Books

So I am going to my book recommendations and stuff.
First off I really want to let you all know how DIFFICULT it was for me to put together list. I mean oh my gosh this was so hard.
I have read so many books over the years. Some of which I don't remember the name and or the author.
And then I go to the library like every weekend. Or something.
The library is awesome and I love getting lost trying to find books.
When I get older I want to be a book editor. Really I want to be an author but a book editor is the next best thing because I always go back over my stories with a red pen in hand.
So yeah. So bare with me when I do this. There could be list of 100 on here but I'm going to try to do my Top 5 and Top 10.

So the list I am going to do are:
- Favorite Books Series (Top 5)
- Favorite Authors (Top 5)
- All Time Favorites (Top 5)
- Right Now Favorites (Top 10)
- Checked Out Now (30)
- Honorable Mentions

So like I just said I have read so many books and a lot of them I can't remember the author or name so just bare with me. I'm only going to put series where I know both. And that Favorite Author one... yeah I don't really have favorite authors. I just pulled five authors who I thought had a good writing style and I try to mimic some of them in my own stories. Same with the All Time Favorites one. I tried to choose books I read way back when that I remembered. So yeah.
Okay so I guess I will start.

- Favorite Book Series
1. Harry Potter by J. K. Rowling
2. Twilight by Stephanie Meyer
3. Beautiful Creatures by Kami Garcia & Margaret Stohl
4. Pretty Little Liars - Sara Shepard
5. The Hunger Games - Suzanne Collins

Okay so yeah that was pretty basic. I like mostly the stuff that others are into right there. I mean my reasons for liking it might be a whole lot different from than others though. It doesn't make me ordinary for enjoying books that others do.

- Favorite Authors
1. J. K. Rowling
2. Stephanie Meyer
3. Tahereh Mafi
4. Andrea Cremer
5. Andrew Clements

Yeah so that was kind of basic too. There may be a couple authors you might not know. I like the way these people write and how they explain things.
To Kat or anyone who dislikes Twilight: Just because that Stephanie Meyer wrote the Twilight Saga doesn't mean she isn't a good writer. Get you head out your anus and admit it. She really did bring a giant change to books. So whatever I'm not going there right now.

- All Time
1. Harry Potter & The Goblet Of Fire by J. K. Rowling
2. Shatter Me by Tahereh Mafi
3. Troublesome Boy by Paul Vasey
4. Loser by Jerry Spinelli
5. The Tale of Despereaux by Kate DiCamillo

Yeah so this was a little different. I read Troublesome boy about a month ago and I just loved it. It's not the type of books I usually read but I was blown away. And The Tales of Despereaux was one of my favorite childhood books.

- Right Now Favorites
1. Struck By Lightning by Chris Colfer
2. Happy Families by Tanita S. Davis
3. Everneanth by Brodi Ashton
4. The Lying Game by Sara Shepard
5. The Alchemy Of Forever by Avery Williams
6. Hush, Hush by Becca Fitzpatrick
7. I Am Number Four by Pittacus Lore
8. Remember Me by Christopher Pike
9. Beastly by Alex Flinn
10. Possession by Elana Johnson

Okay so yeah these are just some of the recent books that I have read and liked or loved. I really like books about the supernatural if you can't tell.



I am just going to post this because I probably won't finish it and this is old so I would have to do some of the categories over. I will come back to it. 

Just Because

so my parents went out to celebrate thier anniversary so I am here babysitting and I am bored so I am just going to post some pictures,,, just because. Anways...

ON TO IT








MusicalLover9816

F**k The Movies

So me and like Kat said out friend D went to the movies. We went to go see The Host and G. I. Joe Retaliation.

So I bought 2 tickets this morning.... Two tickets. One for The Host and one for G. I. Joe.

I didn't tell my stepmom about it because she would be all why are you going to see two movies. So she came looking for me.
So I got out the other movie and the manager or whatever pulled me to the side and held me in a room.

He asked for my ticket but I threw it away with this really good pretzel.
So anyways he is like you have to buy another ticket and made me buy another one but not D.

And I really wanted to buy the new OneRepublic cd. Like the hard copy and not just download them.

That man made me mad as hell. Fucking white ugly a** b*tch.




MusicalLover9816

Backfired Bet

I forgot to say, ML wanted me to see The Host with her and our friend D. I didn't want to cause Stephanie Meyer wrote it. I dunno I don't really like Twilight so I figured I wont like The Host. Ill see it on DVD if people say its good. But ML really wanted me to go see it with her and D. So I said lets make a deal. If she can get J to say he likes me Id go. That was last weekend. I thought she would forget about it or decide not to mess with J. and on Sunday she said she didn't feel like messing with J. I was like "YES" muahaha. Then on Monday she was at my locker and J's locker is right next to mine and she said "By Thursday J, I need you to do it by Thursday." And I was like "Wait, what's going on?" and it turns out at lunch she saw J and told him straight up about the bet and that he needs to tell me. I was kinda like "CRAP". Then I thought whatever he's not gonna do it anyway. And he didn't. I cant really blame him.

KatCentral

Wonky in the Head

So I'm taking this medicine to control my asthma cause its been really bad lately. And when I'm not on it I cant really breathe as well. Its like there isn't as much room in my lungs as normal or something. But that's not really the point. One of the side effects is that I feel really moody all the time. I didn't know about that side effect until my dad told me about it because he works at the hospital and he likes to check out all the medicine I take. So I've been like really sad and angry at different times. Plus, I cant concentrate on things. And I thought I was totally freaking and maybe I was depressed or something until my dad told me about the side effects. Like, my mom told me to do some chores and stuff and I started to cry. I was like, "Why am I crying?" but I couldn't stop and it was weird.
But the concentrating thing. I'm pretty mad about that(not a result of the medicine, like really mad). Final exams are coming up and I cant study or anything. I failed a Spanish quiz and I seriously have no idea what polyatomic ions are even though we've been talking about them in Physical Science for like a week. I want to stop talking the medicine cause its messing with me but if I do I wont be able to breathe as well. I have to go back to the doctor in like a month and a half so ill ask her then what's going on and what to do.
MusicLover, if you're reading this, I wasn't sad yesterday. I mean I was, but not actually sad. Or mad. Just jacked up on asthma medicine. My head was hurting and my emotions were wonky and just not good for conversation. Cause im pretty sure I would have blown up at you for no reason. But I just found out about the side effect thing last night so I didn't know what was going on.
And this bright screen is hurting my head so im gonna get off. Sorry I haven't posted in a while.

KatCentral

Native

So I downloaded OneRepublic's new album Native. I'm in love with it. It's really good.
I haven't gotten the acoustics versions of What You Wanted, If I Lose Myself, or Burning Bridges but I REALLY want them.

