgive.
If someone does something wrong you are supposed to help not try to beat them down and NOT talk to them.
People make mistakes. Christians act like they are so perfect and they aren't.
God isn't perfect.
Jesus isn't perfect.
No one is so don't judge someone because of the mistakes they made.
If God gave Jesus up for our sins then how come people acts so damn righteous when they see people mess up. They start to act like they are better than them.
I don't give a shxt about who you are or what you are doing if you want to go to church go to church.
People inside the church may talk about you but you just ignore them.
People talked about Jesus until the day he died and after that.
Don't let some righteous mother loving church folk tell you what to believe or what you should do.
I don't want to live by a certain lifestyle.
I want to be and go out and make mistakes and have someone to lean back on and right now it isn't any one from my family.
All they are going to say is that God will help me or something with God in it and make me feel even worse.
People match their lives up with God's standards but some people can't do that and people want to judge them for it.
And when they go to church people don't want to talk to them but about them. What is that?
Christian are supposed to help people and support them.
I did a speech on gay marriage. I am for it because I think everyone should be who they want to be and it's wrong to debt people the right to marry just because of the person they are or who they loveS
So I told my stepmother about it and I barely got the words out before she snapped and said, "Do you even know what that is? It's a sin against God."
Why?
God is suppose to love everyone!
And her ass can't talk she had three kids out if wedlock and lived in sin with my father for like 2 years.
I'm not here to judge people.
I'm just saying there are some things people need to just back up on. The world is changing.
I don't know how to classify myself.
I will go to church it's just sometimes the message they are giving doesn't fit in this time. And the people don't know how to adapt to this time.
Move forwards not backwards.
That's all I got really.
I don't know what I am.
I don't really know what I believe in yet.
I am still finding myself.
My parents can't tell me what to believe.
I am learning and growing up and should have the chance to think of my own beliefs.

It took me forever to write this. Mainly because its Tuesday and both Pretty Little Liars and The Lying Game came on today.
They were awesome. But yeah.

So don't judge me and I won't judge you. I do appear to come off as not religious at all but I have my own beliefs. It's just that all the experiences and my beliefs don't match up with those of my family's religion so I have a harder time being religious.


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