Friend

Okay so I don't know.

You know that feeling you get when you know no matter how hard you try for something you are going to fail...
I have that feeling.

That friend I keep bringing up KS...
I should just be like our friendship is over but I don't know how to do that. That is the longest friend I have had. And I am not good at making friend very easily. Not real true friends that actually know me and most parts of me. (Nobody knows everything about me except God. I have to have some secrets to myself. Sorry.)
I'm that weird loud girl who smiles all the time and laughs and gets good grades and is always reading and is writing something down but you never know what.

Me, personally I'm okay with that.

I don't know. I feel neglected and thrown away like yesterday's trash.
I'm sad.
Five years of friendship and now she can't even text me hey.
I talked to her the other day and all we talked about were dogs. I don't really like animals... Well house animals.

It was like a flashing light saying
SHE DOENS'T KNOW YOU.

Ugh... I don't know. I'm tired of talking about things I don't care about. I don't want to here about your different crushes and all the boys that like you. I don't want to hear about people biting you or trying to feel you up and you liking it. Stop acting so grown when really your just a ninth grader. You don't know anything so shut up. I'm tired of drama.

I'm tired of the world.

Music is barely keeping me alive here.


I need help.


Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there's no one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

"Breathe Me" - Sia



It's time to wake up now
Running around this ghost town
Oh my heads tied up in knots
And fear stands beside me
As henchmen block my every glimps of hope
Oh I fear I've lost control

Good-bye cruel world
Good-bye cruel world
I hear the morning call

The sound of their voices slowly fades away with all the clouds
And I can hear the sound of birds
Their looks of frustration powerless to find the rising sun
Oh I open up my eyes
Yeah

Hello Sweet World
Hello Sweet World
Yea, Hello Sweet World
Hello Sweet World
The morning has arrived

The morning has arrived

Someones gotta fight for it
No ones here to give it up
Someones gotta fight for you

"Hello Sweet World" - Gangs of Ballet



Man, it's been a long day
Stuck thinking 'bout it driving on the freeway
Wondering if I really tried everything I could
Not knowing if I should try a little harder

Oh, but I'm scared to death
That there may not be another one like this
And I confess that I'm only holding on by a thin thin thread

I'm kicking the curb cause you never heard
The words that you needed so bad
And I'm kicking the dirt cause I never gave you
The things that you needed to have
I'm so sad, saaad

Man, it's been a long night
Just sitting here, trying not to look back
Still looking at the road we never drove on
And wondering if the one I chose was the right one
Oh, but I'm scared to death
That there may not be another one like this
And I confess that I'm only holding on by a thin thin thread

I'm kicking the curb cause you never heard
The words that you needed so bad
And I'm kicking the dirt cause I never gave you
The things that you needed to have
I'm so sad, saaad
I'm so sad, so sad

Oh, but I'm scared to death
That there may not be another one like this
And I confess that I'm only holding on by a thin thin thread

I'm kicking the curb cause you never heard
The words that you needed so bad
And I'm kicking the dirt cause I never gave you
The things that you needed to have
And I'm kicking the curb cause you never heard
The words that you needed so bad
I'm so sad, so sad

"Sad" - Maroon 5




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