But anyways I love Counting Stars.

Lately I've been I've been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be

"Counting Stars" - OneRepublic


MusicalLover9816

Friend

Okay so I don't know.

You know that feeling you get when you know no matter how hard you try for something you are going to fail...
I have that feeling.

That friend I keep bringing up KS...
I should just be like our friendship is over but I don't know how to do that. That is the longest friend I have had. And I am not good at making friend very easily. Not real true friends that actually know me and most parts of me. (Nobody knows everything about me except God. I have to have some secrets to myself. Sorry.)
I'm that weird loud girl who smiles all the time and laughs and gets good grades and is always reading and is writing something down but you never know what.

Me, personally I'm okay with that.

I don't know. I feel neglected and thrown away like yesterday's trash.
I'm sad.
Five years of friendship and now she can't even text me hey.
I talked to her the other day and all we talked about were dogs. I don't really like animals... Well house animals.

It was like a flashing light saying
SHE DOENS'T KNOW YOU.

Ugh... I don't know. I'm tired of talking about things I don't care about. I don't want to here about your different crushes and all the boys that like you. I don't want to hear about people biting you or trying to feel you up and you liking it. Stop acting so grown when really your just a ninth grader. You don't know anything so shut up. I'm tired of drama.

I'm tired of the world.

Music is barely keeping me alive here.


I need help.


Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
Hurt myself again today
And the worst part is there's no one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
I've lost myself again and I feel unsafe

"Breathe Me" - Sia



It's time to wake up now
Running around this ghost town
Oh my heads tied up in knots
And fear stands beside me
As henchmen block my every glimps of hope
Oh I fear I've lost control

Good-bye cruel world
Good-bye cruel world
I hear the morning call

The sound of their voices slowly fades away with all the clouds
And I can hear the sound of birds
Their looks of frustration powerless to find the rising sun
Oh I open up my eyes
Yeah

Hello Sweet World
Hello Sweet World
Yea, Hello Sweet World
Hello Sweet World
The morning has arrived

The morning has arrived

Someones gotta fight for it
No ones here to give it up
Someones gotta fight for you

"Hello Sweet World" - Gangs of Ballet



Man, it's been a long day
Stuck thinking 'bout it driving on the freeway
Wondering if I really tried everything I could
Not knowing if I should try a little harder

Oh, but I'm scared to death
That there may not be another one like this
And I confess that I'm only holding on by a thin thin thread

I'm kicking the curb cause you never heard
The words that you needed so bad
And I'm kicking the dirt cause I never gave you
The things that you needed to have
I'm so sad, saaad

Man, it's been a long night
Just sitting here, trying not to look back
Still looking at the road we never drove on
And wondering if the one I chose was the right one
Oh, but I'm scared to death
That there may not be another one like this
And I confess that I'm only holding on by a thin thin thread

I'm kicking the curb cause you never heard
The words that you needed so bad
And I'm kicking the dirt cause I never gave you
The things that you needed to have
I'm so sad, saaad
I'm so sad, so sad

Oh, but I'm scared to death
That there may not be another one like this
And I confess that I'm only holding on by a thin thin thread

I'm kicking the curb cause you never heard
The words that you needed so bad
And I'm kicking the dirt cause I never gave you
The things that you needed to have
And I'm kicking the curb cause you never heard
The words that you needed so bad
I'm so sad, so sad

"Sad" - Maroon 5




MusicalLover9816

Tired

So first day back after Spring Break and I'm tired.

Don't have energy to type.

Song of the week is currently: Battle Scars - Lupe Fiasco ft. Guy Sebastian

Lyrics are below:

Hope the wound heals but it never does
That's cause you're at war with love
You're at war with love, yeah

These battle scars don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle...

Never let a wound ruin me
But I feel like ruin's wooing me
Arrow holes, they never close from Cupid on a shooting spree
Feeling stupid cause I know it ain't no you and me
But when you're trying to beat the odds up
Been trying to keep your nods up
And you know that you should know
And let her go
But the fear of the unknown
Holding another lover strong
Sends you back into the zone
With no Tom Hanks to bring you home
A lover not a fighter
On the front line with a poem
Trying to write yourself a rifle
Maybe sharpen up a stone
To fight the tanks and drones of you being alone

I wish I never looked, I wish I never touched
I wish that I could stop loving you so much
Cause I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together
When all of the signs say that I should forget her
I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had
I wish that the good outweighed the bad
Cause it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle...

(Then just leave)
You shouldn't have but you said it
(And I hope you never come back)
It shouldn't have happened but you let it
Now you're down on the ground screaming medic
The only thing that comes is the post-traumatic stresses
Shields, body armors and vests don't properly work
That's why you're in a locker full of hurt
The enemy within and all the fires from your friends
The best medicine is to probably just let it win

I wish I couldn't feel, I wish I couldn't love
I wish that I could stop cause it hurts so much
And I'm the only one that's trying to keep us together
When all of the signs say that I should forget her
I wish you weren't the best, the best I ever had
I wish that the good outweighed the bad
Cause it'll never be over, until you tell me it's over

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle...

Cause you've set me on fire
I've never felt so alive, yeah

Hoping wounds heal, but it never does
That's because you're at war with love

And I'm at the point of breaking
And it's impossible to shake it

See, you hoped the wound heals, but it never does
That's cause you're at war with love
Hope it heals, but it never does
That's cause you're at war with love!

These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle scars, don't look like they're fading
Don't look like they're ever going away
They ain't never gonna change
These battle...






Catch y'all later!



MusicalLover9816

Separating

So y'all remember that friend I told y'all about that wasn't my friend anymore.

So yeah lemme explain.
Imma call this girl KS.
She is like my sister and stuff and we hang out a lot and we have been friends for like five years. And a lot of stuff. We are really close and just yeah.

So like let's say a month ago she did something real stupid which resulted in me doing something alone with Kat.
So then her mother told me I couldn't talk to her and blah blah blah.
Anyways she posted some shxt on Facebook about what happened and was talking bout me and Kat. Her sister threatened our other friend for no reason. She was just acting stupid and wasn't really looking at everything.
So anyways she sent me a text one day saying how I hurt her and some stuff.
Anyways we became friends again.
But you know how you have a fight and instead of learning something new and moving you it's like you seem to grow apart.
Well that's what happened.
We were growing apart before this and when her mom told me I couldn't talk to her I was just like okay so this is just a clean cut. I mean I knew we were growing apart and I didn't really mind.
She brings drama with her and is probably a bit of a bad influence on me. But I still love her so it did hurt but I was going to accept it.
So when she sent me the text I wasn't going to reply at first but then I did.
So now we were talking earlier and it just was boring and awkward.
I don't want to hang out with her all the time like it used to be.
I don't know. I mean she really was one of my best friends. I don't want to end the friendship but after what just happened I don't really know.
I mean the conversation we had was so awkward. And she has stopped telling me stuff and I have done the same.
And this dude she likes but I can't stand because of a couple of reasons...
I mean this dude has talked about her behind her back. He has lied to her. He has broken her heart repeatedly. He has promised her things and them gone back on them. He barely talks to her or sees her.
He is just not a good person but she keeps defending him and going back to him.
She has actually started replacing me with him and its just...
It makes me want to laugh.
I'm trying to be mean here but when he breaks her heart again I don't want to be there bringing her from the dumps again.
I have TRIED so hard to stop her from falling for him and whatever but I can't do it anymore.

I'm tired of the drama she brings. She doesn't like some of my friends that actually used to be her friends. She once tried to break up me and Kat's friendship over some false information she got. I just don't know. I'm tired of it but I do really like her as a friend.




MusicalLover9816

The Host

Dear People Who Make The Host Commercials,

I swear to gosh if I see one more commercial I'm going to cry.
I mean I love the song Radioactive by Imagine Dragons. THAT'S MY SHXT!
Anyways so in the commercial they okay it. And in some of them they split it up and stuff. I really like those.
I already want to go see the movie but hearing my song in the background makes me want to go see it like 1000000000000000 x more.
Seriously.
I didn't care about it being by Stephanie Meyer but I swear to gosh hearing Radioactive every time makes it harder for me not to go see it.
Seriously.
I really want to see this movie. Seeing the damn commercial for it every time a commercial comes out TV is super annoying. Yes I love the song and really want to seethe movie but every time I see the commercial I have to go and listen to Radioactive after.
Seriously.

So that's all I got for this.
I hope to see The Host.

And Kat CHALLENGE ACCEPTED BEYOTCH!
Mwahahahahahahahahahahaha!



MusicalLover9816

Pretty Little Liars

Dear PLL Producers,

WTF WAS THAT!
And then I have to wait to June 11.
Bitches.

So this entire f**king thing is going to be about the show so if you haven't seen it and want to then get the f**ck off for right now.

1. WTF Ezria broke up. That's my favorite couple. Really Aria really. And then he was the substitute teacher at school and all I thought was OMG ITS LIKE THE FIRST ONE. Seeing Aria cry had my eyes burning and then Ezra started crying and I was like NOOOOOOOOOO!

2. So Toby was alive... Really Toby was alive. I mean I freaked when I thought he was dead but OMG y'all should have seen me when I found out he was alive. And OMG then he and Spencer did "it" and my little sisters were in the room. Man I had to turn my tv off.

3. Jenna's back. And she's working with Melissa and Shawna. And Jenna being gay. I mean I support gay people but I was like WOAH! :-O. It was a surprise. And why is Melissa working with them? And what for. And OMG are they part of the A Team or a separate group out to get the Liars.

4. Spencer on the A - Team. So is she a double agent or did she just lie to her friends? I hope she is just a double agent so I don't have to hate her.

5. So Red - Coat is Alison. Yeah my face at that part was ridiculously crazy. I was like WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT THEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!

6. Is Mona a Liar now???? Is she part of the Emily, Hanna, Spencer, Aria team? She got a text with them and she was there. And just everything.

7. Wilden's car in town. From out of the lake Hanna and Aria pushed it in. Like woah. And then Jenna and Shawna finding him and taking him somewhere. What was that? How the freak are they involved.

8. And then whatever they saw in the trunk. HOW COME WE COULDN'T SEE IT????? What was it!? Why did they gasp? Was it a body? Ughrhayisricbwtidb. What the crap was that.

9. The hand coming out of the ground at the end. And then the other hand grabbing it. Um... What was that? Was it a flashback or like present? Was it Alison? Who grabbed it?

10. The sneak peak of Twisted at the end. The show looks good and Avia Jogia's hair looks longer. I am going to watch that show. Wait... So when is The Lying Game going to come on????? Just thought about that. That's my show too.


So I have many questions that aren't answered. I mean that entire episode brought up a whole new round of questions. Swear to gosh I don't know if I can wait until June 11th. I'm going to dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.







MusicalLover9816

EVERYTHING SHOULD JUST STOP!!!!!!!

Not in the sense of....like....unspeakable things. Just that I want to go to sleep. Or watch TV until I fall asleep. I cant wait to go back to school. Because I'm so bored at home. Just everything. And someone who used to be my best friend might hate me and I know for a fact her mom does. For the stupidest reason ever. I don't even care. I got sick of her a while before this happened...

But if she comes to my high school...I'm just moving back to my hometown. Because the drama that follows her or that she creates? I'm not dealing with it. I don't need to feel guilty (even though I do) and I shouldn't feel sad & annoyed (even though I do) all the time every day and there's just stupidity everywhere I don't know how or why I think i can escape it.

JB keeps saying, "Oh Kat, you're so stingy!" When I don't give her money. Whatever. I've given her money before. Like, a lot of money when you add it up. I NEVER ask her for money. She has free lunch. I do not. Why am I supposed to pay for her lunch? No. And the other day I was helping her with HER painting in art. And she was yelling at me. GOD I'm so sick of her. I just need a break. Not spring break. A break from her in school.

Don't get me wrong...She is one of my closest friends. But sometimes I just want to sit at my locker during lunch and read and eat some chips by myself. I don't think I'm as intimidating by myself as when my friends are around. I don't think anyone is. Of course that means I'm less confident too, but I need to learn to be alone some of the time. I wont have a backup forever.

I just crossed the road from being sleepy to some weird insight stuff. o.O

KatCentral

Spring Break

OMFG IT'S FINALLY FRIDAY!
It took forever for this day to come and now I have a week off. Thank you Jesus.

So Spring Break is next week for me.
So happy cause school has been pissing me off. I'm tired as hellllllllllllluh.
So on Saturday I'm going to Branson with the fam.
My grandparents, older brother, and two of my cousins.
We are all about the same age. My brother and one of my cousins is the same age and then me and then I think my cousins is 12. I don't know. She gets annoying after a while though.
That's what earphones are for.
Yeah so I'll be there for a couple of days.
Then I don't know what I'm going to do but I'm going to hang out with my friends and Kat. And just chill.
No homework... Well I gotta memorize this thing for my Drama class but yeah I'll get to it.
Procrastinator remember????


Okay so that's all for now cause I'm tired and just want to sit in the gym and listen to music.

Oh... Lets give it up for Unravel Me!!!! Awesome Book! Love it! Even though I haven't started it yet. Hahahah I will tho.

And P.S. Kat yeah you shouldn't call your friends dorks.
Just for that I might not send u a pictures of me in a skirt that I'm wearing when I go to Branson! :-P

Take that beeeeeeeyotch....
Haha an text me later needa talk to you.

Mwah!
MusicalLover9816

When you're upset....

So today, I thought it was Friday. I was really happy for it to be Friday. So spring break would be here. But its Thursday. I was very disappointed. And I'm wearing a skirt for the first time in about 5 years today. It was kind of an interesting experience. My dork friends made fun of my and I'm like WTF its not that serious. I'm just tired. Just really tired right now. I'm not even having a crap day its just like...I'm just tired. So on Ifunny there was this picture and it just...I don't know. Thanks.

KatCentral

Math Anyone?????

I hate math.
Currently I have a C in math.
It used to be lower.
I'm really good at guessing.
A. Something simple
B. Something confusing
C. Something hard
D. Something long

Well D seems like a good choice.

Yeah so anyways.
I'm in Algebra 2. Two years ahead of what my grade level math is.
Next year I will be in Pre - Cal.
Cal as in Calculus.
*SCREAM*
I'm gonna fail.

If you miss one day you miss this huge church of something that you will need later on.
I've missed two days on math this school year. Maybe three. I can't remember

I missed a day the other day because Kat got me sick... (Yeah I said it again Kat.) and the divided polynomials.
WTF is a polynomial you ask.
Yeah well don't ask me.
And defiantly don't ask me how to divide one.
Nobody in my class takes descent notes so I am happy that I have friends who have the same teacher as me and take the same subject.
I copied their notes.
And got confused as a duck.
And ducks are pretty smart animals.

I remember once I was in the park feeding ducks with my family. I had a piece of bread in my hand and I let my hand drop to the side and this duck came and practically ripped my arm off grappling the entire piece of bread. To this day I have never fed ducks.

Anyways, so I'm at home doing my homework which means I'm putting the question into the Google search bar and my big brother comes in.
He is taking Pre - Cal and my stepmother sent him in there to help me.
(I used homework to get out of doing the dishes... At that time.... I still had to do them later :-/...)
So he is looking at my assignment and goes what is this.
He actually said... "What is this?"
I threw my hands up and continued "doing" my homework.
It just goes to show that math is completely stupid. Someone please tell me when I need to know how to divide a polynomial in real life. In the outside world. Seriously now.

Google... You better be right.

And I'm doing my book list just so you know. Some things have changed and its taking me longer.


MusicalLover9816

I'm posting this because a Jamaican tree sings it. Therefore it is awesome. VEGGIE TALES!!!!!!!!!!!

You know that in love we can forgive
It is the only way to
live
Obey God and see that we can live in harmony!
Since God has forgiven
us, it's true
You forgive, I'll forgive you
I'm gonna start to show
forgiveness from my heart!

You know that in love we can forgive
Hey
man! It is the only way to live
Obey God and see that we can live in
harmony!

Since God has forgiven us, it's true
You forgive, I'll
forgive you
I'm gonna start to show forgiveness from my heart!
So do your
part, and show forgiveness from your heart!
I love how Bob the Tomato hates the ending song.
Larry: Bamboo Bamboo Bamboo!!!!!

KatCentral

Heavy Stuff

So Kat and I have been dealing with some heavy shxt this past week and I just want to forget that even though today after school I'm just going to put some more on her. But it will be quickly forgotten.

So Pretty Little Liars and the season finale for The Lying Game came on yesterday.
Yeah I love those shows.

So first I am going to talk about Pretty Little Liars then The Lying Game.

SPOILER ALERT

Pretty Little Liars: So Spencer is officially dark. We don't find out until the end but that is the most important. And A set up Caleb's dad so that it made him look guilty. And this was after she told him. And they found Toby's body. And Spencer kidnapped Malcolm. We don't know that was her until the end. So yeah she freaked Aria out and stuff but Aria found her. And then Aria went and BROKE UP with Ezra. So yeah. I was pissed because Ezra and Aria are my favorite couple. And I'm posse because Spencer turned dark. She betrayed my Liars. And next week is the season finale for that so yeah.

The Lying Game: So everyone knows that Theresa is dead. Well Emma went to Ethan saying he choose her but he blew her off to help his brother. His brother told him to either help him or the twins because Alec told him about the twins. So then Rebecca talked to Emma about some stuff. Um... Ted wants to tell Kristen about the twins. Rebecca is found guilty in Theresa's death and leaves town. Then Emma and Sutton switch back for the last time. Rebecca comes back because she knows who the killer is and so does Alec. She pushed Alec through a glass window on a roof just seconds before Ted can Tell Kristen about the twins. And yeah Thayer is the killer. LIKE WTF MAN! I knew Thayer was the killer though. He seemed off. I never liked him.

SPOILER ALERT OVER

Yep.
So I have been sick because of Kat. (Yes I will remind you of this constantly Kat.) and stayed home from school.
I missed one class period of Algebra 2 and went back today and was completely off. I'm happy he gave us an off day but does anyone know how to divide polynomials.
No?
Well dxmn...
I swear I will never use this shxt in really life. CURSE YOU MATH!

Next up is Spring Break. Ours is next week. Me and Kat are gonna have a Harry Potter Day. Yep just gonna sit and watch Harry Potter. HE ROCKS!
Other stuff will happen during the week but yeah you know.

So I think that is it for right now. I don't have anything.
I promise to put my book list up in the next week. Sorry I've been distracted as hell and stuff. Might even do some oft favorite tv shows and movies for the wait.
Y'all know I'm a procrastinator.


MusicalLover9816

CRAP SITUATION

I don't even know...One minute I was just asking if my friend had a sleeping bag I could borrow, the next, I'm thrown into some crazy IDontKnowWhat. Man. I just wanted a sleeping bag. I cant even describe the events of Wednesday night but I can say that I was flipping thru stuff on what can kill you and there is a blog entirely about Suicide. And how to do it. That's enough to make someone toss their tacos. What is wrong with you guys? There's some amazing stuff in life and you are going to give up now? Nuh uh.
Lemme bring something up ML said a little while ago. No one will care when you're gone. Well, they will, but they WILL also move on. You will be another face in the obituaries. Get out there and MAKE something of yourself. All those people who screwed you over? Make them say, "Damn" Because you are so awesome. Make them regret what ever they did to you. Every day of their ever loving life. They might for a while if you do the unspeakable, but people get over things. When you are alive and thriving and doing crap that makes them wanna cry cause their life isn't half as good as yours, is when you can laugh at the world.
But of course you cant really say that to your best friend who is shaking from overdose albuterol intake.  Gosh, I cant even. But I'm praying for her even though she's mad at me for getting involved WTF ever. <--- this isint about ML by the way don't worry.
I'm so happy I went on this Freedom thing. It opened my eyes to God. I'm not going to become a full blown out "PRAISE GOD HALLELUJAH" every second of the day type Christian. But ill cut back on cussing and try to eliminate that for good. Plus I wanna just accept the Lord and go to Heaven. But more on that later. But on the freedom things we did a mountain trail and I was seriously out of shape I totally can still feel my legs aching from it.
Ouchie


KatCentral

Freedom

So I am stuck at home because Kat got me sick during the church retreat.
So yeah that wasn't as bad as I thought it would be.
Um... a lot of stuff happened that week and I don't know exactly how to explain it or if I want to put it out there.
Just know I am now not friends with someone who was very close to me.
Now she is just somebody I used to know.
So yeah this church thing... You know when people pray over you, well me and Kat got prayed over and it felt like that burden of my friend was lifted off my shoulders. And it was really fun just being there and stuff. So yeah.
So I am now back at home and I got back yesterday evening to find out that friend who I am not friends with... Well she has completely dropped me like I didn't even matter. I'm okay with it because now I know how she must have really felt and I am happy that I still have Kat in my life.
I'm okay with it. So now I'm reading a book and trying not to have an asthma attack.
Thanks Kat for the sickness. Thanks.



"But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know."

"Somebody I Used To Know"
- Gotye



MusicalLover9816

Church Thing

Two day sleepover won't be posting. With Kat right now mwah!
Love y'all

Sorry

I'm so sorry.

Calvin & Hobbes

As you can see, I have memorized this utterly useless piece 

of information long enough to pass a test question. I now 

intend to forget it forever. You’ve taught me nothing except

how to cynically manipulate the system. Congratulations

-Calvin

KatCentral

Religion Dos

See, my religion is just as complicated as my main man MusicLover's. (We aren't men, don't go getting that idea :- / ) But seriously, i am Christian I just cant say I agree with the Bible on everything. I'm sure when I go to Heaven and I see God he'll explain everything to me and stuff but while I'm on this slowly dying planet lets get a few things straight.
I do curse. As you can see. But there are certain cases where I call people Biscuits instead of Bit*hes and say Gosh Donut instead of God Damnit. I like replacing curse words with pastries. Go figure.
God is not perfect. MusicLover blew my mind this morning making me realize this. I didn't even realize I thought God was perfect until she brought it up. The Bible says he is a jealous God. But its a sin to be jealous. That's being a hypocrite. God is the biggest hypocrite. But I still do believe in him and love him and I know he loves me too.
This Church Retreat thing. I really like these. We sing and such in youth group at night and I like being able to throw my hands up and accept God in a room full of teenagers who are doing the same. It feels amazing to be in God's grace like that and when I throw my hands up and feel like someone loves me and this is awesome and ML if you are reading this you don't have to do that but I sure will cause I cant do that in real church. Only at these youth group things.
However, I asked ML to come with me on this retreat because outside of the Chapel the people in my church are very religious and they take what God says straight to their hearts without even thinking a minute. If I spoke out loud against Gay Marriage and other things I don't believe in I will be shot down so fast you couldn't even say Titanium (see Titanium, By David Guetta). Because I don't take things for granted. I have slept over at these peoples houses. They are 2 stories high with chips, cookies, cake, and cinnamon rolls stacked in the cupboards with those fancy assortment of vegetables and such in the fridge. I am currently hoping I have some popcorn at home. These people have not have had to struggle a day in their life. Except maybe with grades and boys and I do that plus the trauma of my mother not going to the doctor to get me a prescription for my inhaler even though mine is almost out of medicine. If she doesn't my dad is going to find out and they will yell again...but that's a whole 'nother thing.
I'm not trying to be a bit*h maybe these people have some hidden drama but with the time Ive seen them spend on makeup in the mornings I highly doubt it. Anyhoo, I just don't want to be alone. I want to praise God AND not feel alone in my beliefs. Only way that could happen is to blackmail ML to go with me.
Because at the last retreat, the day before it started I had found out my cousins friend, Ky, had just died. I cried for him. He died 8 years old and in the hospital. He had been sick his entire life. So when we praised God and I sat down and cried for him and one of the youth counselors, L, my favorite, rubbed my back. I cried for one song and a good portion of the next one. And no one, not one of those so-called Believers, even glanced at me after I cried. They tried to fit me in when I first came to Church but we all know that I don't. So they talk to me but I am so quiet because the crap they talk about is ridiculous. YouTube videos and shxt. I barely go on YouTube. I do read R.L. Stine sometimes and wouldn't you know it that's looked down upon too.

Thanks for coming ML. You have no idea how much I'm looking forward to this.

KatCentral

Religion

Okay so I am going to talk about my religion because I am going on this church retreat with Kat and because Kat sent me a text saying I wasn't Christian or whatever.
I'm not mad at Kat because that is what I come off as but I guess I am Christian.
There are some things I agree with and some I don't and I have had bad experiences with Christians.
I believe and agree more with Christians on their beliefs thought so I do lean towards that more.
So I believe in God and Jesus.
I'm not an atheist.
I believe that Jesus died for the sins of people.
I believe that only God knows when the world is going to end.
I believe God created everything.
What I am confused about with that is why did he create certain things?
So yeah.
Um... I don't believe that gay marriage is a sin. Gods created all things so how come being gay is a bad thing?
I don't know if I necessarily believe some of the things in the Bible. It may because I'm one of those people that if I don't hear it them I might not believe it. And all that info in the Bible is not something I have heard. Yeah for all I know some of that could be made up. I'm not saying it is.
I do believe that people can have a special connection with God but its their choice.
So the people in the Bible who write all these books some of them could be huge liars. I'm not saying they are.
And plus some of the things in the Bible don't go along with what I believe.
Like people say that rap music is the devil music. Not necessarily. I mean really.
And then my Granny hates that I read Twilight and Harry Potter. She calls them "mess" and that witchcraft is something of the devil.
That really makes me mad, but it makes me love those books even more because they are controversial. Seriously it's a made up story about a wizard and a vampire. They aren't real. No said they were real.
Most of the books I read have supernatural or paranormal stuff in them. That is just what I'm in to.
I'm not gonna change who I am to fit into a religion. Why should I?
The banned book list is a list of books out together by a bunch of church people who believe that we shouldn't hear anything but what they approve of. They want us to all be the same. I don't want to be.
I'm not that girl who goes and sits I'm church and songs I'm the choir.
I'm that girl who sits I'm the back and knows the lyrics to everything hit hymns.
It's not my fault that is just who I am.
I pay attention when I do go to church and agree with what they are saying sometimes.
It's just those people who act like they are better than others just because of their religion and shxt piss me off. They are the most hypocritical ones and they are doing the most things wrong.
They try to shove their religion down your throat and that isn't okay. Especially when they don't even follow their own religion.
And the parents who want their child to be religious but they don't go to church or anything. What is your problem? Set an example for your kids.
My parents... Well not my mom but my dad and stepmom are like that. They want me and my brother to go to church but they don't go. I mean even when we use to live right across the street from our church they didn't go but they sent me and my brother over.
I resent them for that.
Monkey see monkey do.
I mean its all about what you believe.
I don't like when people try to push their religion on people and tell them what to believe.
People have tried to tell me what to believe and to push certain beliefs on me and that pisses me off.
And I have met a lot of hypocritical Christians.
They say one thing but do another. They say they follow God and he is leading their life but then they do stupid things. A pastor who cheats on his wife. People in the church that beat their wives. People in the church who ignore people who need help and won't forgive.
If someone does something wrong you are supposed to help not try to beat them down and NOT talk to them.
People make mistakes. Christians act like they are so perfect and they aren't.
God isn't perfect.
Jesus isn't perfect.
No one is so don't judge someone because of the mistakes they made.
If God gave Jesus up for our sins then how come people acts so damn righteous when they see people mess up. They start to act like they are better than them.
I don't give a shxt about who you are or what you are doing if you want to go to church go to church.
People inside the church may talk about you but you just ignore them.
People talked about Jesus until the day he died and after that.
Don't let some righteous mother loving church folk tell you what to believe or what you should do.
I don't want to live by a certain lifestyle.
I want to be and go out and make mistakes and have someone to lean back on and right now it isn't any one from my family.
All they are going to say is that God will help me or something with God in it and make me feel even worse.
People match their lives up with God's standards but some people can't do that and people want to judge them for it.
And when they go to church people don't want to talk to them but about them. What is that?
Christian are supposed to help people and support them.
I did a speech on gay marriage. I am for it because I think everyone should be who they want to be and it's wrong to debt people the right to marry just because of the person they are or who they loveS
So I told my stepmother about it and I barely got the words out before she snapped and said, "Do you even know what that is? It's a sin against God."
Why?
God is suppose to love everyone!
And her ass can't talk she had three kids out if wedlock and lived in sin with my father for like 2 years.
I'm not here to judge people.
I'm just saying there are some things people need to just back up on. The world is changing.
I don't know how to classify myself.
I will go to church it's just sometimes the message they are giving doesn't fit in this time. And the people don't know how to adapt to this time.
Move forwards not backwards.
That's all I got really.
I don't know what I am.
I don't really know what I believe in yet.
I am still finding myself.
My parents can't tell me what to believe.
I am learning and growing up and should have the chance to think of my own beliefs.

It took me forever to write this. Mainly because its Tuesday and both Pretty Little Liars and The Lying Game came on today.
They were awesome. But yeah.

So don't judge me and I won't judge you. I do appear to come off as not religious at all but I have my own beliefs. It's just that all the experiences and my beliefs don't match up with those of my family's religion so I have a harder time being religious.


MusicalLover9816

Dear Kat

Dear Kat,

I hope I don't burn.
I'll make you a deal.
I will stop complaining about this trip.
And I might try to have fun.
I will listen.
But don't expect me to know a lot.
It's been a while since I've been in a church.
If they talk about gays I might talk back.
I will hold my tongue.
And I seriously don't know how to go two days without cussing.
You did blackmail me.
With guilt.
And now that it's already paid for.
I have to go.
'Cause that's how I was raised.
:-/
You spend $10 and I will spend $10.
We share out food.
Ugh I guess I need to start packing.
Is everyone at your church white?
Yeah I'll talk to you 'bout that deal.

I still love you.
Even though you blackmailed me.
And I have to go to church.
Which you conveniently forgot to mention.



Yeah,
MusicalLover9816




Maybe I should cry for help
Maybe I should kill myself (myself)
Blame it on my A.D.D. baby

- "Sail" by AWOLNATION

Dear Kat

Dear Kat,

My father said yes.
I hate you.
This better be fun.
I will see you at lunch tomorrow.
You owe me a cookie.
And I better not have to pay.

Love,
MusicalLover9816

Me

I say a lot of stuff about who I am and what I like. I have given you a little insight when I did my favorite music stuff and whenever I finish the book one it will be up. (I am super lazy and a procrastinator. A huge procrastinator.) So I am just gonna explain some stuff about me.

I know I did my introduction but that was brief and short and this should help I guess. I'm not going to give u enough clues to figure me out though. No one can do that.

Okay so I go to this school that specializes in certain areas. Drama is on of them and I am in that program.
Not because I want to act or anything because I think it's cool and should help me when I write. Help me express myself more and allow me to get into my characters more. It actually is helping some. I mean learning how to create a character better and how to step inside someone else's shoes. And because one of my career choices that sounds awesome is to be a set designer or a party planner or something.
I love to write stories, poems, short stories, and like anything.
I tried doing songs but its hard to establish it as a song. I will just write a poem and change some words so that it has a beat and stuff. So yeah that is that.
Okay I love reading. I mostly read books about the supernatural and paranormal but there are some really good human books I love too. I don't put myself in a certain genre of books. Yeah definitely fiction though. They could be realistic fiction or something but something made up. I read for enjoyment not because I have to. I mean I like seeing stories unfold in front of my eyes
Next is music. In my music post I listed a lot if music but there is so much more beyond that. When I say I listen to everything I literally mean it. I listen to everyone from Adele to Wiz Khalifa. I don't classify myself in one group. If I hear a song and I like it I will get it. I don't care if its pop, country, rap, rock, or R&B. I like songs that have a meaning to them. Yeah I will listen to those other just pop dance party stuff but I really like songs that I can put a meaning behind and apply it to my life. Without music I would probably be dead or in a mental hospital. My father and grandparents don't understand my taste in music. I don't remember church hymns but I can remember a song about gay marriage in a heartbeat. It's because that song has a real true meaning behind it.
So next I am going to do my personality. I am kind of mean... I guess. I call it truthful but there are some things I could go back and do differently. Apparently I'm loud but I don't see t. I mean I just want people to hear me. Um... I'm funny I guess. People laugh at me. I kinda have a dirty mind. Not gonna lie I do. Um... I am protective kind of. I mean I don't like people messing with my friends. It bothers me. I'm a realist but I lean a lot against a pessimistic. Yeah. I don't really know how to describe myself. When I have good days I can joke around and have fun. When I have bad days it just reflects on everyone around me. I kind of have a bad attitude when it comes to some people. And the sometimes I am the sweetest person. I don't care about people liking me. I'd rather just be myself. I mean popularity doesn't really matter to me. I have REAL friends and that's all that matters. I don't are about knowing everyone and stuff. I know enough people to know what's going on. I mean I'm like in the background and I like it that way. Now with my friends I'm all out there. I may seem shy until you get me around my friends then well yeah that's gone.
Um...
I love old cartoons. This shxt that comes on tv now is total crap. I miss Kim Possible, The Proud Family, The Old Scooby - Doo, Jimmy Neutron, Zack & Cody, That's So Raven, Old Spongebob Episodes, Catdog, Johnny Bravo, Foster's Home For Imaginary Friends, and a lot of others I don't want to list. I mean yeah the new Spongebob is okay but I loved the Krusty Krab Pizza one and the dude with the green stripped sweater, and when he first met Sandy. And the ugly Scooby - Doo that they made is terrible. And I miss these shows a lot and they don't even show most of them anymore. I mean seriously that was my childhood. All this crap they got these kids watching now is just ugh...
Now I do like some shows that come on now but they aren't really shows made for kids. I like Pretty Little Liars, The Lying Game, Ghost Adventures, Ridiculousness, Failosopy, NCIS and that is about it. I don't watch tv a lot. I mean yeah when I'm bored but not on a daily basis.
So my parents are divorced. My mom lived up North and my dad lives down South. My moms family lives up North and my fathers lives down South. I live with my father. He got remarried around 5 or 6 years ago to my stepmother. I don't like her. It's like she has multiple personalities with me. She can be mean and then nice and then ugh. It's annoying. My grandfather on my moms side has been dead for a year. I cried so hard at his funeral and I don't cry. At all. My great grandmother on my moms side is in a nursing home and barely remembers her name. My grandparents on my moms side are divorced and my grandfather married a white women who already has three or four kids. But my grandfather already has three of his own so yeah. My grandparents on my dad side are still together. They had three kids and adopted one of my aunts who treats them like shxt and got herself knocked up and didn't know the father. So yeah. They act like there life is perfect but they have this part of my family who I can the unmentionables because they barely get invited to family things and the others just gossip about them. These are the people who got in trouble and are trying to get their life together. The ones who smoke, do drugs, and have so many baby daddies there are too many to count. They part of my family no one wants to talk about. I like them best because they are real. They don't put on a mask and try to hide stuff. Yeah my fathers side is full of a bunch of phonies except like one of my aunts. I love her and she is absolutely crazy. She calls me a cu*t everything I see her. I don't care I just laugh it off and move on because that is how we are. I don't see her a lot. My father is so anti - social. He doesn't like going out with his family or my stepmothers family but I don't like my stepmothers family. They act so sweet to me but they don't know me and I know all it is is an act. I don't like all the fake smiles and oh look at you you have really grown and the ugly Christmas presents that don't reflect me at all. Stop buying me presents and just give me money. So yeah that's my family. Well a little insight on my family. If I stared to describe them you would probably know.
Um... I don't know what else to talk about.
I hate bugs.
I love chocolate.
I love KitKats.
I will eat Subway everyday.
I hate McDonalds chicken nuggets.
I love pens and sharpies.
I had a f**cked up childhood. (Not gonna explain that it's personal.)
I hate purses but I still carry one.
I'm black.
Yeah I guess that's all.
Yep so I hope you liked the little insight to me.
Yeah well

"Don't lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay...
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!"
- Who You Are - Jessie J

Don't know if that reflects everything I just said but its awesome and I love it so there. Deal with it or just GTFO.

MusicalLover9816

Suicide, Crayons, Retreat

Okay so on Friday this "friend" of mine... (I don't know what to call him. Sometimes he pisses me off and sometimes he is okay.) well he was feeling suicidal.
We are gonna call him AC.
So AC was feeling sorry for himself because no one would date him.
It was right then I wanted to punch him in the face. Are you seriously ready to kill yourself because you can't get a girlfriend.
Okay yeah I guess that's sad in his world but are you serious?
So anyways he is usually a douche but I have had suicidal thoughts and friends have helped me so I wanted to help.
So I went to talk to him and I told him like it is.
That nobody is gonna give a shxt if he kills himself. He is just gonna be another face in the crowd and people will forget. He needed to live and make something out of his life. Get out of our dumbf**k state and show everyone up. He needs to make women want him and men want to be him.
Yeah harsh or whatever but its the truth and you guys know that. It apparently cheered him up. So I guess I did good.
Y'all don't kill yourselves. Please. There are so much better things to do.
When I feel bad I get a pen and paper and I just write about nothing and anything.
It helps.
And then music is a f**k awesome motivator for me. I have a playlist labeled bad day for when I feel sad and stuff. It helps a lot.

Okay so next is crayons.
Yeah so we have this student teacher in my physical science class. My teacher usually leaves the room during the class period.
So today he left and we were doing this lab that required us to use crayons.
So yeah the childish people in my class decided to start throwing the crayons at people and all across the room.
An while the teacher was teaching they threw wet paper towels at her. She didn't even flinch.
So while we are doing the lab they are throwing crayons and stuff so I went to the side of the room that wasn't and the lady put me on the other side with all the childish people.
I swear to y'all if I had of gotten hit with a crayons I woulda went off.
So the lady is trying to calm us down and people are yelling and throwing stuff. So then this other teacher knocks on the door and ask if everything was okay.
She just nodded yes and moved on instead of sending the kids out. I mean I know she saw them.
So yeah then out teacher came back in and she told him and he made us all sit down.
To the people in my class... If you read this Y'ALL ARE A BUNCH OF CHILDISH DUMBA**ES AND CAN'T LEARN NOTHING BECAUSE Y'ALL WON'T SHUT YOU EVER-LOVING MOUTHS LONG ENOUGH FOR HER TO TALK.
So there...

Right and last is this Church Retreat Kat wants me to go on.
Yeah I'm not really religious.
I mean me family goes to church... Kind of. I mean me stepmother is a gospel group and my father only listens to gospel music but they don't necessarily go to church.
They praise God and stuff.
Now my grandparents are giant church people.
My grandmother is C.O.G.I.C. which means Church Of God In Christ and she only wears skirts because its like against God or something to wear pants.
Yeah I hate skirts. And dresses.
I mean yeah I believe in God and stuff but I really could care less. Yes he created everything and he blesses us but yeah. No one really knows.
For all we know God could be the bad one.
I'm not trying to insult anyone's religion or anything I am just saying.
I mean I don't know either.
An not knowing bothers me when it comes to stuff like this.
Yeah I pray when something is really wrong and I like certain gospel songs but I don't like talking about all the good God has done and stuff like that. And those people who just accept it without really looking at it and thinking about what they like and stuff.
I mean WTF is up with it being a sin for gays to get married.
And the part where children shouldn't disrespect their parents.
What if I have a good reason to? What if I don't believe in what my parents believe in? What if I actually want to me own person?
I want to be me not someone my parents expect me to be and my father and grandparents are still trying to accept that.
I mean really...
People have done a lot to lift him up but when it comes to him contradicting himself or something along those lines they just want to blow people off.
So yeah I don't want to go on the retreat with Kat, but she has done a lot for me so I am going to try.
Kill me now.
Preppy white b*tches who probably wear purity rings and shxt.
Yeah imma kill myself in the bathroom.


MusicalLover9816

Church Retreat

So my church is doing this thing on March 8-10 its a youth group retreat. I don't really want to go but id rather do that than stay home with my mother so I said I'd go especially because its free food and stuff. But don't really get along with the youth group because they have been together since they were like 8 or something. Plus they would rather accept everything their parents and the church tells them rather than actually think about whats being said. I don't just go along with whatever Jesus tells me to do I will think about if i want to or not and what I believe in rather that what I am supposed to believe in as a Christian because, hello? I'm only a Christian cause my parents are. But at least MusicLover might be able to come with me. The it might be bearable.

KatCentral

few things before i go....

just  came up with a threat: murdering people in cold blood is never easy. but i like challenges.
and i literally came up with that. kinda proud of myself. i might trademark it.
oh, and follow me on twitter. purty please @KatCentral just made a twitter bit*hes!!!!

KatCentral

TV

Okay so my father just bought this giant 60 inch tv. This is our fourth flat screen.
Everyone is all happy and shxt.
I'm not.
He also bought two tablets. One for him and one for my grandparents.
My grandfather doesn't know how to turn it on.
I'm pissed.
For a couple if reasons.

1. I haven't gotten anything for my birthday since I was like 7. I mean other people have given me stuff but he hasn't. And that's my father. Are you for real?

2. I have a cracked iPod he told me he would pay I get fixed and he hasn't done it. I mean if he isn't gonna do it why the hell tell me you were.

3. My brother and I have kindles that don't work. He said he would get us tablets and he hasn't yet... And then when I told him I still had a warranty on mines and I wanted to trade it in for a Kindle Fire HD he said no.

4. We live in this tiny a** apartment. And our lease is almost up. But instead of trying to rent or buy a house there is a new tv. Really are you even looking? I don't want to live in this dumba** apartment.

5. He doesn't pay me or my brother to do chores or babysit our siblings. We don't get money for washing dishes or loading the dishwasher and since there are a lot if us we do it everyday but nope we don't get paid.

6. He doesn't give me money for anything. Doesn't give my brother money either. If I ask for something he always says do you have money?

7. He expects my mom to pay for everything. I mean seriously. She pays for my clothes, shoes, everything. He hasn't bought me shxt. She does everything and that takes a lot out of her money. Because she has three kids.

8. Me and my brother are at that driving age. So yeah I am going to want a car. I don't mind sharing with my brother but yeah we need a car.

9. There is no food in the house. I mean none at all. My stepmother goes out every night and buys us something to eat for the night. But no instead of something we NEED he buys something he WANTS.

10. When my brother and me get money if I don't tell him before hand that I am getting something he will take my money.
Seriously. I have been expecting money in cards and letters and I know that person is sending me money but I don't get it. So now I just tell him before hand that someone is sending me stuff.

So yeah he could of used this damn money in a whole lot of other ways that actually benefit people instead of this tv we don't NEED. So yeah I'm upset.
Ugh... I hope he doesn't expect me to buy him shxt for his birthday or anniversary.

MusicalLover9816

4th Block

So today my Spanish teacher wasn't here and I'm kinda glad he wasn't because we went to the gym and some crazy stuff went down.
So firstly, I learned how much of a douche KJ is because he is torturing this girl he knows likes him by following her like a lovesick puppy then trying to actually get with a junior when he knows he doesn't have a chance with. Hello? He's just a idiot freshman. Not all freshman are idiots. But KJ is.
Then, this guy named A was all depressed and shxt cause the past 2 girls he asked out said no I don't know why he's tripping. He's had 3 girlfriends so far this year. I don't know why C said A was about to do suicide when all A was doing is lying down and pouting. Nonetheless, MusicLover gave him a therapy session. She said "Ain't nobody gonna care about you when you kill yourself you will just be another face in the obituaries you need to get out of your funk and be someone so the people who screwed you over will be like, 'damn.'" I totally agree. I was kinda just there and being myself lightening the mood when MusicLover gave it to him straight.
But A is my buddy even though he makes a shxtload of sex jokes but whatever. He's still funny some of the time though he accused me of raping him yesterday...but that's a different story.
I also asked some of my nerd friends(the dorky, pokemon cards playing ones) if they would promise me that they would get a life by the end of high school. And if you know me you know I'm not being mean I actually want you to have fun and get a life and stuff. Then the most annoying one was like "I have a girlfriend so," then flipped me off. He wasn't being mean or anything that's just who he is and that's why he's annoying. But he's smart and he helps me in math plus he's funny sometimes too. Okay back to the point I was like, what the fruit ever I know you are dating but you saying it every 5 seconds is kind of annoying because he really does. And I was also thinking just because you have a girlfriend doesn't mean you have a life it just means you've tricked some girl into thinking you are cool for the time being. I didn't even say all of that though I just rolled my eyes and went back to talk to A.
But it was still fun. It was a fun time.

KatCentral

Dear J

I'm drawn to you because I know how it feels to waste a smile on the floor.

KatCentral

Tired

So I had this post about inspiring people and stuff planned out.
I even had song lyrics to go with it right.
But then I was walking home and I just became so tired.
I get here and it's all quiet.
So yeah. I'm home and I have a lot if stuff to do and someone is trying to talk to me... Like really have a conversation and I don't want to.
My room is freezing cold and we have no food or anything to drink.
My head hurts from having bobby pins in it all day. (Hair clips for those who don't know.)
So yeah...
Finna blast music and clean my room up because it looks a mess and my stepmom is dropping stuff off at GoodWill this weekend and I have a shxt load of clothes I need to give away.
Got my sweatshirt and sweatpants in with furry socks.
Gone is the nice looking MusicalLover now I look like I just rolled out of bed.
Yes I will do the book recommendation.
I seriously have to find the authors to some of these.
So yeah might post later. Might not.
Whatever.

MusicalLover9816